November 4, 2009

I don't know where the time has gone and how I made it here. .
but today Brooklynn would be 8 months.

I miss her more and more everyday. .People lied when they said it got better. I don't know what I'm going to do with the holidays coming up  



I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked "What makes a Mother?"
And I know I heard him say
A Mother has a baby
This we know is true
But, God, can you be a mother
When your baby's not with you?

Yes, you can he replied
With confidence in his voice
I give many women babies
When they leave it is not their choice
Some I send for a lifetime
And others for the day
And some I send to feel your womb
But there's no need to stay.

I just don't understand this God
I want my baby here

He took a breath
and cleared his throat
And then I saw a tear
I wish I could show you
What your child is doing today
If you could see your child smile
With other children and say
"We go to earth to learn our lessons
of love and life and fear
My mommy loved me so much
I got to come straight here
I feel so lucky to have a Mom who had so much love for me
I learned my lessons very quickly
My Mommy set me free. .

I miss my Mommy oh so much
But I visit her each day
When she goes to sleep
On her pillow is where I lay
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek
And whisper in her ear
Mommy don't be sad today
I'm your baby and I am here"

So you see my dear sweet one
Your children are okay
Your babies are here in My home
And this is where they'll stay
They'll wait for you with Me
Until your lessons are through
And on the day you come home
they'll be at the gates for you

So now you see
What makes a Mother
It's the feeling in your heart
It's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start
Though some on earth
May not realize
Until their time is done
Remember all the love you have
And know that you are
A Special Mom

Author Unknown

Quoting MarchBaby:“ I don't know where the time has gone and how I made it here. . but today Brooklynn would be 8 months. ... [snip!] ... not realize Until their time is done Remember all the love you have And know that you are A Special Mom Author Unknown”

Im sorry mama!!

But it does get easier. I know you dont think so right, now, but it does!!
Hugs!

it doesnt actually get easier imo it just gets more numb as time goes by

Quoting Kaylee+Kaelin'sMommy:“ it doesnt actually get easier imo it just gets more numb as time goes by”

I can't get any more numb then this. .that would be dead.
I feel no pain. I think thats why part of me still feels like it happend yesterday, because I'm so numb from it all.

Quoting MarchBaby:“ I can't get any more numb then this. .that would be dead. I feel no pain. I think thats why part of me still feels like it happend yesterday, because I'm so numb from it all.”

i cant say i know how you feel i dont but i do know that it does prove strengh to be able to talk about it and live on...

your story is heart breaking, im so very sorry for your loss. my thoughts are with you x

Quoting madii:“ your story is heart breaking, im so very sorry for your loss. my thoughts are with you x”

Thank you.

I haven't prayed in almost 2 years. I lost my brother to murder on Christmas night of 2007. I also lost my faith in God that night. But I just wanted to let you know that I just prayed for you. I read your profile and completely broke down. My heart truly is aching for you. I have twins due in March and couldn't even begin to imagine that kind of heartbreak. I have never lost a child, and I know nothing compares to that. But I have been numb to everything. I have woke up every morning that I would die that day. It's taken almost 2 years for me to be able to talk about what I have lost. The pain will never, ever go away, but it does get easier to live with. I can promise you that.

My thoughts are with you mama. Stay strong.

I am so very sorry for your loss. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. Your poem was absolutely beautiful and very touching.

Quoting MamaBear [TWINS!]:“ I haven't prayed in almost 2 years. I lost my brother to murder on Christmas night of 2007. I also lost ... [snip!] ... ever go away, but it does get easier to live with. I can promise you that. My thoughts are with you mama. Stay strong.”

Thank you.
You have the same due date as I did.