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Quoting clairebear07:“ Hi My name is ashley,Im 24. and married to the love of my life. I would first like to say I read every ... [snip!] ... but the doc has chalked it up to braxton hicks. im hoping thats what is I appreciate everone for ready this pm me anytime.....”

I lost my son to the diaphramatic hernia and I will tell you that your whole entire pregnancy will seemlike any other one. If you have a weird feeling its not from the hernia the hernia does not affect the baby untilthey are born that is when it really starts. I would like to tell you good luck and I wish for the best for you. I went full term with my son and he lived for one week. Keep me updated on what happens please.

Hi :] I'm Desiree,I am 18 years old.I had a misscarage about 4 months ago.we decided to try again.I am about to be 9 weeks.we just hope we can have this baby.

My name is Tianna. I havent logged on here since I got my last ulttra sound for my son. Which was before i lost him I am 17 years old and a mother to a child god has brought home. Heres my story,Early September was so hard for me and my boyfriend because everydayi was sick and sleeping through the day and we didnt know what was going on. We went to the doctors on September 19th 2007 to find that I was pregnant, 10 weeks! I was kind of scared but at the same time happy because I was blessed with a child; but i was only 17 and my babys father was only 18. We were puzzled and tryin to figure out how to tell my mom. Finally we got up the courage and told everyone in our families and we were so ready for this baby. Oct 16th 2007 we went for an ultrasound to see our little peanut and it was crazy to see it move around and everythiing because it was both of our first child. It was amazing to see him twist and turn and to hear his little heartbeat. Amonth hadpassed and i was getting horrible morning/allday sickness and i always felt like crap...But thats just pregnancy right? Newaysafter some time passedi began to get light cramps and i felt like something was wrong. The doctor told me it was normal and that because im so small my body isnt used to holding a baby and they sent me for a ultrasound on November 14th that confirmed i was having a babyboy and that everything in there was fine. After finding out it was a boy we were MORE then overjoyed. November 21st 2007, It was just 2 night before Thanksgiving so my babys father decided to visit his family in his hometown, And my bestfriend Dana decided to stay with me cus i hated being alone. I went through a normal day that id usually go through and went to sleep. At 2:30 AM i was awoken by really bad pains in my lower stomach so i went to the bathroom and saw a little blood so i layed down and put my feet up like the doctor told me to do a week before when i had pain and i waited to see if the pain eased but it only got worse so i decided to wake my bestfriend and tell her and decided to go upstairs and let my mom know too because by then the pain was really strong. My mom called the hospital and they told me to come in. By the time i got there noone was there so there was no wait. I immediatley went into a small room where the nurse examined me. After checking my cervix she was a funny face and said something was terribly wrong. She told me i was 4 centimeters dialted and there was nothing they can do to save my pregnancy or my baby (because i was only 18 weeks) After that everything went really fast. They switched me to a rollaway bed and as soon as we reached the elevator my water broke. By the time we reached the 2nd floor (we were on the 1st) and got out of the elevator i felt him come out. The nurses quickly put him in the incubator and started to try and have me push of the placenta. By the time i was done i was ready to see my son and hold him. I got the chance to hold my son 3 different times and tell him how much i love him. He weighed in at 6 and a quarter pounds and 3.6 ounces. My son passed away from something called Meiosis. It is a Genetic Abnormality and if he would've made it he would've 100% been down syndrome. I love my son with everything! The hospital was amazing. They gave me a small handpainted box with all of his belongings in it {clothes, hat, teddybear they gave him} and also took pictures for me.

Rest In peace Jazaveon Pierre Freeman
Nov 21st 2007
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Quoting jocelynne:“ Hello everyone, this is my first time part of this. My name is Jocelynne and I am 20. I am 5 weeks into ... [snip!] ... this baby will never replace the loss of my first son, but I have a stong feeling this baby will carry my first born's spirit.”

Im so sorry. I recieved all those things too

My name is Dani. I have three kids from my marriage (which I miss despretely) that I was in for 10 years. My husband left me last year around october of last year. After a few months of being alone I started dating again and wouldn't you know it, I got pregnant. The guy ALSO got another girl pregnant after me and seems more intersted in that that this one so I told him just to forget I was ever pregnant to begin with. I don't know why I got pregnant, but, I did and I am trying to be excited like I was with the first three about it. I know it sounds like I'm a bad person, it's just that I thought I was done with my last one and now, with me being pregnant by another man, there is no way my husband, who is leaving for Iraq in a month, will ever want to work things out now. I have never been so depressed in my life. I cry everytime I'm alone and I am so sick of people telling me how stronge I am because I'm not. I'm simply surviving at this point for my kids. I don't even know how I am going to get things going for this baby because the only money I get is the money I make at my entry level job and I have NO baby things at all anymore.
I really don't know what I am going to to.

HELLO EVERYONE MY NAME IS MARIA I AN 23YEARS OLD...I JUS TURNED 23 A FEW DAYS AGO..I LIVE IN CALIFORNIA...MARRIED FOR ALMOST 9MONTHS...WELL THIS IS MY STORY...ON APRIL ON 2007 I FOUND OUT I WAS PREGNANT, ME AND MY HUSBAND WERE EXCITED ABOUT THIS, I WENT FOR MY FIRST ULTRASOUND AT 6WEEKS AND EVERYTHING WAS FINE, THE BABIES HEARTBEAT HAD BEEN DETECTED, SO EVERYTHING WAS FINE, S WHEN I WENT FOR MY SECOND ULTRAOUND AT ABOUT 12WEEKS I TOOK MY MOTHER AND HUSBAND SO THEY CAN SEE MY LIL ONE, AND WHEN THE DOCTOR WAS PERFORMING IT, SHE COULDNT FIND THE HEARTBEAT, AND KEPT LOOKING FOR IT AND NOTHING, SO I CRIED AND WAS HORRIBLE, I HAD A D&C, SO ONCE AGAIN WE TRIED AGAIN ON NOVEMBER OF 2007 WE FOUND OUT WE WERE PREGNANT AGAIN, THIS TIMEWE WERE TAKING ALL THE PRECATIOUS, WE WERE EXCITED, I COULDNT WAIT FOR THE TIME TO HOLD MY BABY WHICH WAS DUE ON JULY 30,2008, I WENT FOR A SPECIAL ULTRASOUND AT ABOUT 12WEEKS AND THEY SAW A THICKENING ON HIS NECK, I REFUSED TO HAVE AN AMNIO AND PROCEED WITH MY PREGNANCY AT 18WEEKS I WENT FOR ANOTHER SPECIAL ULTRASOUND AND THEY SAW THAT THE BABY WASNT WELL DEVELOP AND THAT HE HAD FLUID ON HIS BRAIN THAT IT WAS A NEURAL TUBE DEFECT EITHER ANENCEPHALY OR SPINA BIFIDA AND THAT HIS/HER CHANCES OF SURVIVAL WERE HIGH, THAT HE WILL DIE IN A COUPLE OF HOURS OR EVEN DAYS IF LUCKY, SO WE DECIDE TO GO FOR A SECOND OPINION JUS TO FIND THE SAME ANSWER...WELL OUR HOPES OF EVER HAVING OUR LITTLE BUNDLE OF JOY WILL NOT HAPPEN, I WILL UNDERGO A PROCEDURE IN A COUPLE OF DAYS, I LOVE MY CHILD TO DEATH, BUT GOD KNOWS WHY HE THOSE THESE THINGS, ITS SO PAINFUL AND IT IS SOMETHING I HOPE NO ONE EVER GOES THROUGH, I HOPE SOMEDAY I WILL BE ABLE TO HAVE A HEALTHY CHILD, LIKE I HAVE IN MY DREAMS WHERE MY CHILD CAN GROW LIKE A NORMAL PERSON, IM DYING INSIDE AND BREAKING APART, CRYING EVERY NIGHT AND SCARE OF WHAT HAPPENS NEXT. I WAS READING EVERYONE STORIES AND I FEEL YOU ALL...WE HAVE TO BE STRONG, IT IS SOMETHING PAINFUL...SPECIALLY WHEN WE ARE LOOKING FORWARD TO HAVING THEM IN OUR ARMS AND WE FEEL THEM INSIDE OUR WOMB MOVING AND GROWING...WHY IS LIFE SOMETIMES UNFAIR?..I HAVENT FOUND OUT WHAT I AM HAVING YETT...GOD BLESS YOU ALL AND YOUR BUNDLES OF JOY...

Quoting Mama Melis:“ I'll start first... My name is Melissa, I have been on baby gaga 7 months. I have miscarried 5 times ... [snip!] ... weeks. I pray that one day everyone will have the same success story that I have. I know how hard it is to loose your child..”

