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Quoting ♥ Mzs me3 me3:“ Hi my name is Marissa and i am 16 years old i have lost 3 babys one on july 20 ,2007 the due date was feb 14, 2008 and with the twin on feb. 10,2008 and the due date for them was 8 28,2008”

this is late to be responding to this, but the date you lost your first child is teh anniversary of my dad's death, and the due date of that child was my original due date for my daughter.  I am really sorry for all that you have lost.

Hi,
I have no children. I am 30 years old and had my first m/c last year in August. The pregnancy was short...I tested positive on Saturday, I bled that Monday. I was very surprised and didn't understand.
I got pregnant again in November and carried for 8 weeks. I had an ultrasound done and saw a heartbeat, although it was very irregular. They recommended that I come in a week later to make sure everything was ok. I had a D&C in December. That one was SO hard and it really affected me.
4 weeks ago I got pregnant again and only told my husband. Sure enough I lost it last Saturday.
So that's #3 and I have no children........I have no idea what is happening and am sick and tired of it. I work with tons of pregnant ladies and brand new moms and every day is really hard... I try not to compare but I really don't understand how some of these people have children so effortlessly and I can't. Thanks for listening.

Quoting MMforver2708:“ I'll start first... My name is Melissa, I have been on baby gaga 7 months. I have miscarried 5 times ... [snip!] ... weeks. I pray that one day everyone will have the same success story that I have. I know how hard it is to loose your child..”

Hey, My name is Carrie from Chilly recently went thru a dissolution. So i'm a single mom of three awesome boys age 18, 13 and 10. Which as of March 20th 08 my son enlisted into the Army National Guard, So Proud of him.
A friend introduce me to Michael around September and then not long afterward found out i was pregnant. Currently had a miscarriage, lost my babygirl on January 29th,08.
Not dealing with it still today.
I miss her so much, just wanting closure from it. But it will never happen...I will never forget her. Michael was with me the night, i lost her and i still feel its my fault if only i could have been not so stressed then she would be here in August.
He's not saying much so idk.
We text briefly talk not much, so
it would be alot easier. If he would open up to me, but he's idk.

Wow, i was so hoping to never need to post in a forum like this, but here i am.

My name is Cat, i'm 21 from MA. been with my bf for over a year & a half and this was the 1st pregnancy for either of us.

Everything startedoff fine, i went to aclinic in FL where my bf lives to confirm the pregnancy and have an ultrasound. I was6 weeks at this time and everything seemed fine, we saw the heartbeat and everything. I had already started getting sick before then and it continuedthe whole time (still experiencing it). I didn't have insurance at the time, but free ins is offered in MA for pregnant women so i was waiting to be approved. I finally was and made my 1st appt and it was for june 2nd. I left for fl2 visit my bf on may 21st and hadstartedseeingpink streaks when i wiped. It stopped and i didn't really worry as i've heard that's totally normal. It started again the next day and increased a little from there. it was only when i went pee and was mostly brown anddark. no crampingso no panic yet. this continued until i came home on the 27, it was the holiday weekend and couldn't see mydr from 1500 miles away so as soon as i gotback i called. They said to come in today at 1:45 so they could see what was going on. i had myself convinced i lost the baby and had been thinking that for a few days at that point. the friday before i left for fl i just had this bad feeling something was wrong but brushed it off as hormones since there was seemingly nothing wrong, no problems or anything.

