closure!!

ok so a select few people know my story a long long time ago about my abortion. im not going to go into detail at this moment but i just wanted to post about what ive been thinking and so fourth!!So i got this message fro my x BF that was going to be the father of my child when i was 15! i was like wtf? we dont talk we dont speak the last time i saw him was when he was dating my NOW friend ( that he cheated on me with and i hated her we have now come to terms and are quite good friends) oh back in april of 08 we hung out my husband met him for the first time he knows our past it was a little weird? anyways he messaged me and said hey..so i said hi.. the conversation quickly went to how are you whats good and i responded very short. so i thought maybe this was a gift sent from above or something becuase lately ive been thinking a lot about the abortion and what would it have been like and so fourth! im not one to dwell on an ex becuase he did me so wrong but he was also my first everything including first pregnancy! so i confronted him and asked some questions tlling him i think about the abortion a lot ( letting him know i dont think about him in general and i wasnt hitting on him) he let ME know even though he has attempted hooking up with me since ive gotten with my husband 5 years ago that he wasnt trying to get with me he just wanted to say hi and let me know how big of a fuck up hes been in life and yada yada, so anyways he answerd some questions that i needed answerd and ever since i spoke with him i feel better knowing that he cared about me at the time and hearing him apologize for the things he put me through! i just felt like i needed to share this he said hes not doing so good. i dont think that made me feel good that i doing better than he is right now but i think it makes me feel better about the decision that was made for me . he says he thinks that if i had the " kid" he would have been different and he still wants one to this day but just by the way he spoke and how he was doing i just felt much better about some things!! i will often think about it still..i dont think that will ever change i know i thought about a lot was it a mistake,do i regret it i had a lot of weird feelings towards it but now i feel like i can cope with it better now and not lay awake in tears becuase of it!!

thanks for reading!!

Pro-lifers please no rude comments spell checkers i dont feel like proofreadig my work thanks!!

Quoting Bri.Josh.Aubri&Hunter:“ ok so a select few people know my story a long long time ago about my abortion. im not going to go into ... [snip!] ... of it!! thanks for reading!! Pro-lifers please no rude comments spell checkers i dont feel like proofreadig my work thanks!!”

I'm glad you are feeling better about your past and your ex was able to provide some closure to you. Best of luck to you in the future!

Quoting Colleen13:“ I'm glad you are feeling better about your past and your ex was able to provide some closure to you. Best of luck to you in the future!”

thanks darlin!!!!!!!!!!! and me too!!