What is this?

I dont know what has been going on the past few weeks/months. It started in June when we went on vacation. Ive always had anxiety/depression issues. I was on medication for 3 years before Harlow was born. I have fears of something happening to the girls. When we went on vacation, I was terrified of the balcony on our hotel room. We were over 10 stories high, I could so vividly picture one of the girls climbing on it and falling onto the concrete. I had nightmares. It got so bad I put a bell on the door to hear if anyone moved it. I thought it would go away, I havent felt depressed. But lately I have been having more thoughts. Car accidents mainly. Someone hitting us from the side and me turning around and seeing the girls in a horrible way. It is so vivid, I am awake when I see/picture them happening. I get sick to my stomach and panic. I sweat and get nervous. It passes within a few minutes but any situation makes me terrifed. We are goign to Disney world in April, Im scared to fly. Ive flown so many times, but not with the girls. I am scared something will happen and all I can picture in my head is the plane going down and me holding them in tears trying to be calm saying "dont worry honey its all going to be alright". I get that pit in my stomach feeling. I hate it. I hate thinking these things. What is it?? Am I going crazy?

Sounds like anxiety attacks to me. I have about 10 of those a week. See a psychiatrist, they will be able to try to help you minimize the amount of attacks you get with medication, therapy, or a combination of both.

It sounds to me like GAD (General Anxiety Disorder). It's a very vague diagnosis, but it's very real. You mentioned that you've always had anxiety. Have you been diagnosed with GAD in the past?

Quoting Stef [Lola's mom]:“ It sounds to me like GAD (General Anxiety Disorder). It's a very vague diagnosis, but it's very real. You mentioned that you've always had anxiety. Have you been diagnosed with GAD in the past?”

No just severe depression with bouts of anxiety. Im also breastfeeding. So anything I take has to be safe for her and not affect my supply....ugh. I hate it.

Quoting LA REINA™:“ Sounds like anxiety attacks to me. I have about 10 of those a week. See a psychiatrist, they will be ... [snip!] ... they will be able to try to help you minimize the amount of attacks you get with medication, therapy, or a combination of both.”

Really?? So it actually has a diagnosis? I thought I was going crazy.

sounds like me  

Quoting ariel  :“ sounds like me  ”

really? Are you on medication or do you talk to anyone??

Are yours really graphic and even when you are awake??? I get nervous at redlights thinking someone may run them and hit us in the side of the car where the girls are  

Quoting MommytoKenz,Lily,&Harlow:“ Really?? So it actually has a diagnosis? I thought I was going crazy.”

Yeah, I'm not medicated right now because I'm pregnant but my psych is probably going to give me the green light to start my medicine again or give me a script for something else. I get the attacks so bad while in a car, I don't like to drive anywhere and I freak sometimes when my husband is driving. It sucks so bad.

I was taking Paxil once a day and Ativan for when I needed immediate relief from attacks. I was doing so great on my medicine and then I found out I was pregnant so I quit and I've been going through awful withdrawls. OP, make an appointment with a psychiatrist, you won't be disappointed.

Quoting LA REINA™:“ I was taking Paxil once a day and Ativan for when I needed immediate relief from attacks. I was doing ... [snip!] ... so I quit and I've been going through awful withdrawls. OP, make an appointment with a psychiatrist, you won't be disappointed.”

Thank you. Im going to call my doctor to get a referral tomorrow morning. Can you take the medications when bfing?? I want to keep bfing her. I dont want anything else.  

Quoting MommytoKenz,Lily,&Harlow:“ Thank you. Im going to call my doctor to get a referral tomorrow morning. Can you take the medications when bfing?? I want to keep bfing her. I dont want anything else.  ”

Neither of those are safe while breastfeeding. While I was breastfeeding my dr gave me Zoloft but I didn't really like it.

Quoting LA REINA™:“ Neither of those are safe while breastfeeding. While I was breastfeeding my dr gave me Zoloft but I didn't really like it.”

That is what I am afraid of. I think me bfing her is what is holding me together really. I feel so proud of myself. It was so hard for 6 weeks, she is my last baby, the only one Ive bfed, and Im not willing to quit for myself to be less anxious   I hope they can give me something or someone to talk to. I hate these attacks but know that the depression would be worse if I had to stop bfing due to my stupid self.....

Quoting MommytoKenz,Lily,&Harlow:“ That is what I am afraid of. I think me bfing her is what is holding me together really. I feel so ... [snip!] ... to talk to. I hate these attacks but know that the depression would be worse if I had to stop bfing due to my stupid self.....”

I didn't want to stop BF'ing either so I ended up stopping the medication and just learning how to cope with the anxiety. Having someone to talk to really, really, really helps though.

Quoting LA REINA™:“ I didn't want to stop BF'ing either so I ended up stopping the medication and just learning how to cope with the anxiety. Having someone to talk to really, really, really helps though.”

Thank you again! I really appreciate it. Im going to give them a call tomorrow.

Quoting MommytoKenz,Lily,&Harlow:“ Thank you again! I really appreciate it. Im going to give them a call tomorrow.”

Your welcome, good luck!