iwent to work this morning at 4 and it was just me & one of my good friends, told her what was going on & that i needed to leave early and stuff.. she ended up finding out her fiance is cheating again and was on the phone fighting with him when i went in the bathroom to pee.. well when i did there was just like clumps and clumps of this like pink-ish gray-ish stuff (which i heard is what fetal tissue looks like) and i absolutely broke down. i started crying histerically and called my mom ( this was around 5:15am) and she told me to call my dr even though they were closed and there would be an option on there to talk to someone. so i do, and i get this lady and tell her what's going on and her response is "well i don't know you'll have to call back after 8 or just wait until your appointment" i couldn't even believe my ears. i hung up on her and called my mom back crying even harder. so we decided when someone else came in i was leaving and we were going to the er. well my friend told me to just go she'd be fine alone so i left. i called my bf when i got in the car and told him what was happening. got home, changed, and my sister wanted to take me so we left. got there around 6:15, they put me in a room right away.. took my bp a few times and stuff, they had the nurse try to find a heartbeat, and she said she was horrible at it so don't panic if she didn't find anything, she tried for a few but gave up cuz she said she was horrible at it and didn't wanna scare me. so then i had to wait for the dr. he finally came, listened to my breathing, pushed on my stomach a little, told me they were gunna take blood and send me to ultrasound then see from there. so the girl came and took blood, a few mins later someone came to take me for the ultrasound. i had already convinced myself that i lost the baby so i wasn't expecting to see anything on it.. and i was right. there was nothing visible in there at all. he did the transvaginal one too, and i still saw nothing. i couldn't even look i turned my head away and just pretended i was looking. then they sent me back to the room.. and i sat there and waited for 3 hours before anyone said a word to me. i had just seen the ultrasound and knew there was nothing there, and they just leave me there. i felt like getting up and leaving, i obviously knew i lost the baby so why do i have to sit here and wait, what the hell. finally 3 hours later the dr comes in and tells me what i already knew. "well the baby died" those were his exact words. and then he says "it's been dead in there for at least 3 weeks" so now i'm thinking omg 3 weeks wtf. then he goes "i already made the appointment for you, you have to go across the st to the ob/gyn office and have a d&c right now." and that's all he tells me, he leaves, they take more blood, then tell me to go over there. so now i'm absolutely terrified, i wasn't prepared for that. and the way he told me everything was like so insensitive and like it shouldn't bother me. this is why i HATE male drs. they don't f**king get it !

so now it's after 11am as i'm walking over there i call my bf and tell him what's going on, and he just keeps saying he's sorry, i'm like babe it's not your fault and he's like i know i just don't know what else to say. and i could tell by his voice he was just as crushed as i was. so then i call my mom and tell her. and then we go in. by this time i'm shaking i'm so scared i was fighting back the tears harder than i ever had before. the nurse calls me in and weighs me, brings me in a room and asks me a few questions, takes my blood pressure and then the dr comes in. she starts talking to me and then asks me if i want them to bring my sister in while we talk, she'd been there all day in the er with me through everything so i said yes please. so she came in and the lady was explaining to me what was going on.

she said i had 2 options, i could wait and see if everything passes on it's own, which she didn't reccomend, or we could do the d&e (the dr wasn't even saying the right procedure the moron, there's a difference). she had asked if i had been to the dr at all and i said no just the ultrasound i had at 6 weeks, today was my 13 week mark,and she said well after that ultrasound, the baby stopped developing. what they found on the ultrasound is measuring at 6 weeks. so right after my ultrasound is when my baby died. she said that my placenta kept growing, totally unaware that the baby wasn't. and that's why i was sick and always had to pee and all the other symptoms. my placenta apparently didn't acknowledge the fact the baby died, and continued growing and stuff like nothing was wrong. she said the problem was obviously with the baby not me, since my body is still doing what it's supposed to. there was something wrong with the baby right from the start and it never grew after we saw it that day. so the last 7 weeks have all been like a sick joke on me, all the sickness and everything else. but she was asking me questions and stuff, and she's like it's obvious that you really wanted this baby and i know this is heartbreaking but it wasn't your fault something was not right from the beginning and there's nothing you could have done. and she said i didn't stop getting sick and stuff becuz my body still thinks i'm pregnant. which she said is why she really thinks i need to do the d&e because my body hasn't miscarried yet and it's not necessarily going to anytime soon and it can make me really sick if it stays in there. and as much as it scares me and how much it hurts me emotionally i know i need to do it, no question about it. so i sign the paper and stuff saying i'm going. and it's scheduled for tomorrow. so that stupid dr scared the shit out of me for no reason. made me think i was going over there to have it done right there and then. a**hole. but then she explained to me what's going to happen tomorrow, which made me feel better about it, even though i know what a d&e is, she's really nice and it just made me feel better. even though i'm still absolutely terrified. and she said if i need anything, have any questions, start cramping or bleeding excessively to call her and she'll meet me right at the er and i won't have to wait they'll take me right away. otherwise my appt is at 1 tomorrow afternoon, have to be thereat 11at the hospital i was at today.

