re: Introduce Yourself....

Quoting crowned:" I'll start first... My name is Melissa, I have been on baby gaga 7 months. I have miscarried 5 times ... [snip!] ... weeks. I pray that one day everyone will have the same success story that I have. I know how hard it is to loose your child.."

my name is chelsea , i miscarried my baby in feb. im wanting to have another baby but really scared that the same thing will happen again i was 10 weeks when i lost my baby,. still waiting for the okay from my doctor who seems to be busy helping everyione but me and cant schedule my appt or talk to me on the phone .

Quoting crowned:" I'll start first... My name is Melissa, I have been on baby gaga 7 months. I have miscarried 5 times ... [snip!] ... weeks. I pray that one day everyone will have the same success story that I have. I know how hard it is to loose your child.."

and your five kids will be waiting for you in heaven. true fact. but im so sorry for that i cant imagine..

hey my name is Cheyenne. im 18 i live in oklahoma,
i fortunately have not had to experience anything like you ladies have and or that im very thankful. im 33 weeks along and praying everyday for my babys health just because it makes me nervous to think something could ever happen to my lil girl. my cousin has had a miscarriage and i didnt understand it until getting pregnant myself. now i can just imagine the pain she went through. it takes a strong person to deal with these types of things. just know that as cheesy as it sounds. your children are waiting for you in heaven. it is completely true i promise. they never had to experience the hurt of living in this terrible world, never having to be disappointed by anything in life. your children that have passed love you dearly and they know what you feel, they know you are their mommys and appreciate you doing your best. weather you believe it or not this is true.

My name is Sequoia I am 23 and married I have a precious 2 yr old son and just this past june I had a miscarriage at 6 weeks along. I did not think it would affect me so hard. We were TTC'ing and we were so excited and told our family and closest friends. I passed the baby at home, it was awful for me now everytime I go to the bathroom im constantly reminded that I flushed my baby down the toliet. It was emotionally draining to tell everyone that I had miscarried. Actually everyone felt sorry for me for about 1 day telling me ignorant stuff like "Atleast the baby wont be born retarded" I was floored by ppl ignorant ways of showing sympathy!!! If my child would have been born disabled that would have not changed my love for my child! After that inital day it was back to business as usual. People calling and asking for money and rides, im like sh!t i just flushed my child down the f*****g toilet and you want 50 dollars. I was outraged... Lately this has been hitting me so hard that I cry at night all alone. My husband understands that Im sad but he's not very comforting *sigh*. Im hoping to come here and find some comfort and someone to vent to.. I don't have a lot of friends and non of them have had a miscarriage and don't know how to console me or relate to me...

My name is Amanda. I am 31 and have a 5 year-old son who was conceived after 2 years of fertility treatments. I have been on BC for the past few years. Last Thursday I began bleeding very heavily and passing large clots. It was time for my period so I just assumed that it was very bad this month for some reason. I finally decided the bleeding was severe enough that I should go to the ER. My fiance took me and to make a long story short while there I found out that I was pregnant (apparently 5-6 weeks) and was miscarrying. It was a lot to deal with at once and I am still trying to come to grips with it all. It seems surreal. To get pregnant on BC after so much struggle with my son and then to lose a baby that seemed like it was supposed to be here so much... Anyway, I'm having a very tough time. They are supposed to be calling today to schedule my D&C. I just wanted to reach out to others who feel my pain. I'm so, so, sorry for all of your losses. I now realize this is a pain you can never fully appreciate until you experience it yourself.  

My name is Brittany, I am 23 and engaged to be married in November. My fiance and I have been together for 5 years on our wedding day. This last year has been very hard on us.
January 2nd I gave birth to my beautiful baby boy Liam Blake, unfortunately I was only 22 weeks pregnant at the time. My strong lil man lived for 2 hours with no support or help. His premature birth was due to placental abruption.
In April we found out we were expecting our rainbow baby in December.. at 15 weeks on June 15th I couldn't find her heart beat.. we went into the hospital and found out we lost her and again to placental abruption. On June 20th I gave birth to our beautiful baby girl Layla Marie.
I found out a couple weeks ago that Layla's pathology report shows her placenta had signs of an infection and that most likely thats what caused her abruption. I am now waiting on the results from Liam's pathology report.
It has been so hard these last 6 months. I never in my life thought I'd loose my baby, let alone 2 of them. After getting some answers and plans for the future we are deciding to TTC again around December. It's so scary, but I cant give up... all ive ever wanted was a family.

