Trying to keep my mind off of the twins...

Lydia's coming home on Saturday and I'm so thrilled, I miss her so much! So today I'm working on cleaning the whole house, my stomach is killing me, and so is my heart but I need to get this stuff done.. I want to sanatize all of her toys so she doesn't get sick... This is a short post, just wanted to make sure everyone knew I was alive and trying to function.. Although I find typing exhausting physically and emotionally..

I miss you and I love you Lanie, Heath, and Christina.. Not a second goes by that you three don't run through my mind... I'll see you someday! Until then, God, please take good care of my precious little ones. Thank you, Amen.

what happened?

Sorry momma for your loss. I'm glad though that Lydia is coming home. She will help heal some of that hurt.

I just read your story. My heart breaks for you. I am glad she is coming home!!

How come you have your babies so early? Do they know?

Quoting The 3M's mom:“ Sorry momma for your loss. I'm glad though that Lydia is coming home. She will help heal some of that hurt.”

I hope your right.. I miss her so much, my mom sent me so many pictures of her playing and she just looks so big compared to last time I seen her... Which was before I went to the hospital... My chest is killing me and I don't know why, I keep getting sharp pains in it, maybe anxiaty? (sp?)

Quoting Sy's mommy:“ what happened?”

  

I'm glad you're getting up and doing stuff!

Quoting Sy's mommy:“ what happened?”

this is short, I had H1N1, high blood pressure, emergency c-section of my twins, neither of them survived..

Quoting Bridget&Lydia [GDS]:“ this is short, I had H1N1, high blood pressure, emergency c-section of my twins, neither of them survived..”

I'm so sorry!   

Quoting shes*almost*one!:“ I'm glad you're getting up and doing stuff!”

I think it will make me feel a little better, I can't just lay on the couch and cry.. I need to be productive, I think the twins would want that... I feel like I'm in such a daze.. I hardly even know what I'm doing.. I feel like I'm a zombie on auto-pilot.

Quoting Bridget&Lydia [GDS]:“ Lydia's coming home on Saturday and I'm so thrilled, I miss her so much! So today I'm working on cleaning ... [snip!] ... through my mind... I'll see you someday! Until then, God, please take good care of my precious little ones. Thank you, Amen.”

i just read what happened, i'm so sorry for your loss. You are strong.

I'm so sorry for your loss. That must be so hard.
But I'm glad you are up and trying to move on and take care of your beautiful daughter

I am so sorry mama.Im gald your baby is coming home though.

I'm sure you don't remember me, but you were one of the first mothers I met when I joined. I have followed your story since then. You are a very strong woman! Your little girl is just as strong. You have more strength to have gone through the things you have gone through than 10 people combined. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers!

Quoting Bridget&Lydia [GDS]:“ I think it will make me feel a little better, I can't just lay on the couch and cry.. I need to be productive, ... [snip!] ... would want that... I feel like I'm in such a daze.. I hardly even know what I'm doing.. I feel like I'm a zombie on auto-pilot.”

Sorry for ur loss! I hope ur reunion with ur daughter fills you wit lots of joy..