so all my bad feelings were justified, i just had no idea it was to that extent. it just really kills me to think that all that time being sick and everything, and i had no idea what happened to the poor baby. i wish i had gotten to the dr before but in a way i'm kind of glad i didn't go until i had started bleeding because at least once i started bleeding i thought something might be wrong. i'm so glad i didn't go into the dr thinking everything was fine, having no reason to think anything was wrong, and found out that i had lost the baby with no warning, i don't think i could have handled that.

i sympathize witheveryone herewho has ever had a m/c or lost a child because i now know how it feels and it is definately the worst kind of pain imaginable. i don't care how bad a breakup is, how bad a relationship ends, this kind of heartbreak is the worst kind possible, and i wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. it's the most horrible thing i've ever experienced, and i've been through a lot, and i don't think anything could ever compare to this.

funny how you can go your whole life never wanting kids, until that 1st time you get pregnant, and everything changes. i never wanted anything more than i wanted this baby once i knew it was there, but i know it was obviously not meant to be right now and i honestly can't wait until the time it is meant to be. i loved this baby more than i ever thought possible while i had it, and i look forward to the next baby i can give that kind of love to.

obviously this isn't completely over for me yet, and i'm sure i'll be posting around here to help cope. the advice and support of the girls on here has helped me so much, and i'm so thankful for finding this site. it's so great to know there's somewhere you can go for any question or concern, or just for a friend to talk to. and i know i'll be back on here as a mommy to be in the future. hopefully soon.. i may not be a mommy to beright now, but i'm definately sticking around.

Hi, my name is Liz. I am 23 going on 24 VERY soon, and my husband is 26. We are a military family and love it. I found out i was pregnant on Dec3, 07 and was the happiest i had ever been. As i went thru all the fears of miscarriage i never thought it would happn to me.. but it did. I miscarried on Jan 16... i was about 9 weeks,,,, and it was the worst day of our lives. I couldnt explain how sad and painful this was to me. what did i do wrong? i know of all these women who are so harmful to the baby when they are pregannt and carry full term...... but i didnt do any of that and i still diid....... i am still nto over it, but i have come to terms with it. What hurts the most is that i think about it every day. how do i get over this? We want to plan our next one, since he is on a ship most of the time, so hopefully we will TTC this coming year. I am sorry for every one's losses, i understand completely.... big hugs to all of you.. and baby dust to every one who needs it... .xoxoxoxox

Quoting MMforver2708:“ I'll start first... My name is Melissa, I have been on baby gaga 7 months. I have miscarried 5 times ... [snip!] ... weeks. I pray that one day everyone will have the same success story that I have. I know how hard it is to loose your child..”

hi my name is Rachel I'm married and a daughter who is 4 and have been unable to concieve since her birth i'm 24 years old i didnt think that happened to wemon my age and it hurts because my husband wants a child so bad a son to be specific recently i thought i was prego because i havent had my menstral since april 6 but we went to the doctor and he said im not and that i have to go to the neurologist now and i'm so scared

Hi my name is April. Im 20 years old and have been married for a year and a half. My biggest goal in life is to be a mom. Ever since i was a little girl thats all ive wanted to be. On September 2, 2007 my dream came true. I gave birth to a little girl named Hope Autumn. She was born 12 weeks early. Although she only weighed 1.8lbs. she was the prettest thing i have ever laid eyes on. She had her mommys big lips   I got to spend two days with her before she passed away. After she died I completely shut down. We planned her funeral and my heart was buried with her. My husbands in the military and we move around alot so we buried her in our home town and it was really hard to leave to come back home. I felt like i had abandoned her. I blamed myself for her dying for the longest time. I felt like i had one job on this earth and that was to bring her here and i failed. I didnt protect her like a mother is supposed to. Its hard to believe its been 9 months since shes died. It feels like it was just yesterday. I miss her more than anything and i would do anything to get to spend one more day with her.

Im currently pregnant again with a little boy. Its been difficult to be excited because ive been so scared that i would lose him too. Ill be 27 weeks tomorrow and I pray everyday that he will be healthy.

Hey my name is Tamia I first of all like to say I'm proud of all you ..Your never once Gave up .....you try until you succeed .......I'm young ...18 years old .....i had 1 miscarriage and that effected me so much .. i was trying for one so bad .........i didn't know i was pregnant until after ......i didn't what to do ...my heart was broken .. i always wanted to be a mother .....i'm still trying

Hey Everyone, Well this is going to be the toughesttopic I think I would ever post!!!!
My name is Edith andmy husbands name is Ivan. I am 21 years old and he is 27. Ibecame pregnant with my first child. I found out on April 22. To Ivan and I was the 2nd happiest moment of our lives (The first happiest was when we got married). So, we thought everything was going to be ok like every other pregnancy that women have, We had been trying to over a year and we thought its finally here the time to bring this Angel to life and to be happy as a family! WOW! Then, I started goingfor my blood work testsand thats where all the bad news started my Doc told me that my hormone level should be doubling numbers and it wasent, it was only going to up slowly. So, she told me lets keep doing more blood tests and maybe they will start going up like we want. My second blood work it didnt again and from there Ivan and I knew that something wasent right! The third blood test My hormone level was finally going up a little more than before, but still not doubling. My doc said "ok this number of Hormone level is fine, but your protastrium level is down but we will give u antiobiotic for that". I thought ok thats alright as long as my hormone level is up thats allright because that is what the baby survives from. Then, I got schedule for my first ultrasound and another bad news the doc said the baby didnt have a heart beat and it wasent showing. My Doc gave me hope and she told me that since I had always had irregular periods that maybe my baby is too little and that I must of gotten pregnant later that what they thought! So, for me that was hope and like they said maybe my baby is little. Then, I went for my second ultrasound and finally my baby showed very little in the screen and I was able to see it moving Oh My god I was so reliefand Ivan was there with me and we cried of happiness and relief. My doc said that the baby was showing, moving, but the heartbeat was slow only 91 (which it should be up to 100 by now).
Then, on Friday May 23 my world came down on me and my brother came for my ultrasound I thought it was only follow up since my last ultrasound came fine. They did my ultrasound and the lady that was taking my ultrasound said I will be back I have to show these pictures to the doc ( I thought oh oh she has never done that, is there something wrong?). Alot of things came to my mind in that moment that the lady left. After 15 long minutes she came in and told me "GET DRESS UNFORTUNATELY YOUR BABY PASSED" I was speechless and I just looked at my brother and I started sobbing and sobbing and sobbing and sobbing like I couldnt stop and I just wanted to cry. My brother was next to me, but he got quiet and I really wanted to know at the moment what he was thinking, but he never told me he just asked me If I was ok? He knew I wasent! Well, I sat there crying in the ultrasound room for about 20 minutes until I was finally able to leave the lady in the ultrasound told me I have a Missed Miscarriage. OH MY GOD! I thought to myself why me? Sooooo many things came to my mind and I felt like suffocating and like screaming. When, I arrived to the car to go home I didnt know what to do, but to call my mom and Ivan. WHen, I called my mom I explained to her what happened it was bad she cried. I told Ivan and like always he seem so strong just to make me strong. On my way home from the clinic I just cried and cried and I hated life to the fullest. When, I got home to Ivan I ran to his arms and I cried sooooo much and he just hugged me and told me "I love you no matter what and I will always be here for you". Since the beginning Ivan has been here for me everytime I will give him bad news he will stand by me and I will cry to him and he wont just to make me stronger!!!! OH how we grew loving each other more and more! So, that was the day we got the bad news that I wish no mother-to be should ever get. That same Friday night maybe cuz I was crying sooo much I began to get cramping so I ended up in the Emergency room in . I was there for a few hours they did lots of test on me and the ER nurse came in and told me "Edith, well there is no heartbeat in your baby, but this is going to be more confusing to you because your hormone level is still going up, which should be going down" I was just so confused wondering if I had a dead baby inside my or an alive one. My family (mom and dad) and Ivan were there with me and they were also confused. The ER nurse told me that she suggests that I wait about a week or so to think things over and then wait to see if you misscarry by yourself or you will have to have the D & C surgey, which is a surgey where they remove the dead baby. That night I kept throwing up most of the night just because I was so nervous. So, to conclude this longand sad blog this past couple days I have learn to accept the fact that my baby is dead and that my baby is now an Angel once again. Also, I had believe that everything happens for a reason, and that my pregnancy wouldn't have gone any furtherand I know that I am still young and Ivan and I we can try again to have another child. This has made Ivan and I stronger as people and as a couple. This has also made my family and I soooooooooclose and they protect more and more. So, my decisionwas that Iwas going for the surgey Iwas scared shitless because I have never got a surgey before in my life, but everything should be fine! So, this is another chapter in my life that I will always remember and that is why I want to tell all mothers and mothers-to be to cherish everything you have specially your child or children because every child is a blessing and if you think that this cant happen to you that is the same thing I thought and look at me now, I am writing this blog and giving you my heart because this is the only way I can vent and let it all out.
Today, June 3rd was my D&C surgery and it wasent as bad as I thought. Im not really going to explain in detail of what they do because most of you women probably already went through it, but pretty much you are put to sleep and they scrape out whatever was left of the baby or fetus. Right now I feel soar, but OK lots of bleeding obviously thats normal. Im just sooooo relived that this all over and I just have to get better and be strong. Like, I said my husband and I are still young and we can try again for another baby..