Also, I am sorry to everyone who has lost their babies :'(

Quoting Liam & Layla's Mommy:" My name is Brittany, I am 23 and engaged to be married in November. My fiance and I have been together ... [snip!] ... scary, but I cant give up... all ive ever wanted was a family. Also, I am sorry to everyone who has lost their babies :'( "

im so sorry for ur loss i also lost a little boy at 26weeks and a little girl at 38 weeks but i have a healthy 10yr old girl and now im 23weeks gone with my baby girl all is going well.i wish u the best with the future im sure now that the hospital has more information on ur circumstances they will be able to keep a close eye on u as my hospital is doing with me.good luck take care x

Quoting Celina Verona:" im so sorry for ur loss i also lost a little boy at 26weeks and a little girl at 38 weeks but i have ... [snip!] ... on ur circumstances they will be able to keep a close eye on u as my hospital is doing with me.good luck take care x "

thank you <3 and im sorry for your losses as well. and im so happy to hear your doing good in your pregnancy!  
We plan on ttc again in December and I just hope & pray we make it to term the next time with no problems.

Hi. My name's Regina(27) and I've been married to the love of my life Matt(27) since Oct, 2011. I've been on this site for a few months now. I originally came across this site for the pregnancy calendar, but found a lot of information and support from the people on here so I joined. I'm currently 37 weeks pregnant with a healthy baby boy.

We first found out we were pregnant the end of summer of last year. Though we were both really nervous we were ecstatic. From the very beginning the pregnancy was hard. I was nauseous all the time and always seemed to have extreme cramping-regardless of what I did. The dr. said there was nothing to worry about. I knew the day it happened. Oct 2. I will never forget. I was almost 15 weeks along. Something felt wrong-my entire being knew. I made my dr's appointment to confirm my worst fear. He tried taking the heartbeat and couldn't find one. He said something that I don't even remember because to me it was confirmed and I zoned everything else out. He took me to get an ultrasound where he wanted to check to see if he could get his heartbeat that way. The room was eerily silent and he had the screen turned away from me. I sat up a bit so I could watch him on the screen-he just lied there. So precious and delicate and beautiful. Our baby that would not know the world or our love or his brother. I was heartbroken. He told me to go to another clinic by the hospital to get a second opinion. He had no explanation as to why it happened. Just a spontaneous miscarriage. I broke down soon as I got to my car and I called my parents to get me. That was the hardest time for me. My fiancee was just getting off of work so I waited for him to take me to the clinic. Though he tried to stay strong for me he finally broke down after seeing our baby on the screen-motionless. That was his first and now he was gone. The man took some shots of the baby and said he would send them to our dr and we would get our results from him. There was nothing left to confirm-we both already knew. 2 days later I awoke in bed covered in blood. I went to take a shower and delivered him in the shower. I washed him off and just held him and stared at him until the water ran cold and I just remember crying hysterically and leaning on the wall. He fit right in my hand-he was so tiny. What had I done so wrong to deserve this? I went to the hospital to get checked out. Nobody had any idea why it happened. It was just one of those things that was meant to be. We buried him in my husbands grandparents garden. We never had a name picked out for our son.

We got pregnant again very shortly after. I was really nervous after finding out, and didn't really want to get to attached. But the pregnancy has gone smoothly-from the very beginning things felt different. I still think about my angel every day and will never forget him or stop loving him. I am looking forward to getting to hold little Hunter. That's what name we have picked out for this little guy-Hunter Mason. I know our angel is looking over us and I long to be able to hold him one day.

I never knew how hard the loss of a child is until experiencing that myself. I know my story isn't even as bad as some of you ladies on here. My deepest thoughts are with you. I pray for the best for all of you.