Hello Melissa! First i would like tell you how overjoyed i am for you.

I have been there. Just last year I lost my son at 22 weeks due to cervical incompetence. I was so angry with everyone for not doing what they could to help me prevent it. My doc didn't properly examine me which could have saved my baby. And i still had to go through the painful experience of childbirth knowing that my son had passed away before i had given birth to him. I had him all by myself. The nurses had all abandoned me to go have birthday cake in the hallway while im just sitting there crying and pushing. After that i pretty much kept to myself. I had to use just about everything in me to attend my baby's funeral. I was so angry there too. People totally forget about you and just try to push you into doing what they think you should be doing as a mother.

I'd see people with babies and get so jealous. I considered myself an abnormal woman who couldnt carry babies.

But now i am currently pregnant (22 weeks.) and walking on eggshells. Im so worried something is going to happen. My doc didnt' give me a cerclage because he doesn't believe i need one. He's been right so far....i just hope it stays that way.  

I hope all goes well with you sweetie. Life can be beautiful to you.

My name is Ashley and my fiances name is Andrew, me and him have been together for 3 years and decided to take the next step and try for a baby and finally after 7 months of trying we got pregnant. I went to all my appiontments quit everything that was bad for the baby and I thought I did everything right. Well me and my fiance at 10 weeks pregnant went to my doctors for my appiontment to do all the test and I asked if they could do the doppler so I could hear the heart beat and the woman said yes but they may not pick anything up cause it may be to early but me being a excited first time mom wanted it done anyway.

Well While she was doing it all I heard was my heart beat but the mid wife swore she picked up the babies heart a few time so the next day I was sent to my first ultra sound. My fiance didn't go with me so my mom took me. As I was laying on the bed the women lifted my shirt and did the ultra sound on my stomache but couldn't see anything she said I may be earlier than I thought and that I had to change into their gown to do the vaginal ultrasound.

Well I left the room to get dressed and when I came back the women had left for a sec and my mom looks up and says " You know what she just told me, she asked me if you were really pregnant." Me trying to shrug it off just said oh really. Well the woman came back and I laid back in the bed and she did the ultra sound again well the whole time she was taking pictures of my insides and my mom kept asking "is that the baby?" and the woman just kept aying no so finally she puts in on my baby which is just this little ball and says thats your baby and said there was no heart beat and my mom turns to her and says "Whats that mean? is it to early?" and the women just flat out says "Your baby is dead." I cried so hard and I couldn't believe how rude that woman was.

So When I came home and told my fiance he was crying and then called the clinic wanting another ultrs sound done (he was in denial) and then went off about how rude that woman was.

The next day I got another ultrasound and they comfirmed it I had a miscarriage but didn't bleed the baby out and then then next day I had my d&c which was 3 days ago and yup thats my story.

Quoting ~Christy~Lipstick Mafia!:“ Before I tell my story I want to tell you ladies that you are all great, and although I am sad you too ... [snip!] ... when he came home from Iraq for 2 weeks, and I found out while he was on the way back to Iraq. Sorry if my story seemed long.”

I just want to say that i feel for you andI understand the pain,I too have had a misscarriage in the past.
COngratulations on ur unborn child. I don't know about ur religious background but everything happens for a reason yes, it's a terrible expereince for anyone to go thru. Ur first baby is an Angel that the Lord need it and she is watching over yalls. Hang in there, you need to have faith, because God works in mysterious ways.. Your unborn child will be okay. You just need to speak to God. He knows all of ur fears, but he wants you to speak to him. Ask for his help..Pray for the health of ur unborn child everyday and thank him for the little soul that is growing in you because.He can blessed us with one thing, but can also easily take it away from us. I too get overwhelm with fears with my pregnancy. I would advise you to read Psalm 139 ,specially to anyone out there that is expecting and get subcummed with fear. Hang in there. Try not to be too sad...Have faith.I will be praying for you and for everyone else that is expecting.

I first want to say that I am so thankful that I have found this site. It is a real blessing. My name is Marcia and I lost my grandchild almost a month ago. The pain that I feel is almost more than I can deal with some days. My life for 8 months was all about my lil angel, Colby. My daughterand son-in-law were not the only ones counting down the days till he was to be born. I still can't believe that he is gone. Colby was born on 02/21/08 and he died the next day. He was born with pneumonia in both lungs due to the fact that my daughter had Strep B and her doctor missed on of the few warning signs that could have prevented his death. We never got to hear him cry and we only were allowed to hold him as he was going to Heaven. I can't imagine the hurt, pain and emptiness that my daughter and her husband are experiencing. As a mother you want to take away your childrens pain and this time, I can't.

I am thankful for the time that we had Colby here with us, but I am so saddened that we had to let him go so soon. I miss him so very much.

Hi everyone. Let me just say how wonderful it is to find others who have been through some of the same experiences I have and who can understand how I feel.

I was17 when I had my first miscarriage. I had been suffering from anorexia and bulimia for several years and had very irregular (is any) periods. I was even told by a couple doctors that if I ever conceived, I would never carry to term. Well, imagine my surprise when at 20 I gave birth to a healthy FULL-TERM baby boy.I was put on birth control and it worked for several years until in 2004 I became pregnant again. I lost my baby at 12 weeksshortly before my dad passed away and we were hit by 4 hurricanes.My boyfriend and I decided to wait for a while to decide if we wanted to try again or if we should just stop trying since we are both older (he is 50 and I am 37) and have a son each (his is 23 and mine is 16). Well, we decided in August 2007 we wanted to try for that baby girl we both want. On March 10th I took a pregnancy test and it came back positive. I was so thrilled but scared I bought 2 other brands just to be sure and those came back positive too! My boyfriend and I were so excited!!! Then, on March 18, when I was exactly 5 weeks along, he had a business meeting in a different part of the state. At 11:30amI discovered I was bleeding red blood. I knew it was bad and called him. He told me he would try to get an earlier flight home and be here for me. I called my friend/neighbor who immediately told me to get dressed and be ready to go. I told her there was no need that things would pass on their own and I was not having any pain. She came over anyway and proceeded to get me to the hospital right before the pain began. They did a test and found my hcg level was 10. I had tried to convince myself that since I was so early that it would not hurt as bad and would be more like a bad period and boy was I wrong! The pain was intense and I was given very strong pain killers to help. They suggested we wait a month before trying again. It has been 3 days now and I am still dealing with the pain although the bleeding is almost done. My only symptom I was pregnant (sore breasts with bigger nipples) has completely disappeared so it is almost like I was never pregnant. Almost, and yet I know I was and it is hard to think about. My boyfriend has been good about the whole thing and said that when I am ready to try again we will. I just hope that next time it is with much better results.

Thanks for listening. It really does help to know I am not alone in this and that others can understand how I feel and what I have been going through.

My name is Kya and I'm 28 and my DH is 27 yrs old. We have a little boy who is 8yrs old and a healthy baby girl who will be 5 months on the 31st. We had 3 m/c's Baby Hope m/c 5/28/01, due 1/7/02 , Baby Joy m/c 10/26/02, due 5/22/03, and Baby Love m/c 3/?/06, due 9/27/06.

I have had great pain with all the loses but one sticks out more. I think its b/c I was farther along with that baby. I found out I was pg with baby joy in Sept. 2002 I was about 6-7 weeks along. And when I went for a regular u/s my son who was then about 2 yrs old was there with me. He even helped my OB perform the u/s and I saw the look on her face and I already knew that my baby was gone. I'd been calling the doctor's office for the past two weeks b/c I had the flu. But all my pg syptoms went away. They said I was being paroniod b/c I had the flu and I was fine. Well that day she wanted me to go for a level 2 u/s and scheduled me for one for that following tuesday. I was scared and just went to the hospital myself that Saturday. And the hospital not knowing that I m/c came in and talked to me as though I knew I had a m/c. I was worried about my baby especially b/c i was on bcp with this one.

I was so hurt and shocked that my OB informed them that my baby died and not me. So I told them I didn't know and I broke down and started to cry. The doctors explained to me what happened with the baby. I was supposed to be about 14.5 weeks but my baby died between 8-9 weeks gestation. The day was 10/26/02.

That same day I had a D&E and it was kindof painful. The hardest part was to consent to have whatever tissue that was collected to be examined. And consenting to them to remove the baby. I felt like I was signing away my life to the DEVIL. I left the hospital at 11:30pm that night after their observation period and thats when I saw my sister being wheeled in.

She gave birth to my neice 10/27/02 and it hurt my heart dearly. But at the sametime the saying is "There is always life after death". And she is my goddaughter 5.5 yrs old. Since then I have had infertility problems with diabeties and PCOS. My DH and I tried NFP and even did a stint of intervention of drugs and such. We did become pg with our baby love on clomid and ended m/c at 10.5 weeks. Baby love story is that after using clomid we became pg and my other sister and I shared the same due date. We were due about 1.5 apart. I ended losing Baby love when I was at work :eek: and I was heartbroken.

