Am I being punished? vent

Normally I can get through everything. I'm like a master problem solver but...this is just getting to be ridiculous. It's funny how little things can set us off. It all started with my car battery being dead. And it's still dead. I can't pick up my son and his dad has his phone shut off because he's broke, and he has no license and no plates on his car to help. I called his dad to see if he would help and that sob pretended to say he would help. He never showed up. And I have no one else to help me. I mean, I have friends in this state but no family. I can't live asking my friends for help forever you know? Nothing, like a wonderful reminder to help me see how incredibly alone I am...and I feel so effing alone....I'm living in a single parents affordable housing subsidy and I was finally making headway, I signed my lease for my own, regular market price two bed room in a really nice neighborhood because my boss finally let me start working full time but I'm kind of scared. It seems like it's always going to be like this. What if this happens when I move next month? I don't know anyone where I'm moving and I'll be at least ten miles away form all my friends. I mean, what more could go wrong?! It seems like everything that can go wrong, has gone wrong this year and even though I'm counting on it being better once I'm slightly out of the system of poverty and counting on my own money to support me and my son, everything can be so fragile and ready to break apart, like it is now. I feel so hopeless and infuriated. I'm pretty sure my son's dad is doing it on purpose...he normally calls if even from a pay phone, and I'm pretty sure his own dad probably let him know that I needed help and he wants to use this emphasize for thehundredthtime that I can't do this on my own. That I can't live a better life without him. But I can, and I will even if things keep effing up like this because I've always faced and persevered through any problem. It's just so difficult and days like this just take away all the hope and energy I've taught myself to have....how can it be that laws can force me to stay with my son in a state where I have no family, no support, and I'm constantly fudged up by the fact that I don't have enough $ for a lawyer to get me out of this crap. I'll finally be making enough to give my son better surroundings than our current surroundings but..it doesn't change that I'll be utterly alone in my feat to give myself and my son a better life...