Vent =/

anyone that has read any of my past post about my BD would know 2 things right off the back. 1. hes not a good person and 2. we dont have a good relationship. i tried really hard to make things ok between him and i. but some where there has to be a line some where. i really wanted him to be there for my pregnancy. he had the chance to but he ran. he left the state right after we found out i was pregnant. like days after. his excuse for going? to get his GED. hes back in the state with out the one thing that he said he left for.hes been back for 2 weeks. he came back to the state with 200 dollars that is all gone now. on what? drugs. he didnt even tell me he was coming back nor did he make an effort to see me. i also heard that as soon as he got back despite everyone that has seen me and felt my stomach , that he started denying my pregnancy. i saw him for the first time a few days ago. i went to a friends house that he was staying at wen he wasnt there and wasnt suppose to be so i could get something to swim in while my girl friend was visiting a friend in the same complex . as i was waiting on my friend to find something he walked in. (i was standing right by the door) as soon as he opened the door he stopped dead in his tracks and just stared at me with the most in ah look. he didnt say anything to me and walked in, his new girlfriend right behind him. if felt like someone stabbed me in the chest. he couldnt even look at me. so i left and went swimming trying to calm down. so much was brought up by just seeing him that i didnt even know i was feeling. i didnt know it would be that hard. when i was done swimming i wasnt going back up stares to that appt. i stand on the stares and waited as my friend went to give them the wet clothes back. i told her not to bring him out there. i didnt want to see him or talk to him. i didnt know what id say but what did she do. she brought him out there. and still he couldnt look at me or say anything. i couldnt help my self anymore. i put my head down and cried. for so long all i felt towards him was anger and all i felt wen i saw him was pain. he was my best friend for years before we dated. i dont understand how he could act the way he does to me. i dont understand why he denys his son when its what he wanted. he told me befor i was even pregnant that he didnt want to be like his father. but thats what hes doing now.i know that it happens all the time. but i just dont understand how you can go from being a best friend to nothing.

Oh honey...that definantly sucks but FUCK 'EM!!!! Don't waste another tear or moment on a piece of shit who would run out on his own flesh and blood!!

You have bigger things to plan for and worry about...you just make sure that even though he's not man enough to step up that you get your butt down to a Child Support agency and get you childs money!

Even if you don't want to take it put it into savings cause babies are hella expensive.

Im sorry you have to go through all this. When i found out i was pregnant my SO freaked out. He said he wasnt ready to be dad and our relationship was really rocky for a couple of months. He finally came around and we are doing great. It sounds like your BD is scared but he has no right to treat you like crap. Show him that you dont need him and just concentrate on doing good for you and your son. If you ever need to talk PM me. Stay strong mama!