re: Introduce Yourself....
posted 7th May '12
Hi, my name is Liz. My husband and I have a beautiful 2 1/2 year old son. I found out I was pregnant with baby number 2 at the beginning of April. We'd been trying for this baby for a year, and were thrilled. Over the next two weeks I couldn't shake this anxiety of something going wrong. I was already labeled high risk because my son was born at 34 weeks. I went in for another ultrasound on April 16, and was told I was beginning to miscarry. I went in on the 18th for a D&C, and laparoscopic procedure. From that surgery I was diagnosed with a bicornuate uterus. Now, we're heartbroken, and I'm terrified to try again in fear that this will happen again.quote
posted 7th May '12
I am so sorry...I know the feeling all too well. Hope you're getting through this tough time, all the best.quote
I have 1 angel baby & live in Ontario
posted 14th May '12
Hi my name is Lara, 15 week pregnant and have experienced many miscarrages with a previous partner, my partner now Stephen has 2 children to his previous partner this being his third child and has never experienced the loss of a child born or unborn.
My last miscarrage was the worst as it had been the furthest i had ever been at 8 week and there were complications with the miscarrage as even though the the baby was no longer with me and recieving any blood (no reason could be found as to why)`and i was having severe pains and heavy bleeding which were the contractions the baby became stuck inside the womb and was there for almost 2 week a week of which had to be spent in a hospital under heavy pain relief and regular oral and vaginal medication to try release the baby at that stage i know it is still classed as a fetus but to me was my child i had held high hopes for holding in my arms and after hearing it said so coldly by the many doctors and nurses i began to hate the word and could not bare to ever call my child that word even though i sometimes feel guilt to the who were able to grow more attachment to they're child that i was as knowing that in just that short space of time i could become the mess i was after the death people have had to bare so mch more.
As i say i am pregnant after a yr since my last loss but cannot help but think the same fate awaits this child i have struggled through this pregnancy an our baby ell bell (our nickname for bump) has fought every step of the way i have been ill the whole way through and have had to recieve hospital attention many times already i pray with every day that passes that this time i will finally be able to meet a child of mine to hold adore and love for the rest of its life but still have the doubts stuck in the back of my mind it makes it harder that my partner does not seem to worry about any of this as like i said he has never had to experience a loss like i have and that every worry i have seems silly to him because he is determind that nothin can go wrong and as elating as it is to have that possitivity around u its difficult when u think there may be a problem to explain how devastating it can be. I hate myself for being like this but find it so hard to be a 100% that everything will be ok.
sorry for the long introductions an the probable many mistakes made but thank you for reading and listening to what i had in my mind xxxx
posted 15th May '12
Hi Lara, i know how you feel, i am 35wks pregnant just now, my last baby was stillborn at 21 weeks, this whole pregnancy i havent settled and my last pregnancy haunts me im constantly thinking and half expecting something to go wrong, you are past your 12 weeks and your pregnancy is becoming well established, i feel better now i have passed 30 wks knowing if my baby was born early it would have a good chance of survival, try not to worry and each day is a bonus and a step closer, i wish you all the luck in the world xquote
posted 16th May '12
Hi , i'm Khadejah . I found out my lil girl had no heartbeat at 17 weeks and 5 days .. I couldnt believe she died .. but I had a feeling my pregnacy wasnt going to well .. I felt like crap .. but it wasnt a pregnacy feeling .. I had a placenta previa which caused me to bleed ALOT ( I had to stay with pads on ) .. i went to the E.R. TWICE and they told me everything was fine .. but when I went for my monthly check up she came back with no heartbeat .. i would have been 5 months on the 12 of May I was induced Monday April 30 didnt have her till May 2 , 2012 I cried when I was at the hospital , I cried when I came home , I cry every now and then when I think of her ... it's hard but it slowly gets better each day ... they said she had a genetic disorder which I didnt know how that was possible .. but I know God will bless me with another lil girl or boy one day . R.I.P. mommys lil girl Zuri <3quote
posted 20th May '12
first off id like to say u are all very brave women its not easy to go through what you have all gone through.
im celina and iam now pregnant with my forth child im due in november 16th so fingers crossed and all prayers welcome.at 18 i got pregnant with my first baby i was terrified but i have a great family and they were there for me 100% everything was normal and no morning sickness even very active baby.one night i was staying with my cousin and we were watching a movie i asked her to pause it so i could go the loo when i sat down to go i noticed some blood on the floor i panicked and looked in the toilet bowel and it was covered in blood i didnt need the loo after all it was just blood i screamed called my cousin she rang an ambulance and i was taken in asap when they done a scan they told me my baby had died i had to get induced to deliver my baby my mam never left my side i was still bleeding i had to get 10 and a half units of blood put into me i was nearly dead.when i delivered him i was 26 weeks pregnant i called him scott he was beautifull big eyes like mammy and beautiful blonde hair.
i dont remember much after that i didnt want to see him but my family did and told me he was perfect.i was only young so i hid my pain with partying and never really grieved properly for my handsome prince.
forward on 2yrs i met my husband we planned for our baby i had afew complications threw out but at 8months after 17 and a half hrs in labour i had a beautiful baby girl we named her taylor she is 10 now and i adore her she is my life my rock when my husband left us she never fails to amaze me.
7yrs on i get pregnant again im very excited every thing goes well afew extra hospital visits needed due to haven group b strep and iron deficincy ect i was at home in bed and at 1 in the morning i felt the start of contractions but i fell back asleep and woke up at 7 in the hight of labour i rang my sis who was my partner for the labour ward we go an ambulence straight in and they had no beds or rooms so i was pushed into a storage room on a bed they looked and said time to push but lets hear the heart beat first they were looking for 20mins and couldnt find it i knew she was gone i was screaming at the nurse say oh please not again i cant handle it to happen again but it had my baby had died inside me 24hrs before i kicked my sis out she was too young to see a dead baby being delivered id no pain relief to help me through it i just had to push and push i did till my beautifull daughter bellarose was handed into my arms she was an angel strawberry blonde curly hair this time i held her and didnt want to let her go it was soo hard i just coulnt understand what i done wrong to deserve 2 of my babies to leave me.so im terrified this time around im just going to hope for the best so all prayers are welcomed thanks for listening xx
posted 22nd May '12
Hey, my name is deanna.
i'm 19years old.. turning 20 in a couple months..
i'm married to a guy i met in high school in 2008.
my story is this:
i found out i was pregnant with my first baby on nov 13, 2010.. showed signs of a great pregnancy came to 17weeks and in an ultrasound i was sent to a specialist they later my baby was not going to have a chancr to live due to some complications with her lungs
no surgery could save her, they asked me for an abortion and i said no, i was going to give my baby a fighting chance.
on july 26th 2011 i gave birth to my baby girl athena serenity atias at 4:38am she passed away at 5:07am.. in my husbands arms.
its been a hard longg 9months without her.. but i found out this weekend i'm pregnant again went to the doctor monday and i'm six weeks.. i am so very happy and scared at the same time i dont want to loose another baby i want a healthy little baby.
i shared my story because you all are strong mothers and all yyour stories amazed me i thought i post up my lil story.
sorry for all your looses, but we truly are mothers of angels!
posted 8th Jun '12
hi my names kayleigh, me and my partner were havin unprotected sex for a year and never really thort i would concieve i found out i was pregnat whne i was 7 weeks, i was so happy couldnt believe i was going to be a mum, the i went for my first scan and it was awful it took ages then i found out my baby had a cycstic hygroma which was a growth on the neck i was sent to cardiff hospital for tests they tested the chromosomes and they all came back fine i was sent back again for my 20 weeks scan and they told me it had grown again to 11.7mm i was so terrified i was reffered to a sergeon and they told me they might not be able to remove it and she could have a life of opperations i was induced at 2o weeks and 4 days, to a baby girl lexi louise she was 1b 1.6oz born 19th march 2012 we are no trying again but doesnt seem to be happening feels like my world has been tipped up side down xxquote
posted 8th Jun '12
Quoting Celina Verona:" first off id like to say u are all very brave women its not easy to go through what you have all gone ... [snip!] ... me.so im terrified this time around im just going to hope for the best so all prayers are welcomed thanks for listening xx"
COULDNT IMAGINE WHAT YOUVE BEEN THROUGH I LOST MY BABY AT 2O WEEKS AND HAD TO DELIVER HER THATS BEEN SO HARD FOR ME COULDNT IMAGINE TWICE I THINK YOUR AN AMAZING PERSON XXX
posted 9th Jun '12
Quoting Kayleigh Woodford:" COULDNT IMAGINE WHAT YOUVE BEEN THROUGH I LOST MY BABY AT 2O WEEKS AND HAD TO DELIVER HER THATS BEEN SO HARD FOR ME COULDNT IMAGINE TWICE I THINK YOUR AN AMAZING PERSON XXX"
thank you so much xxx im just hoping and praying this time is for keeps.keep safe and healthy look after urself xxx
posted 11th Jun '12
Quoting Celina Verona:" thank you so much xxx im just hoping and praying this time is for keeps.keep safe and healthy look after urself xxx"
im sure everything will be fine just take care of your self and dont stress hunnie xxxxxxxxx
posted 13th Jun '12
hi, i have been on here since finding out and today woke up in pain and bleeding, just waiting for my dad to come home and take me to hospital but im so worried, i have lost one already and that messed me up massively and i dont want to lose this little surprise. the first time i didnt know i was pregnant so was a shock to wake up the next day thinking i had a cyst removed to find i had lost a baby, but this time i know about the pregnancy and i really dont want to lose it quote
posted 13th Jun '12
Quoting Emma Worth:" hi, i have been on here since finding out and today woke up in pain and bleeding, just waiting for my ... [snip!] ... i had a cyst removed to find i had lost a baby, but this time i know about the pregnancy and i really dont want to lose it "
how bad are you bleeding , and how far along are you?
posted 18th Jun '12
Hey girls. I'm Lilly, 17 years old from London. Me and my boyfriend have been together for just gone two years. We found out that I was pregnant on Friday 13th April- definitely a bad luck day for me! I was getting bad vibes about the pregnancy and couldn't shake the feeling that something was going to happen from day one really! I started to bleed red blood at 7 and a half weeks, I got booked in for a scan at 8 weeks. I turned up fully expecting to hear "sorry, but..." well it turned out different :-) Monday 13th May, internal scan, I couldn't look at the screen! But when she says "look at your little bean with a heartbeat pumping away" I cried! He/she looked just like a mini baby, with a tiny nose, head, chin, and body! I couldn't believe we created something so real. I was measuring 1 day ahead, 8 weeks and 1 day. I continued to bleed for a few days after my scan but after seeing the baby, I just ignored it as I thought everything was okay! Ever since my first scan, I couldn't wait for my 12 week one to hurry up. Finally June.7 arrived and we turned up so excited to see our baby at the hospital. I had been sat in the waiting room for about 30 seconds before they called me, I wondered why they called me so quick when there's usually such a long wait?! Did they know something or? I layed on the bed, never been moe excited in all my life, and I knew as soon as she put that instrument on my stomach that there was something wrong. Our baby didn't look like that tiny little baby who were first saw at 8 weeks, and where was the heartbeat that we once saw fluttering away? The baby lost its shape completely, looking like a oval sort of shape. No nose, no chin, no body. My boyfriend was smiling at the screen because he's never been to anything like that and he just didn't understand, he's not a female, they don't get it. I carried on staring at the screen and my eyes were filling up, I was just waiting for her to say those words "i'm sorry, but.." and after measuring the fetus, she finally said those words. "Okay Lilly i'm so sorry but baby has failed to make any progress, the measurements show that he stopped growing at roughly 8 weeks 2 days, i'm sorry." I stared at her like she said four heads, and my boyfriend wasn't expecting her to say anything like that so his jaw hit the floor. She walked out of the room and we just cried on each other. The 'EPU Sister' came and spoke to us after, giving me a list of options of what to do now. I really didn't expect to be hearing anything like that after my scan. After 2 days of thinking I chose the medical procedure because I couldn't of put myself through even more pain of waiting for my baby to pass, and I wanted to be cleaned out properly so the risk of infection was less. I went in for my operation when I was suppose to be 12 weeks 6 days approximately, on June 12. Ever since the moment I woke up from that operation i've felt so empty, just knowing my baby isn't inside me anymore. He/she may have been inside me for 5 weeks dead but it was still so comforting to know he/she was in me still. It feels like years this has been going on for but actually I had my D&C done a week tomorrow, and we only found out about baby 11 days ago. In times like this as most of you know, it's hard not to push the loved ones away. Me and my boyfriend have just had to pull together even more and we're standing even stronger now we've had to go through something so tragic. We will never forget our angel, he/she's sleeping tight now on a big fluffy cloud i'm sure. When the time is right and when we decide whether it's in a few months or a couple of years, i'm sure we will be blessed with another little cupcake (bumps nickname) My heart breaks for anyone that has been through this/has this news coming their way. It's heartbreaking.. that's all. I've never felt so much pain in my life, despite the fact I am only 17 years old. For the time I knew I was pregnant (3 months) our baby was our life, nothing came before and he/she wasn't even in the world yet.
posted 18th Jun '12
Quoting Lilly-Jade:" Hey girls. I'm Lilly, 17 years old from London. Me and my boyfriend have been together for just gone ... [snip!] ... time I knew I was pregnant (3 months) our baby was our life, nothing came before and he/she wasn't even in the world yet. xx "
im so sorry , your story is just like mine .. almost exact but I was 17 weeks .. PM if you need someone to talk to also im 18 years old and I know how it feels .. when I went in for a check up I got the same words