Letter to Heaven

**This is a release for me, sorry if it seems "silly".**

Dear Dad,

I miss you every day. I hope you know how much I love you. How proud I am of you, and the battle you fought. You will always be my hero. I have never met a man as strong as you, and I probably wont. There isn't a day that goes by, that I don't think about you. I miss hearing your laugh. I miss your hugs. I miss you yelling at me that I am being too loud. I miss everything about you.

Christmas and Thanksgiving and your birthday are around the corner, and I long for you to be here for the holidays. They just aren't the same without you.

I never thought much about how much of a Daddy's girl I am, when I was growing up it never crossed my mind. I think I am somewhat took it for granted. I apologize for that.

We are talking about marriage in August of next year. I can't help but get really emotional when I think about it. So much I want to just run to the courthouse and get married. I don't even want to think about taking those steps without you. But I know that you wouldn't want that. So I will walk down that isle, I will hold my head high and I will do it "right". I will make you proud.

I start school in Jan. You would be so proud of me daddy, I am getting it together. I know it's taken me awhile, but I was sort of lost for awhile. My head was stuck in the sand. But I am doing it. I am terrified, I don't want to fail. But mom keeps saying I will be fine. I have the encouragement of everyone around me. So that helps.

I never got a chance to apologize to you. A few months before you passed away, we got in a fight. I said things to you, that I can't take back. I wish I had a delete button on my words. But I don't. I know that you know I didn't mean it, and that I love you. But I am so sorry that I lashed out at you when you were so sick. I was trying to understand everything, and it was hard. I should have tried a little harder. I am so so so sorry for that fight. I don't think I ever got to say that to you, even though we let it go.

I love you Daddy. I miss you. I wish you were here. Please give everyone huge kisses for me.

Love your baby girl.

That's not silly at all. ETA** I have a similar thing in my profile   **

I'm sorry about you losing your dad, I just lost mine September 24, and it's even harder than I thought it would be. I was "prepared" because he was terminally ill, but nothing really can prepare you for that kind of loss.

**hugs**

I'm so sorry for your loss. I promise your dad knew how much you loved him. and you are right, he will be right there with you when you walk down the isle. And OF COURSE he is proud of you for school and everything you have done. I hope you feel better soon, hun

Beautiful...
I know how you feel ..I just lost my Dad in July, while I was pregnant with my new baby...PM me if you want to talk...

Quoting pilot Jess:“ That's not silly at all. ETA** I have a similar thing in my profile   ** I'm sorry about you losing ... [snip!] ... would be. I was "prepared" because he was terminally ill, but nothing really can prepare you for that kind of loss. **hugs**”

*huge hugs*

I am sorry for your loss hun.

I understand that. My dad was battling for almost 5 years. And people say "oh so you knew", like it makes any difference. He has been gone for a year and a half now, but it hasn't seemed to get any easier.

That was beautiful.

Thanks for your kind words ladies. I really appreciate it.

I am not sure why it is hitting tonight, but it is.

Ohhhhhh! Your letter made me cry! That was amazing and beautiful! Im so sorry for your loss though I hope you are ok? I bet your dad is proud of you and hes prolly smiling down on you from heaven
*hugs*

Quoting Tarra*:“ Thanks for your kind words ladies. I really appreciate it. I am not sure why it is hitting tonight, but it is.”

It still hits me like that...He passed suddenly, so it is still hard for my family....Sometimes Ill just see his face and cry...it happens

Quoting I♥Aubrey an Ryan!:“ Ohhhhhh! Your letter made me cry! That was amazing and beautiful! Im so sorry for your loss though I ... [snip!] ... for your loss though I hope you are ok? I bet your dad is proud of you and hes prolly smiling down on you from heaven *hugs*”

Thank you.

Quoting MrsLewis108-3 kids now!!!:“ It still hits me like that...He passed suddenly, so it is still hard for my family....Sometimes Ill just see his face and cry...it happens”

I understand that. My heart goes out to you and your family.

Quoting Tarra*:“ I understand that. My heart goes out to you and your family.”

Thank you...yours as well

Quoting Tarra*:“ Thank you.”

Your welcome =]

My grandad who brought me up for the first 4 years of my life passed away 6 years ago and yesterday i was his angelversary, Trust me it does get easier, my grandad missed seeing his first great-grandson but i think that he is looking down watching. Dont leave ur life on hold i may take a while but things will get easier only in the last few years have i been able to talk about him without bursting into tears
I hope this helps in some way
Donna x