Baby Hope was also sad..I lost baby Hope on my sisters birthday. I during that time myself and DH who was just my bf at the time. Were arguing over that baby. B/c our son was only 5 months old and we were still young at the time. The stress of the whole financial and having a new baby took a toll on my body. I had gotten pg with hope while I was on bc depo.

We gave up on trying for anymore babies until after we were married. We stopped clomid in 06 after 4 rounds. We said if its god will then it will be done and we'll have another sibling for our son.

Well it was God will b/c Jan. 2007 we conceived naturally. I found out in March that I was pg. I had alot of complications, severe throwing up, and otherthings. On 6/23/07 I was married to the love of my life besides my son after 8.5 years together. And on 10/31/07 via c-section we had Atalia Denae Elise at 7lbs 1oz and 20inches long.

We'll try for another in 2-3 yrs but its up in the air giving my track record.

thanks everyone and godbless

Well I've never lost a child before, fore this is my first child I'm pregnat with and everything is going great. But today I went to the doctor's to where I had a glucose test done they said it'd be about an hour so I could walk around the hospital look in at the nursery where the babies were to kill time and such.
Well first I went to the 4th floor where my aunt works in labor and delievery. We got to talking and I noticed she kept looking at her watch, so finally I asked if there was something wrong, and she looked at me and said theres a women coming in here in a few minutes who's going to have a C-section, the baby has something wrong with him something to do with his chromosomes or something and that he wasn't going to make it long soon as he hit the air. That tore my stomach up. I then said well I got to go, I couldn't stand to face the women who would next be walking in knowing what she was expecting for.
Later on tonight I called my aunt Tina to talk about my babyshower, something inside just made me burst out, "Did the baby ever make it". My aunt got quiet for a minute then said, he made it for about 20 minutes then he passed, I then asked how the mother was holding up [I know stupid question], and she said she was taking it hard as usual, the worst part is hearing them scream and cry.
Even though I didn't know the lady or even see her my heart goes out to her, and it still tears me up. I am sorry to anybody who has ever lost a child before, I honeslty can't relate fore I've never been in that situation, but I know it has to be so hard, but I want to let ya'll know you guys are strong women to hold up and keep on living waking up each morning. It hurts and it sucks I'm sure, but life goes on and I hope the best for everybody and their friends and family in the future.  

Quoting ~Kim~Lipstick Mafia:“ *copied from my post in the other intro thread* My name is Kim, im 21 and so is my fiance Evan and we ... [snip!] ... to none, you can live off one perfect lung, but two imperfect lungs is a death sentence(as the jerky 1st specialst told us)**”

Can i ask you something.. well how long did it take you to get pregnant again.. did u only have one misscarriage. see i am 20 and i will be 21 this year i have been married for 2 years but been together for 5 years but anyways when i was 16 i got put on depo shots.. so i wouldn't ger pregnant so young my mom thought because my sister did at 15 but anyways i was on it for 1 year and 9 months almost 2 years.. but now i have been off it for 2 years and 3 months but the 3 months i was pregnant.. jan i found out that i was pregnant but i lost it this month and just had a dnc wed.. i was 11 weeks.. i have been trying for soo long to get prenant and when i did i lost it.. i don't understand when they checked me when i found out that i was pregnant the baby had a good heartbeat i was 6 weeks.. but tues when they done it again to make me 11 weeks the baby looked good but didn't have no heartbeat.. i cried my eyes out.. see may 2007 i had a false pregnancy.. but this one was a reall one.. the doctor wants me to wait 2 months before i try again.. and it's hard but i am going to i just hope i get pregnant again.. and soon... before when i was trying i have had soo many tests done to see if i can get pregnant.. and they checked my tubes nothing wrong checked my husband his sperm was normal.. and looked inside me and everything was ok.. so i had no clue but when i finally found out that i was pregnant i was soo happy.. but then i lost it.. i had no clue what had happened to the baby.. becaz the doc said everything in my blood work came out fine.. he said maybe there was something wrong with the baby.. you never know.. but he told me since i got pregnant once i will get it again.. and should fasster.. but well i am going to go i just wanted to talk to someone and see if they done anything like this or ever took depo shots and got pregnant.. welp lata