vent.....

ever since i've had my abortion i can't even be around children, or pregnant women without feeling a huge amount of guilt. my boyfriend was sitting in the floor playing with out friends son and i just ran out of the room crying.. i was so mad, like, "why couldn't he do that with OUR baby?!''
i have so much anger and regret about this whole situation... i hate myself for going through with it! why did i have to listen to everyone... why couldnt i have stood up for my baby?!

-please dont say that i should feel this way, or leave any rude comments.. please, i'm looking for support, not critism. (sp?)-

Quoting LynseyLoo:“ ever since i've had my abortion i can't even be around children, or pregnant women without feeling a ... [snip!] ... -please dont say that i should feel this way, or leave any rude comments.. please, i'm looking for support, not critism. (sp?)-”

I am very sorry hun, Time heals all wounds.

I'm so sorry you are going through this Hun I hope things get better for you.

Quoting LynseyLoo:“ ever since i've had my abortion i can't even be around children, or pregnant women without feeling a ... [snip!] ... -please dont say that i should feel this way, or leave any rude comments.. please, i'm looking for support, not critism. (sp?)-”

i felt the SAME exact way, it was almost a year ago and i STILL feel bad about it, my hubby is fine with us having this baby though and i DONT understand whyy last time he basically said i have no choice and he still cant tell me what the difference between this baby and that baby is.

Quoting nicole ♥:“ i felt the SAME exact way, it was almost a year ago and i STILL feel bad about it, my hubby is fine with ... [snip!] ... last time he basically said i have no choice and he still cant tell me what the difference between this baby and that baby is.”

exactly.... my bf's said if we ever get pregnant again that we'll keep it. but i said, "why couldnt we do that, the FIRST time?" he just says he had no idea how it would affect me, or him... but there's nothing we can do about it now.

I'm so sorry, you have to go through that.

Quoting LynseyLoo:“ exactly.... my bf's said if we ever get pregnant again that we'll keep it. but i said, "why couldnt ... [snip!] ... the FIRST time?" he just says he had no idea how it would affect me, or him... but there's nothing we can do about it now.”

thats exactly what mine said! its frustrating and he wont EVER understand how you feel because hes not the one that had to do it. this time myboyfriend, we JUSt got married so he was my bf til a month ago, tried telling me he didnt want it and basically told me i didnt have a choice this time and i told him if me keeping our baby meant he was gonna leave then he can leave because i wasnt gonna do it again and he gave in, which makes me wonder if i wouldve did that LAST time how things wouldve turned out.

Quoting nicole ♥:“ thats exactly what mine said! its frustrating and he wont EVER understand how you feel because hes not ... [snip!] ... i wasnt gonna do it again and he gave in, which makes me wonder if i wouldve did that LAST time how things wouldve turned out.”

i know what u mean. mine freaked out when i told him, saying things like "you know this will never work, we'll end breaking up.. etc." so i guess all that made me feel pressured into doing it.... his parents even offered to adopt him/her.. i know i should've done that, but i just felt the need to make him happy i guess. and he tells me to talk to him if i feel bad about it, and i do, then he says im being stupid because theres nothing i can do about it now. and i know that, but it still hurts.

Quoting LynseyLoo:“ i know what u mean. mine freaked out when i told him, saying things like "you know this will never work, ... [snip!] ... it, and i do, then he says im being stupid because theres nothing i can do about it now. and i know that, but it still hurts.”

well im always here to talk to if you need it, i know exactly what you went through so if you ever need any advice or you just need to vent you can talk to me

I suggest you get some counseling so you can speak with someone who will be unbiased about the situation. You did what you felt was right at the time. I hope you find peace with the choices you made.

thanks everyone for replying.. ur support means alot.