With Love,
Regina

Greetings to everyone,

Before I introduce myself, I send my deepest condolences to all of those who have lost a child.

I am called Nina and I am 24 years old. I found this site after typing in a question on Google and I am glad that I found it. At first, I didn't feel like I would have to talk to others who have had similar experiences, but now I know that I have to in order to cope with my own tragic experience.

I warn that my story is graphic..But if I had read about stories similar to my own, although very unfortunate, I wouldn't have been as "left in the dark" as I was.

On June 18, 2012 I found out that I was pregnant. It was an unplanned pregnancy (my first pregnancy), but once I found out about it, I wanted the baby and so did my fiance. Since I've had irregular periods in the past and I was sad/moody because my fiance was leaving on trip (which was to be long), I didn't think that I was pregnant even though I had some symptoms. I tried my best to calculate how far along I was and the last period I had was around April 8th so I was at least 12 weeks--To this day I am still unsure exactly how far along I was. (It had to be between 12-14 weeks).
Everything was going fine and we were looking at sites online and reading a lot of books on pregnancy to try to educate ourselves on the topic as much as possible but things changed early in the morning of July 2nd, which is my father's birthday (my father passed away in '07). I got a fever out of nowhere that day and was trying to get better. I was worried about my baby and so was everyone else who knew about it. I tried my best to stay positive and I had already been praying every night since I had found out that I was pregnant. "Please don't die." is what I had whispered every night, while rubbing my hand over my belly.
My mother called someone at the hospital and they said that if I started bleeding heavily to go in. The night of July 2nd, I had bad cramps.
I was barely spotting on July 2nd and 3rd. I got bad cramps again early in the morning of July 3rd and felt a little wet so I went to the bathroom see what it was and to use the bathroom. I didn't see any blood, and at the time I didn't know what "the wetness" was exactly. Now, I know that it was amniotic fluid.
I was sitting on the toilet and peed and afterwards, as I was reaching for some toilet paper to wipe myself, my baby fell out but didn't fall into the water..He was still attached to the umbilical cord..Still attached to my body.
I immediately got some toilet paper and put it under the baby and I just held him in my hand for what seemed like a long time but it had to be a minute. I was shocked and tried to cry but I'm not sure if any tears came out. I saw that it was a boy who was almost as long as my small hand from head to toe. I knew that he couldn't be saved and I knew that this would most likely be the last time that I would ever see him so I looked at him. At first, I thought he was dead. I never knew that a baby could come out like that alive.
I thought he was dead until I saw his eyes twitching here and there, as if he were trying to blink, even though his eyes were sealed shut. I saw a pulse in his neck and his mouth was slowly opening. His organs all seemed in place and everything on him looked okay. He just looked like a skinny little baby with transparent skin. I saw that his heartbeat was slow and I realized that I was watching my baby die. I wanted to help him, to save him but I knew that I couldn't and I felt so horrible because of that..
I went to my room to get help from my fiance and he told me that he had sensed that something was wrong when I got up to use the bathroom.
Minutes later an ambulance came for me and the paramedics who came for me appeared troubled at my situation. At this point, I wasn't crying. I was numb and wishing that it all was just a nightmare.
I was at the hospital for 9 hours. Although I already knew, they all told me that my baby wasn't "viable". I had to have a D&C to get the placenta out as well as remaining tissue. All I have now to remember this child is a teddy bear and a bereavement box that I received from a counselor at the hospital. A few days later, my belly was flat again and for once, I didn't want that..
Today, I am educating myself even more with books on pregnancy and miscarriage. I plan on trying again in the future but this time I will know what to do and how to respond to certain situations. Before, no one seemed to know what to tell me or how to help me and I was lost because this was all new to me. I am happy that I found this forum. Here, there are people that I can talk to, which is what I really need.
Thank you for reading.

My name is Chelsea. I am married and have one son born May 20th 2011. I live in Ohio.


