re: how would you feel....

wow hun that all sounds awful. I think deep down you know what you need to do, you and your LO dont deserve this shit. From what you've said in your posts, i dont think you'll ever look back and think...what if?? You've gave your SO way more chances than what i wud. I know you say you love him, but i think you love someone you 'thought' he was.
You deserve far better than him...and will get far better than him.