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Hi my names Heather, I just found this site,trying to find peace through a recent miscarriage.I was almost 6 weeks .The baby wasn't planned, but some of lifes greatest things are suprises, so I embraced it.I've always had very odd & irregular periods so when I started bleeding I didn't think to much of it , I told my mom and the next day it got bad. I started to lose it,my mother and boyfriend kept me strong through it, bedrest was the worst but I knew it would only harm me more so I accepted it.Things seem to be getting easier, and time does heal wounds, but I'm hoping to find peace through all of this soon enough, and maybe try for one soon.

Hi.
My name is Rachel and I'm 20 years old  
When I was 17 I had a miscarriage. I was on a night out with friends and my then-boyfriend (no I was not drinking) when I started experiencing a lot of abdominal pain and when I went to the bathroom I was bleeding quite a bit. My friend and boyfriend took me to the hospital, where after hours of waiting and tests they told me I lost my baby. I already knew it though. On the way to the hospital I had a sick feeling in my stomach, I knew I had lost it. That happened on 14th February 2007 when I was 10 weeks and 1 day along.
My world crashed down, and basically for the next year in another world. I split up with my boyfriend soon after, we both took it very hard.
But now things are a lot better   I always think about what could have been and sometimes get sad. I hope to have kids sometime soon, but just waiting just now as I want to be able to fully support my kids and give them everything they need.
I thought it would be cool to come here since I still sometimes feel to need to talk about my miscarriage but most friends don't really want to hear it since I "should be over it by now".
Anyway that's my story  

Hey, my name is Aubree and I'm 24 years old. I just joined baby-gaga today and I love it. Me and my husband have had 2 miscarriages. One due to cord accident when I was 7mo. and the other from an ectopic pregnancy at 6wks. I took two pregnancy tests today, both positive, and I'm pregnant again for the third time. Hopefully, everything will work out this time as I am still grieving of my previous losses this year. I will be praying for you all.

Hi! My name is Leanne. My husband and I have lost 9 babies in the last 10 years. We do have a miracle baby who is now 4. After my last m/c on my birthday...Jun 8, 2008 we finally found out the cause of them...MTHFR and Thrombophilia and a few other problems. I have to have injections of Lovenox everyday and I'm taking extra folic acid to try to make this one stick. I'm still greiving over the last loss. I'm now just over 5wks pregnant. I'm so terrified. I am trying to stay positive but it's so hard for me at this point. If anyone has any suggestions on how to relax and staying positive, please let me know! I need all the help I can get.

hi everyone. my name is steph. i also just joined the group last week. i'm hoping that it helps me in some way. i'm pregnant with my third baby right now. my first is emma. she is 4. my son aaden was born last year at only 28 weeks. he was born on emma's birthday. which was so ironic but kinda neat. he had to be delivered early due to a condition that i had called H.E.L.L.P syndrome. i nearly died from it due to my liver almost being shut down. i had an emergency c-section and then 1lb 10ounce aaden was here. he was 12 inches long. he lived for 2 days and was such a fighter. i feel like he was waiting to see me because i hadn't gotten to meet him yet until the last day due to the critical condition i had. he was in a lot of distress and had a genetic condition that we were unaware of until he was born.

i am now 14 weeks pregnant with another baby. i am praying every day for this pregnancy to be ok. my 4 year old daughter is from a previous marriage so me and my husband really wanted to raise a child together... just one.

i look forward to talkin with new angel moms and hearing everyone's story. i have read a book recently that i would recommend to anyone called "prenancy after a loss" it's very good. cause we all know that this pregnancy after loss is more of a stuggle than any other. sometimes i feel less excited cause i'm afraid to get too attached to the idea worried that i will lose this baby. it's very hard to explain but i know i'm not the only one that feels this way.

i will pray for everyone

Hi my name is Kari and I am 20 years old. I have had 4 miscarriages, 3 of them with my current boyfriend Robbert. I found out I was pregnant when I was 17. My then boyfriend was in jail when I found out I was pregnant. I was so sick. I couldnt keep a thing down and was hospitalized twice for severe dehydration. I was staying with my older sister who is a nurse and was in the middle of moving out of my apartment. I had been cramping all that day but when I called my doctor she said that it was just stretching, not to worry, lay down and take a tylenol. Later that day my sister took me over to my apartment so that I could finish packing a few things. When we got there I used the restroom and found out that I had started spotting. I called my sister to come and get me and we went to the hospital. When we got there they made me wait in the waiting room for over an hour. They finally get me back and my step mom showed up. My dad and my sister went outside to smoke a ciggarette when they took me up for an ultrasound. The tech was kind of weird and wouldn't let me see the screen. I got so mad at her that I grabbed the screen and turned it so that I could see it. There wasn't a heart beat or movement or anything. I fell to pieces. The tech who my step mom later had fired then told me "I cant tell you this for sure, but your baby is dead. Which is all the better, you shouldn't have a baby anyways" They didnt do anything and sent me home with pain killers and told me that my body would "get rid" of the baby on it's own. My parents took me to Perkins because they hadnt eaten and they didnt want to leave me alone. While sitting at perkins I felt a gush so I went to the rest room, and there on my pad was my little baby. Born on December 19, 2006 and no bigger than my fingers. My second miscarriage happened 8 months later my third 4 months after that. My fourth was a set of twins and it happened 6 months ago. it is sad but it's almost like the more you have the easier they become. I still cry on my due dates and imagine what they would look like and what it would be like to actually feel a baby kick. I am now 7 weeks pregnant and on bed rest. We still don't know what caused my miscarriages. My doctor collaged mycervix in the hopes that it would make me keep this one. I go in for my first ultrasound in 9 days so cross your fingers and pray for me that this time will be the charm.

My name is Jennifer and i have had a total of 4 pregnancies. My 1st miscarrage was fairly early (before 8 weeks) when i was 16 and my second was in November 2006 (with my now husband) Luckily i ahve a really good doctor who noticed that my progesterone levels did not increase with my 1st 2 pregnancies which more than likely caused the misscarrages.When I found outi was pregnant in Jan 2007, my doc immedialty put me on a high dose of progesterone and did not allow me to do anything (no lifting, no sex, no exercise) untill i hit 13 weeks. once i was there she started lowering the progesterone and i ended up with a 9lb 9.6oz baby boy. That pregnancy was hard on me. I cramped constantly and anything i ate came right back up. I had ultrasounds done at 7w, 11w, 18w (in ER for severe cramping and no movement), 19 w, and 30 w. Then in Oct of 2008 we found out that we were expecting again, so back on the progesterone, back to throwing up all day every day. I am now 36 weeks and am getting nervous all over again, becasue this baby is supposed to be bigger than my son, and his movements have slowed WAY down.

Quoting MommyIsMade! - *MJL*:“ *Copied from Ginger's thread...* My name is Jess, I'm 22 and my bf Eder is 23, we live in Toronto, Ont. ... [snip!] ... born sleeping on April 18th, 2007, weighing 480 grams and measuring 27 cms long... The link for his page is in my profile...”

sorry to hear about that i hope you are all doing well now though. i lost my ittle boy last year to and time has been so difficult for me. i dont have any other children and have also misscarried as well as losing my little boy. i went into premature labour at 6 and a half motnhs with my kieran and there was nothing the hospital could do so sadly he died. it has affected me sooo much and every day i just wish i could go back to when i was pregnant so i could be close again to my little angel and feel him kick one more time.

I lost my baby yesterday.
I was 5 weeks, 3 days and I was dilated 2 centimeters.
I'm still in shock because it all happened so fast.

My name is Leslie. last year, at 7moths, &three days after my husband &my 1year wedding anniversary, i learned that my son had Hydrops. with further testing, it was revieled that he had a very rare heart disorder called Ebstien's Anomaly. everyone tried to insist i go ahead with the vaginal delivery, there was no chance of him survivng AT ALL. that as soon as the cord was cut he would pass. after searching for two weeks, i finally found a doctor that would give me a c-section. on september 22, 2008 my son Garrett was delivered. the cord was cut, &he was still alive. we sat by his bedside in the NICU for a week. holding on to every bit of hope we had. every time we would touch him &talk to him we would stimulate him so much the nurses would make us leave for a minute. it was heartbreaking to hear that by communicating with him, we were killing him.we watched helplessly while his liver failed, even though the ventalator was giving him room oxygen. on september 28, 2008 we were told that we had to choice but to take him off of the machines keeping him alive. he tok his last breahte in my arms, &his last heartbeat in his daddy's. after the autopsy resuls got back we found out it was a recessive gene that caused it all.

i am now 16 weeks 5 days pregnant with our second child. we're happy, but also so very worried.

My name is Cassy and I'm 19 years old. I've been on baby gaga for a few months now, since my cousin had her baby. This was my first pregnancy.

I've been trying to conceive for 8 months. Finally, when we gave up trying, I missed my period. I found out the Fourth of July weekend. Of course we were excited, scared, skeptic. Right away I took every precaution to make sure I'd be healthy enough to carry this child. We were as ready as we could be for this. Two days ago I was seven weeks along. Two days ago I started getting cramps. Two days ago I started bleeding. I took you lovely ladys' advice and hurried to the ER at 11 pm Saturday night. We have a very crappy hospital in our town and I didn't want to drive 45 minutes out of the way so late. I sat and waited for 5 and a half hours for them to be done with an internal ultrasound and a pelvic exam to say everything was normal. The next morning, the cramps became more severe and more constant. I was in so much pain that I couldn't walk. So, my friend drove me to the best hospital in our area. They went through hell to try and get my records from the other hospital. They basically did the same exams, but like I expected, everything went wrong. I can't stop crying. This was by far the worst day of my entire life. Just earlier today I found out one of my close friends died in a car accident and also found out that I lost my baby.

I just want my baby and my friend back...

My name is Lindsey, husband's name is Michael... Whenever I talk about our Angel i always say "we or our" because the Angel was both of ours. We started trying for a baby June 09, July 13th is when we found out we were preg. We were so happy our prayers were answered. Thursday July 23rd, I started to drip blood so we went to the ER.... he told us we had a threatened miscarriage at 4 weeks 5 days. Michael and I broke down. We left the city for the weekend and I just cramped and bled all weekend. It is so hard for both of us, we thought we were doing everything right. I just wish I knew why. I'm so tired of hearing "everything happens for a reason" I know it does, but why?

Quoting A Perfect Plan:“ My name is Lindsey, husband's name is Michael... Whenever I talk about our Angel i always say "we or ... [snip!] ... everything right. I just wish I knew why. I'm so tired of hearing "everything happens for a reason" I know it does, but why?”

It isn't fair. :'(

Hi my name is Dominique . Im new to baby gaga I have been a member for like 4 days now. Im currently pregnant with my second child Im 13 weeks now. My story is about my first pregnancy. When I found out I was pregnant me and my husband were so happy. The first time I went to the doctors I found out I was 2 months already and when the doctor did an ultra-sound on me she said everything looked good. So for the next 3 months I kept going to the doctors every month to get check && everytime the doctor would tell me that everything looked good. So when I hit my 5th month me and my husband were so excited because we were going to find out if it was a boy or girl. So when the doctor was doing the ultra-sound she was so quiet and I could tell something was wrong. She told me that I didnt have alot of fluid around my baby and that she couldnt see the baby's organs. She couldnt tell if it was a boy or girl. I was so devastated I couldnt breath and I couldnt stop crying I went to a specialist where they did another ultra-sound on me and told me that the baby didnt have long to live and because of my lack of fluid the baby had stop growing and still measured as 2 months when in fact I was 5.I found out later that my baby was a boy. They induced mylabor at 7 months because my health was in jeopardy. He was only 9 ounces. I named him Elijah Jaden Ramos. I had a stillbirth. When my water broke he had already passed away in my tummy. The hardest part was holding my son and wondering what could of been. It's hard losing your child and it was especially hard for me beacuse he was my first. There's not a day I go without thinking about him.