I don't have it in me to post my whole story. It's long and still hard for me to get through even though it happened three months ago. I used to frequent this forum often and didn't come back until tonight because I thought it was only really for pregnant gals, but then I found this place...and it's so unfortunate that we all have to be here.

The easiest way to read my story is here http://hernebaby1.blogspot.com/

You will find a video that is full of picture of my baby girl and under that you can read her memory book that I made her. I carried her to 29 weeks and she died two weeks later after a hard fight in the NICU.

Hi ladies
My name is Kerry, Im 37 and from the UK. I have 1 little boy aged 6 (almost 7) and a step-son who is almost 9 (although he lives with his mum).
My partner, who is also 37 and I have been together a little over 2years.

About a month ago I found out I was about 5 1/2 weeks pregnant, although a little shocked at first we were over the moon and looking forward to our future. A few days after my first appointment with my midwife I started some brown spotting. A week later I went to see my doc who booked us in for a scan. On the 2nd June 08 we saw our little bud, heartbeating and everything looking fine. A few days later I began spotting red which became quite heavy. Ended up twice at A&E last Friday but was told to go home and carry on.
We had our second scan yesterday and our little bud was gone  . We are heartbroken. There are no answers as to why this happened so I feel confused, lost and empty. I feel I have had my hopes and dreams snatched away from me and I dont know why.
Thats why Im here really, I know Im not the only woman in the world going through this.
Family and friends are being supportive but they dont understand why or how either, this is new to us all.
Im here for anyone who wants to rant and rave and I hope you dont mind if I do the same every now and again.
*hugs to you all*

Hello... My name is Jenna, and recently dealing with a loss.. quite recently actually.

Alex and I wanted a little girl so bad.. We got our little girl, Lynnea Avery Stark on May 20th of 2008. .She was 15wks premature.. She was the most perfect little girl ever, she still is.. Lynnea Passed on June 12th of 2008..
It was hard to let her go, but I believe it would've been harder to see her suffer any longer.. Looking into her eyes as she looked up at us gasping her last breaths had to of been the worst time of my life.. But I am glad I was there to be with her, to let her know that mommy still loves her.. I am absolutely heartbroken by all of this.. I just can't believe how much someone could love another.. She's my little angel, and I'll meet her again someday.

Mommy loves you my precious little angel..

Hello everyone...
Reading these posts have been so sad...
I got married last September. We found out a couple days after the wedding that I was pregnant. After our honeymoon, I had my first Dr's appt. There the news went down hill from there. The Dr expected to hear a heart beat, but didn't. An ultrasound confirmed that the baby had stopped developing. I had to take the pills to expell the baby. It was awful.
A couple of weeks ago I found out that I was pregnant again. I haven't even gotten to my first appointment. I was 5 weeks along this time and I started bleeding. Blood tests confirmed that I indeed miscarried again. I know that I wasn't very far along either time, but it still really hurts. My husband and I are really looking forward to a baby.
Has anyone else had this happen multiple times? I am going to get a progesterone test in a week or so. I also have the labs to get the rest of the tests done if need be. My Dr says to not be suprised if the tests all come back fine.
I just wondered if anyone was in the same boat and what you were doing about it. I just really want this to stop happening. I was so sure last time that everything would be fine. I wish I would have been right...