All I can think about is how much I miss her
5000 postsposted 29th Oct
PLEASE DON'T QOUTE ME, I MAY NEED TO ERASE THIS POST
My baby girl passed away 20 days ago. Since then her death has been ruled homicide- closed head wound. She was with several different people during the last 2-3 days of her life so we may never know wo did it, although it was all immediate family who was with her(my in-laws). Because of the fact that they are still investigating, DHS took our little boyand I'm being advised to live apart from my husband. I have no one left.
My life was always so busy, rushing around changing diapers and cleaning and cooking.... now the only thing I do all day is lay in bed and look at pictures of baby katherine and cry. I've tried to surround myself with friends, but I can't focus on conversations... all I think of is the thingsI will never get to do with my little girl. God, she was innocent. I wish I was the one hurt, not her. I would gladly take her place... this isn't fair. She was perfect to me. When I held her a wave of happiness came over me. Now I am grieving, all alone, because whoever murdered her won't just confess. All I can think about is giving her CPR... thinking that I could save her. Now I know that there was nothing I could have done... except protect her from our own family. I never would have thought this could happen. I don't know how to keep going anymore. I just want to hold her one more time.
Sleep well Katherine, I'll see you in heaven baby doll.
August 9, 2009 - October 9, 2009
quoteMy baby girl passed away 20 days ago. Since then her death has been ruled homicide- closed head wound. She was with several different people during the last 2-3 days of her life so we may never know wo did it, although it was all immediate family who was with her(my in-laws). Because of the fact that they are still investigating, DHS took our little boyand I'm being advised to live apart from my husband. I have no one left.
My life was always so busy, rushing around changing diapers and cleaning and cooking.... now the only thing I do all day is lay in bed and look at pictures of baby katherine and cry. I've tried to surround myself with friends, but I can't focus on conversations... all I think of is the thingsI will never get to do with my little girl. God, she was innocent. I wish I was the one hurt, not her. I would gladly take her place... this isn't fair. She was perfect to me. When I held her a wave of happiness came over me. Now I am grieving, all alone, because whoever murdered her won't just confess. All I can think about is giving her CPR... thinking that I could save her. Now I know that there was nothing I could have done... except protect her from our own family. I never would have thought this could happen. I don't know how to keep going anymore. I just want to hold her one more time.
Sleep well Katherine, I'll see you in heaven baby doll.
August 9, 2009 - October 9, 2009
I have 1 child & 1 angel baby & live in Hot Springs National Park, Arkansas
269 postsposted 29th Oct
That is so sad...I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers..I'm so sorry for your loss
quoteI have 3 kids & 1 angel baby & live in Ypsilanti, Michigan
18266 postsposted 29th Oct
awww im so sorry. i know its not the same but i recently lost my dad. and eventually the hurt does go away. right now all you need is support.♥
quoteI have 1 child & live in Saskatoon, Saskatchewan
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10441 postsposted 29th Oct
That is horrible. I am so incredibly sorry. My heart hurts for you.
quoteI have 1 child & 4 angel babies & live in Zurich, Switzerland
1159 postsposted 29th Oct
omg i have goosebumps...ill pray for you mama!
quoteI have 1 child & live in Spring, Texas
691 postsposted 29th Oct
Wow, Im so sorry you have to go through that. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Hope you find your answers.Stay strong.
quoteI have 1 child & live in Nebraska
9038 postsposted 29th Oct
i am so sorry for your loss mama i hope things get better for you very soon
quoteI have 1 child & live in Newark, New Jersey
4486 postsposted 29th Oct
This brought tears to my eyes Im so sorry you are going through this.. I hope whoever is at fault for her death comes forward. Was she acting any different when you layed her down for her nap? I hope you get your little boy back soon to. If you ever need to talk you can pm me, I haven't had a loss but my 2 nephews have been taken away.
quoteI have 2 kids & live in California
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13026 postsposted 29th Oct
Wow. I'm so sorry for your loss. That's horrible. If you want to talk in private we can talk through PM's or email. This is such a sad thing to happen to anyone.
quoteI'm TTC since February '09 & live in Beverly Hills, California
18627 postsposted 29th Oct
oh god mama. I am so sorry. If you ever need to talk feel free to PM me, or i can send you my number. You can call anytime day or night.
quoteI have 2 kids & live in North Dakota
7042 postsposted 29th Oct
I am so sorry mama...
quoteI'm due November 4th (a girl), have 1 child & 1 angel baby & live in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
14595 postsposted 29th Oct
Oh my gosh! I was just thinking about you yesterday. I am so sorry about little Katherine. You will be in my thoughts.
RIP baby girl.
quoteRIP baby girl.
