re: Trying to keep my mind off of the twins...

Sorry for your losses. <3

Im so sorry i had read you were pregnant again but i didnt know they were angels.

Quoting Bridget&Lydia [GDS]:“ this is short, I had H1N1, high blood pressure, emergency c-section of my twins, neither of them survived..”

I am so sorry for your loss momma !! I have watched you pull through , you are a strong women!! I can't imagine going through what you are going through!! Keep your head up...I know it's hard now though... Were all here for you on BG... Take Care!

Quoting Bridget&Lydia [GDS]:“ I think it will make me feel a little better, I can't just lay on the couch and cry.. I need to be productive, ... [snip!] ... would want that... I feel like I'm in such a daze.. I hardly even know what I'm doing.. I feel like I'm a zombie on auto-pilot.”

Doing stuff, especially cleaning, passes time much faster than laying around. You're right about the twins, I'm sure they'd want you up and trying to push forward. What do you use to sanitize Lydia's toys? A bleach/water mix, or those baby sanitizing tablets? Just curious which you think is better, I'm sure you do a LOT of sanitizing!!

Quoting shes*almost*one!:“ Doing stuff, especially cleaning, passes time much faster than laying around. You're right about the ... [snip!] ... mix, or those baby sanitizing tablets? Just curious which you think is better, I'm sure you do a LOT of sanitizing!!”

This seems to be helping, although when I was cleaning, over on the side of the couch, was a huge bag of clothes my cousin bought for the twins.. I just sat there and stared at the bag, I ended up laying it in the twins, nursery.. I haven't been in there since I got home, and it needs to be cleaned up.. Lydia played in there while I was putting stuff away a few weeks ago, the twins stuff, and it's a well Lydia cyclone in there.. I'll get to it, but it doesn't have to be now.. Right?

As for sanatizing, I do a lot of bleach/water.. Lydia's ped said that's the best to sanatize with.. We also use a lot of disinfectant spray.. Wash hands a lot, and I try to disinfect toys once a week, but I've been slacking the past month, maybe twice a month if that.. Bad mommy!

Just please be careful, don't overdo things and hurt your incision!

I'm glad you're up for seeing Lydia, how could the sight of that sweet girl not cheer you up

Hugs

Im so sorry Bridget, Im thinking of you constantly!

I still need to tell Jack, and I just don't know how... Over the phone, in person? What should I say? I don't even know what to tell myself, what do I tell the man I love, loved.. Need right now? I'm so flustered.. Cleaning went well though, done with toys!

Quoting Bridget&Lydia [GDS]:“ I still need to tell Jack, and I just don't know how... Over the phone, in person? What should I say? ... [snip!] ... myself, what do I tell the man I love, loved.. Need right now? I'm so flustered.. Cleaning went well though, done with toys!”

I think this is a conversation that should be had face to face. I know it may be hard to ask him to meet with you considering the circumstances you guys are in, but let him know that this is very important to you. I think, regardless of the past, Jack can be there for you during this. (Or at least I hope so...) I hope you find a way to heal in all of this. I always tell my DH how strong you are and I know you will make it through this in time.

Quoting Bridget&Lydia [GDS]:“ I still need to tell Jack, and I just don't know how... Over the phone, in person? What should I say? ... [snip!] ... myself, what do I tell the man I love, loved.. Need right now? I'm so flustered.. Cleaning went well though, done with toys!”

you do need to tell him and see how he responds, if he just blows you off then that's his problem. he doesn't deserve you for what he did, but you do still need to tell him, i would ask him to come see you in person when you get lydia, and maybe he would like to see her too, if not tell him on the phone. either way good luck momma! i'm sorry for your loss, but you're right the twins would want you to be moving and take good care of their big sister lydia. take care and we love you here on bg

I'm so sorry for your loss Bridget.....please be careful with cleaning, don't do so much, since you just had a c-section. You don't need to hurt anymore then you already do. take care and god bless

Quoting Bridget&Lydia [GDS]:“ I still need to tell Jack, and I just don't know how... Over the phone, in person? What should I say? ... [snip!] ... myself, what do I tell the man I love, loved.. Need right now? I'm so flustered.. Cleaning went well though, done with toys!”

Oh good thing you cleaned. I hope that helped you feel better. As far as Jack....think of all your options and how he might react. Maybe make a list and put pros and cons. IDK.....just an idea. Would mailing him a letter be an option? IDK if that is too weird.