a question about loss

a post just made me think back ... i never got to bury my son my hospital was all sorts of wrong when i lsot him at 18 weeks it was a partial miscarriage and they said it was" hazordous waste " and disposed of him them selves who knows how .. dont say anything i dont want to know im still suffering over his loss but i was thinking would it be strange to have a "funeral " for my son i know he wont be buried but maybe spiritually as a way of closiung that chapter ...
nothing will bring him back to me iw ish there was a way at times and every time i see a loss post it reminds me of my son .... is that normal too ?  

RIP leviathan i love you little guy mommy is always thinking of you /

ETA - is this even a possible requst ? to do i do not know how to go about something like that ?

Quoting Madam Anarchist:“ a post just made me think back ... i never got to bury my son my hospital was all sorts of wrong when ... [snip!] ... is always thinking of you / ETA - is this even a possible requst ? to do i do not know how to go about something like that ?”

 
at hazardous waste....

that's AWFUL

Quoting Amber[♥]Joelle:“   at hazardous waste.... that's AWFUL”

yeah ... i dont even know how that is possible but that hospital i had made a number of posts about and they are messed up in that place :S .....

they said beacuse it was a partial it was hazordous waste ? only part of him came out .....

Quoting Madam Anarchist:“ a post just made me think back ... i never got to bury my son my hospital was all sorts of wrong when ... [snip!] ... is always thinking of you / ETA - is this even a possible requst ? to do i do not know how to go about something like that ?”

Sorry for your loaa. I guess I am just surprised that they did not offer to give you your babys remains.
Hazardous waste? Damn, they could have been a little more sensative

Quoting Madam Anarchist:“ yeah ... i dont even know how that is possible but that hospital i had made a number of posts about ... [snip!] ... messed up in that place :S ..... they said beacuse it was a partial it was hazordous waste ? only part of him came out .....”

Maybe it was "Biohazard"?

Plant a tree or flower bush, something beautiful like your baby was, in his honor. You and the father and any siblings your son may have can eulogize him there. It is a sort of closure that any time you want to remember your son you have to look only as far as the plant that you planted in his memory. I am sorry for your loss and I hope that this idea can help bring you some piece.

Quoting Colleen13:“ Maybe it was "Biohazard"?”

thats the word thank you sorry im dead tired .
but is till dont see how they could have done that .... i guess i can with it being a partial body ?

Quoting mrsabbyrice:“ Plant a tree or flower bush, something beautiful like your baby was, in his honor. You and the father ... [snip!] ... as the plant that you planted in his memory. I am sorry for your loss and I hope that this idea can help bring you some piece.”

i might do that but since i lost him i have really not liked planting for some reason .... i used to have a stunning garden before i moved when i was pregnant .... then when he died i stopped tending to it and all my roses even the plants i transplanted well my mil did to bring with me here to the new place i let die .... im not sure why im having issues with such a simple thing ?

Quoting Madam Anarchist:“ yeah ... i dont even know how that is possible but that hospital i had made a number of posts about ... [snip!] ... messed up in that place :S ..... they said beacuse it was a partial it was hazordous waste ? only part of him came out .....”

That is ridiculous...I cannot believe they would call your child hazardous waste...and I think it would be a great idea to have a memorial for your son. Choose a spot & plant a beautiful tree or any kind of plant. That would be wonderful

Quoting Amber[♥]Joelle:“ That is ridiculous...I cannot believe they would call your child hazardous waste...and I think it would ... [snip!] ... idea to have a memorial for your son. Choose a spot & plant a beautiful tree or any kind of plant. That would be wonderful”

the only place i have to plant now however is my solarium .... so i saddly can not plant a tree nor would i on the biuildings yard :S

Quoting Madam Anarchist:“ i might do that but since i lost him i have really not liked planting for some reason .... i used to ... [snip!] ... my mil did to bring with me here to the new place i let die .... im not sure why im having issues with such a simple thing ?”

It may make you feel better to have something beautiful that you and your family can look at and remember him. I hope that it helps because it is entirely understandable that you are still struggling. My hopes and thoughts are with you.

Quoting mrsabbyrice:“ It may make you feel better to have something beautiful that you and your family can look at and remember ... [snip!] ... I hope that it helps because it is entirely understandable that you are still struggling. My hopes and thoughts are with you.”

thank you very very much it is a serious daily battle because he was a twin thank whoever is up there his sister made it and i have a wonderfull amazing daughter i know helives on in her eyes but it gets hard sometimes i wake up wishing for both of them to be crawling on me .... ect ..... ugh