I was 10w4d pregnant with my baby when I began to bleed, I went to the ER once and they told me it was a threatened miscarriage and I should be fine what I didn't know was that my baby had been dead for almost a month. The first ultrasound I had the tech told me I only measured 5w4d so I knew something was wrong because when they did the ultrasound I was supposed to have been 8w4d and I didn't see the babys' heartbeating at all. On July 23rd around midnight I went to the bathroom and "passed" my baby into the toilet. It had not been developed right for being 10 weeks gestational. I was so shocked and scared I called the ambulance and there at the ER they told me I had miscarried. I was so shocked and upset I cried my eyes out and wondered why did this happen to me. I called up my husband and my mother and told them what happened. My husband cried and so did my mom. My baby would have been born in February 2013. I picked out the name Jorden Peace because I wasn't that far along to know the sex. I have not cried since that day but I will always remember my baby. I hope one day to get pregnant again but not for another year or so. I took my baby into my OB/GYN and immediately they took me into ultrasound luckily I didn't need a D-N-C. I am still waiting for my Pathology report for my baby.

Hello ladies. My name is Ashlie Anderson I am 23 years old. I have had a rough road just like the rest of you!!! I have had 3 miscarriages and 1 still born (Aidan Wayne Anderson January 2nd 2012). After my 3 miscarriages when we found out we were pregnant with Aidan it was such a scary time!!!! We finally got past the 12th week and things were looking GREAT!!!!!! Until the AFP testing!!! The testing showed that there was something wrong with our son, so we set up a high def ultrasound and found out that he had an omphalocele!! Which is a rupture in the stomach! We then done an amnio at 18 weeks to make sure there was nothing else wrong and there was not. My doctor told me that even though his stomach was ruptured he WOULD BE BORN and have surgery but be fine!! He told us this many times before I delivered him. New years eve we went to L&D due to not feeling him move all day and some slight cramping. When we got there our lives changed forever. Our son had passed. I then went in on the 1st of January to induce labor. He was born at 5:46 am on the 2nd. This was most definitely the HARDEST thing I had ever been through. I immediately started birth control and was not ready to become pregnant again. We were still trying to figure out how to go on without our son!!!! 8 Weeks after delivering and burying our son I went to the ER because of gallstones and found out that I was/am pregnant again!!! I lost my mind!!!! I am currently 22 almost 23 weeks pregnant with so far a healthy baby girl. She is due December 5th 2012. I am always so frightened and sometimes freak out for no reason what so ever. I mean we just lost our son 7 months ago and I am not sure how I am suppose to act like this is no big deal!!! The smallest thing will feel wrong and other than just saying it is nothing like a lot of people get to do, I go completely insane!!! I just cannot stand the thought of losing another baby!!! I cannot stand the thought of holding another child in my arms and not having any type of future with it.. I guess I am looking for someone who has been through a similar situation, and is able to help out and tell me what to expect or if I am losing my mind!!!! Or just someone who is currently pregnant and gone through a similar situation so we can be there for each other in the times we feel at our weakest or even to share the happiness of the pregnancies!!!!! Thank you for your time!

My name is Keely. I'm 20 years old. September 26 2011 I gave birth to a baby girl, she had Anencephaly and lived for five hours and five minutes. I'm currently pregnant with my rainbow baby, a boy.

Quoting Keelyyy!:" My name is Keely. I'm 20 years old. September 26 2011 I gave birth to a baby girl, she had Anencephaly and lived for five hours and five minutes. I'm currently pregnant with my rainbow baby, a boy."

Wow congratulations. We kinda have the same story. I gave birth to my son January 2nd of 2012 so just 7 months ago, he was a still born, and I am currently 23 weeks and 4 days pregnant with my healthy baby girl!!! Congratulations and good luck with your pregnancy!!!

Quoting Ashlie Anderson:" Wow congratulations. We kinda have the same story. I gave birth to my son January 2nd of 2012 so just ... [snip!] ... I am currently 23 weeks and 4 days pregnant with my healthy baby girl!!! Congratulations and good luck with your pregnancy!!!"

Sorry to hear about your loss! Congratulations on your rainbow! And thank you(: