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Okay, my name is Amanda and my pain is very recent. I was married on October 20, 2007 and we started trying to have a baby our wedding night =}.On April 23, six months after we were married, I took a home pregnancy test.Surprise!!! Two lines. I was in total shock. I called my husband and told him and neither one of us could believe it. We decided we would take another one the next morning, and this one was a digital so that there would be no mistake and the digital reading said, "Pregnant." I was so shocked and excited and terrified all at the same time. I called our local womens clinic and had a blood test done with the same results. It's amazing; I was pregnant. All my dreams were coming true.
At 6 weeks my doctor wanted to do an ultrasound just to get an estimated delivery date, and of course, at this time there wasn't much to see but the EDD was 1-2-09. According to the doctor the baby had a heartbeat, but we couldn't hear it because it was too early. Everything looked good. At my 10 week appointment the dr still couldn't hear the heartbeat so we did anotheru/s and I was amazed at how much growing the baby did in that short amount of time. We were able to see the heartbeat and everything was going great andwe had a healthy baby and pregnancy. My next appointment was at 15 weeks and we got to hear the heartbeat for the first time. The baby's heartbeat was 154 bpm. Our baby was healthy and nothing to worry about. I scheduled my gender u/s and next dr's appt for August 18, 2008, at 20 weeks. I couldn't believe that we were going to get to find out what were having. I was so excited.
My appointment was at 2:30; by 2:48 my life was torn apart. We went in to do theu/s first. I went in laid on the bed and got ready to see my beautiful baby.The U/S tech doing her thing, we noticed that the baby wasn't moving. She kept working getting the measurements for the dr, and then told me she was going to get the dr. I immediately knew something was wrong and started bawling hysterically. When the dr came in it was 2:48. She confirmed that our baby didn't have a heartbeat and they didn't know why. I was crushed, my whole heart just broke. I sat there on the bed crying my heart out and holding my husband. All I could think was what did I do wrong? Why did my baby die? Am I not deserving of happiness? while the dr explained that it wasn't anything we did and tried to help console us. I was told that I may have to deliver my baby because I was so far along. My dr double checked with another dr and said that he could do a D and E to remove the baby. We decided to send the tissue remains to a pathologist and try to find out what went wrong. There is a chance that we may never know what happened, but we know a little.
I went in for my follow up visit yesterday and the dr told me a little of what they were able to find out. The baby only had 2 toes on one foot and he suspected it was due to ABS, Amniotic Band Syndrome. All I could think was What is that??? It is an uncommon but not rare occurance, about 1 in 1200successful pregnancies. This is where the inner layer of the amniotic sac tears and leaves little fringes. These bands attach and wrap themselves around the babies limbs or digits. In some cases, it attaches around the umbillical cord, cutting off the baby's vital nutrients, causing the heart to stop beating.
From what I have seen, in some cases it is better that the heart stopped beating. My baby may have had to suffer and no mother wants to see that. God decided to take my little ones precious life, so he/she would never know any suffering or pain. Several families are not that lucky. Some moms have to choose to terminate the pregnancy or have to carry their babies to term to find out they will never get to breathe freash air. As much as I loved and still love my precious baby, I am glad to know that it didn't suffer and is waiting for me in heaven when it is my turn to join.
I am sorry this is so long, but it is so recent and was so shocking. I am making it my duty to notify as many moms as I can that this is a real problem. There is no way to prevent it because its cause is unknown. However, it is not inherited and there is every chance in the world that my husband and I can go on to have beautiful, healthy children when we are ready. Thank you for having this site available and reading thru some of your stories, I can take comfort in knowing that you are there to help me thru this as I will be there for you.

Amanda

Hi everyone,
I was reading some of your girls miscarriage stories, i too have suffured thru a misscarriage. but i will start from the beginging, My name is cara i'm 22years old my husband's name iskerry and he is almost 23years old, we got married in october of 05 i met him online on a chat room if you believe it was love at first talk lol.... and of course at sight, three months after we got married we moved to Mayport florida my hubby is a navy man. In january i found out i was pregnant,On october 4th of 2006i sucssfully carriedour daughter to full term she came out 7lbs 7ounces 21 inches long at a 11:36amvery healthy she has broughtus so much joy and happiness, In march of 08 i found out i was pregnant again altho my hubby and i were having problems inourmarriagei just wasn't ready to bepregnant again, i wish i could have taken back all the mean things i said about that pregnancy i love children so much i just feel so selfish saying that i wasn't ready to have another baby, anyways i had morning sickness really bad and i kinda wish i went to the doctor before that first ultrasound but i didn't i had my first u/s on march 31st i went in they got me all prepped up had a pap done at the same time. i had a vag u/s i was looking straight at the screen and could see this little baby but there was something missing there was no movement and there was no heart beat my doctor was saying i don't see it i knew exactly what she didn't see the baby had passed 8weeks and 5days i cried so hard my doctor left me alone feeling my pain i was just stareing at the screen that had my baby on it,i gainedmy composuregot my clothes back on went to my doctor's office were she was waiting for me and itold my herthat i had to call my husband,My hubby at that time was at work and i had to call him in tell him the bad newshe was so in shocked that all he told me was that he was going to call me back which i was shocked that he said that. well he was able to get off work and meet me at the clinic he told me that after that call he just broke down in cried when he got to me i was already out of the doctors office on my way to the lab to cancle any blood test that my doctor had set up for me, i called my family and told them the news Kerry called his and told them the werid thing out of that was that my sister in law miscarried the month before and it weighed heavy on my heart that i was just so depressed, anyways i asked my doctor what my options wore and she said i could havea D/C done i didn't know what that was until she explained so i opted for that i had my D/C on april 3rd, i wasn't that far along to know the sex of the baby buti had a strong feeling it was another little girl her name would have been marcella rodriguez she was due innovember. my husband would have been the one to pick her middle name but since he doesn't like to talk about it i haven't pressed it. alot hashappend sincethat my hubby and i wore on the verge of diovercing but we have come to terms in arenow trying to save our marriagei love him so much we have been thur too much to evenhave a dioverce he has always been there for me he is mystrenght when i'm down i just lovehim to pieces.and nowwe areexpecting again he really wanted to try againihave my first u/s on steptember 3rd He is going to beat this first u/s im due april 5th of 09
We thank God every day he has blessed us so much,
God bless all of you and thanks for telling your story it helps to know that i'm not the only one feeling the way that i do.

Where do I begin,
My name ia genia and I am an army wife. My husband is steve and he is the most awsome man I have ver or will ever know. We have been trying to have a baby for 4 years. I finaly became pregnant in April. I was so excited every weeks to know my baby was growing and developing inside.
In loving memory of Jacob Eugene deGroot !!!! My hubby and I have had the worst few days of our life. I lost our baby on August 21 at 10:50 pm. He was 9 ½ inches and weighed 255 grams . Our precious little boy was born asleep after only carry him for around 20 weeks. We named him Jacob Eugene and he was blessed and left in peace. Although Jacob never had the chance to fully develop he was a beautiful little boy . I had the opportunity to hold my baby and kiss him goodbye. How many people can actually say they had the opportunity to hold an angel !!!! We had a cremation ceremony on Tuesday the 26th and will have our baby with us no matter where we go . http://www.mybabymemorial.com/memorial/page/angelmommy2008/

Quoting juanitasmommy:“ Hi everyone, I was reading some of your girls miscarriage stories, i too have suffured thru a misscarriage. ... [snip!] ... God bless all of you and thanks for telling your story it helps to know that i'm not the only one feeling the way that i do.”

My story is a little similar to yours..If you go back a few pages I explained what happe nwith mine..Anyways what is similar is I miscarried in January and it took about 4 months till I was pregnant again..I see thats about how long it took you..Also I was very heartbroken too and me getting pregnant again is what helped me get passed it..The other thing is my husband also don't like to talk about that pregnancy or baby at all either...I think that everything...Oh and I go to my ultrasound on Sept. 3rd too but it's not my first...Good luck with this baby and try not to worry..I know it's hard since you did miscarry not to long ago but odds are this time everyhitn will be fine..

Hello, First I have to say that I know this is a section that speaks on loss of unborn children but since this seemed to be the only forum that dealt with loss I thought I'd post my story of loss anyway. I met and fell in love with a young man named Zuri, he was 19, I was 24. I never thought that we would work out because of the huge age difference but I tempted fate and we began seeing one another. Recently right before our 1 year anniversary (approx. sometime in May) we found out we were gonna be parents, naturally we were both freaked out, me more than him even though I have a daughter. Eventually I calmed down and actually became excited for our little one's arrival. We had our first ultrasound at 7 weeks and the baby was perfect, Zuri was blown away by the ultrasound and couldn't wait to hold his child in his arms. Tragically on July 3rd, 2008 just 20 days before our 1 year anniversary Zuri was killed in a car accident at 5:45am. I was lying on the ultrasound table having my 11 week ultrasound when I got the call that he was dead...I was beyond destroyed, the man I loved with all my heart was gone, leaving me and his unborn baby without him. Later that month I found out that because I had had a preterm birth before that I would need a cervical cerclage to protect my baby...I remember lying on that table wishing he was there with me and my eyes filling with tears knowing that he wouldn't be. A few weeks later they told me that I was having another girl. I pray she has his eyes....there isn't a day that I don't miss Zuri and I hope that I can preserve his memory for his little girl. Well, just thought I'd share my experience with loss. Hope everyone has a blessed day....

Hi, Im Ami and Im 24. Me and my husband Nick (24) are the parents of a beautiful angel in Heaven, Gabriella-Grace Aaron, who was born sleeping On July 1, 2007. I have auto-immune hepatitis and I was told early on that I would never be able to get pregnant. But on December 15 2006 i took a pregnancy test and it was POSITIVE! We were so very excited that we were going to get the chance to be parents! I told my liver specialist I was pregnant and he advised me to terminate the pregnancy, that it was to dangerous for me to carry a baby. I of course refused, this was our miracle, the baby we had prayed for. The pregnancy went smoothly, no complications until about 32 weeks, i developed mild preclampsia. Nothing to worry about yet though. Then at 36 weeks at our visit to the high risk OB he decided to admit me, my blood pressure was elevated and he wanted to keep a close eye on me. That was Friday June 30, 2007. On Saturday morning they did a fetal non-stress test and everything was great with Gabby-Grace...The Dr decided to induce on Monday morning... We were so excited, we were going to be parents in just a few days!!! Saturday afternoon around 4 they came in to do a blood pressure and fetal heart rate check. The nurse couldnt find Gabbys heart beat, said she was probably turned to where she couldnt get it and that they were going to send me to labor and delivery to do an ultrasound just to be safe. My Dr came in still wearing his shorts and tennis shoes and put the wand on my belly, there was our Gabby...perfectly still...no heartbeat. I didnt beleive it at first, I willed her to move, i needed her to move! The Dr sat there with me and Nick and after several minutes he looked at me and said "Ami, I dont know how this happened, but we have lost her" Nick jusst burst into tears, the nurses trying to console him, tears ran down my Dr's face, but I couldnt cry, i didnt beleive this, she couldnt be gone... I just starred at the monitor with my daughters perfect body on it, waiting for her to move, for them to be wrong, but of course that didnt happen. Finally the tears came and I sobbed. We all sobbed. Finally I asked what we did next and the Dr told me that when we were ready we would go ahead and induce and i in return said i was ready NOW I wanted to see my little girl. So after 18 hours of labor our angel girl was silently born on Sunday July 1, 2007 at 11:48 am weighing 5 lbs 3 oz and 18 in long. She was perfect in every single way. We love her and miss her so much. We think of her each day, even a year after she left us. Gabby sent to us her little sister Madalynn-Faith Diane who is due October 25, 2008 but will be induced at 36 weeks around September 27th.Here is a link to Gabbys site, her story and how we have coped along with poems, angel baby friends, and links for support!
http://www.gabbygraceraymer.com

Hello, My name is Mandy. My fiance and I found out we were pregnant 12-7-07. Everything was going so great. All the tests came back normal and so did the ultrasounds. Around June 1st I started getting really sick. I couldn't keep any food down and my son had dropped into position already. I had lost 3 lbs but i had only gained 10 so the doc was worried. I had an ultrasound and it showed that i had fluid loss. I had no idea. It wasnt leaking out of me. The doc told me that we had nothing to worry about and just to write down how many times my little guy moved during the day. He used to kick the hell out of me ALL the time. So when saturday rolled around he wasn't moving as much. SCARED ME! my mom said don't worry about it. Then sunday morning came. No movement at all. Went to the hospital to get an NST. The nurse couldnt find the heartbeat. Then they brought in this old ultrasound machine and the nurse couldnt find it. No movement or anything. Then when the doc came in he tried with the ultrasound and yet again for the 3rd time i was told that there was nothing. THEN the actual ultrasound tech showed up to comfirm my little guy had passed. The ultrasound showed that there was BARELY any fluid in there. I gave birth to Damien Everett Timothy Ellsworth George on June 17th 2008. He was due August 9th 2008. I went thru 21 hours of labor and didnt even get to hear him cry once. I was 19 yrs old and I already had to go to the funeral home to plan my sons funeral! Putting him in the ground was the worst day of my life. The autopsy showed that nothing was wrong physcially. Then the chromosome test showed that he had Trimosy 21(Downs Syndrome) The doc told me that due to the Downs, his little kindeys had failed. My little guy is in heaven and all i can hope is that he watches over us! I am currently 6 weeks pregnant. so now i am really scared and skepitcal. No one is allowed to tell me that i shouldnt worry and that its all worth it in the end. I dont want to sound bitter but all thru my pregnancy I had bad morning sickness and everyday I said when will it stop they would just tell me that its all worth it in the end. NOT FOR ME!!! so you can probably see why i dont want anyone saying that to me this time. If anyone would like to talk im always on!

i have come into this thread so many time's just to read but i have never found words to write about my losses and still cant so i have just copied what i wrote on my profile.

My name is Amy, i'm 23 years old and married to a grea guy named Mark. We started dating on July 20th 1998 and have been together since, even tho we do haveour up's and downs we alwaysseem to end upback together, we got married on the 19th of November 2004!
At about 16 weeks we found out we were having girls!! pink pink pink!!
I never really gave having children much thought but in late september 2007 i found myself at the hospital with what i thought was going to be some sort of bug, i had fainted at work didnt know why! so when the nurse said oh we have to do a pregnancy test because of your age i didnt give it a second thought as far as a knew i was jut ill! 10 mins late she came in and told me the newyour pregnant, i could not believe it i didnt know how far on i was so they sent me for a ultrasound and gave me th big news your having TWINS!! I was very happy but shocked and well i was having twins twice the blessing!
On thenight of December 12th something didnt seem right so i went in and they did an ultrasound they could only find one heartbeat, i was bleeding tooso they kept me in. On December 13th i gave birth to two beautiful girls who we named Ava-Lily and Emelia-Amanda Hope.
In April of 2008 i found out i was pregnant again!! this time we were TTC!
At 16 weeks its a boy!!
On 26th of August i woke up as normal, but everytime i went to the loo i was wet! i cld the doctor and h told me to go in just to make sureeverything was ok, my worst fears was comfirmed when told me my waters were leaking and i was having contractions, they gave me drugs to stop my labor but nothing was working and from 10pm to 3am i had gone from 1cm dilated to 7cm dilated.
At 12:34pm on August the 27th 2008, Zachary James Nolent came in to the world weighing only 1lb 1oz.
At 9:31pm on August the 27th 2008 he went to be with his sisters and go and play the garden of the angels. I am very thankfull i got to spend 9 hours with him,9 hours dont seem a lot to someone who has never lot a child, but them 9 hours werethe best o my life so far, i also got to spend them 9 hours which are more than some angel mommies dont get to have with there babies.

Quoting Melissa FOR McCain 2008:“ I'll start first... My name is Melissa, I have been on baby gaga 7 months. I have miscarried 5 times ... [snip!] ... weeks. I pray that one day everyone will have the same success story that I have. I know how hard it is to loose your child..”

I just got on baby gaga a couple of days ago and it has been so helpful. I had 1 miscarriage that was an unplanned pregnancy back in Feb of 08. My fiance and I had just found out and I was only about 6 weeks along. It was very sudden...I started having mild cramping with no bleeding and about 24 hrs later I had severe cramps and bleeding heavily. I went to the ER and they said my miscarriage was already happening and sent me home with tylenol. James (my fiance) and I decided to try again and the end of July when I was 1 day late with my period I got a test confirming I was pregnant again! We were soooo happy and excited. I am currently 9 weeks today and my first doc / prenatal appt is Sept 17th. I have had some morning sickness but otherwise feel great.
Until last night. I felt wonderful and i went to the bathroom and when I wiped my heart sank when i noticed a small amount of light pink blood. We immediately went to the ER b/c of what happened b4. I have not had any cramping at all or any more spotting. The doc at the ER has me worried outta my mind right now. They did a vaginal ultrasound (he is trying to tell me I'm only 6 or 7 weeks which is NOT right) and he said that they cannot detect a heartbeat or see a fetus. They told me it appears there is onlya gestational sac with "debris" in it!!!
My doc appt is not until next Wed but when I called the nurse said if that was the case I would have steady spotting and probably cramping. i have no idea what to think. I'm so worried right now i can't sleep or think straight. I do not want to go thru a 2nd miscarriage and i keep thinking i would have more cramps or bleeding. Sorry to ramble but your story inspires me. I'm glad that you were able to have success and it makes me feel more reassured.

Quoting Sara76:“ I just got on baby gaga a couple of days ago and it has been so helpful. I had 1 miscarriage that was ... [snip!] ... Sorry to ramble but your story inspires me. I'm glad that you were able to have success and it makes me feel more reassured.”

hello, just wanted to say when i went to the er and had bleeding they told me they didnt see anything!!! had to go back in 1 week and what do u know there he/she was. probaly a month after had bleeding again. come to find out i was prego with twins and i had lost one. when the other sack went the other baby came out with it. but i guess what im really trying to say is try not to listen to the er doctor. they can be wrong

Quoting 1inHeaven1inBelly:“ Hi, Im Ami and Im 24. Me and my husband Nick (24) are the parents of a beautiful angel in Heaven, Gabriella-Grace ... [snip!] ... her story and how we have coped along with poems, angel baby friends, and links for support! http://www.gabbygraceraymer.com”

i'm soo sorry for your loss but i just wanted to say congrats on ur new baby and good luck with everything.i'm pregnant with my 2nd and i know its very rough and scary after losing one already.but this website is very helpful.and sorry to all the other mothers who have lost theirs.

I know this is hard but you have to try and not worry . The stress is not good for your baby. Try and relax and if you can't wait till your sept 17th appointment go for a second opioin. I had a mc almost 3 weeks ago. I carried my angel for 19 1/2 weeks and he was born asleep. He died inside bout 4 hours earlier. I feel the nurse my have caused or advanced my mc. It is a long story if anyone wants to know what happened just email me.
here is Jacob's memorial site. http://www.mybabymemorial.com/memorial/page/angelmommy2008/

I found it helpful to make this site for my angel .

Quoting Muhhhleeeesaa:“ I'll start first... My name is Melissa, I have been on baby gaga 7 months. I have miscarried 5 times ... [snip!] ... weeks. I pray that one day everyone will have the same success story that I have. I know how hard it is to loose your child..”

Did they tell you why you miscarried so many times? That is awful and I'm very sorry for your losses. I'm happy that you had a great outcome. I just had my 2nd miscarriage and go in on Friday for a D&C. The doc said that it is normal to have even 3 miscarriages and he said we can start trying again right away so we are gonna try in November. I'm hoping for the best this time around. 3rd time is a charm.

Even though I'm bawling as I read through these posts, I feel this is helping me. My husband and I have been together for 11 years (married for 5 yrs), and we've had 3 miscarriages. I just found out yesterday that the third baby's (I was due April 12th) heartbeat was gone. I'm having my D&C in 7 hours (can't sleep). I've had one before so know what to expect... but it doesn't make it any easier. At least this time they will perform some extensive testing. My babies always seem to be perfect until around the 8 week mark, then something goes horribly wrong. All I ever wanted was to be a loving wife/mother... what is wrong with this plan? I'm angry, frustrated, confused, distraught, and feeling like a failure. I refuse to give up... but this pain is unbelievable and just hope they find some miracle for my problem that will make it possible for me to one day have a child.