2 months 3weeks... venting!

Agh I don't know what it is lately but I've been so down on myself, I hate it.

First off my body is so disgusting. I miss my old body and I will never get it back. I am working so hard at getting my stomach to be a little bit flat. LOL but so far nothing!! I'm very shy with my body now and my boyfriend tells me that it's okay.. In my mind it is NOT OKAY! I get so damn mad when I see all these beautiful girls looking like they never had a baby, when they did! ERRR!

Second: I really want a job but I don't want to leave my baby with anyone!! I could use the extra money, of course, and I would be less stressed out but I can't find a damn job anywhere, and like I said I don't want anyone watching my precious cargo!
It's not that I don't love my daughter because she is my world but I can't help but think about my life before her. I always had money ...I had a great job and was in college DOING something with my life.
Don't take that in a different way and start judging me. Gianna is my world and I wouldn't want it any other way ...

Okay I'm done venting!
I'm sure I will feel better after a long night sleep.

PPD?

I know EXACTLY how you feel. it's very hard.

i understand where you commin from as far as the weight goes. i use to b a size one b4 my son now im a 9. but all you gotta do is try to work and accept the body that you do have now.trust me i hated my body cause i wasnt use to being this big. but just give it some time it'll will start to shed off just stay active and busy

I still feel disgusted with my body and I'm over 5 months PP, but I'm no where near as bad as the first few months. I literally would sit in my closet and cry because I couldn't find anything to wear that didn't accent my huge flabby gut. You might try the belly band I've heard they work really well, I plan on getting one soon. As for the missing your old life, I'm sure we've all done it a time or two it's nothing to be ashamed of. But you are doing something with your life it might not be school and work but you have a LO now that depends on you for EVERYTHING!!! Just keep you head up momma it does get better.

Quoting Princess Gianna's Mommy:“ Agh I don't know what it is lately but I've been so down on myself, I hate it. First off my body is ... [snip!] ... world and I wouldn't want it any other way ... Okay I'm done venting! I'm sure I will feel better after a long night sleep.”

Body image...give it some time. Remember, it took you 9 months to gain the weight, it's going to take time to get back in shape.

Money/work...any way you could get a part time seasonal job for hours when your SO isn't working? Then you'd have some extra spending cash and your DD would get to have some one on one time with daddy. DH and I work opposite shifts so our kids don't have to go to any kind of daycare or have sitters. It sucks sometimes, but it's what we've gotta do right now

Quoting Vadas Momma:“ PPD?”

who knows! i haven't been like this until yesterday.

Quoting jayshon's mommy:“ i understand where you commin from as far as the weight goes. i use to b a size one b4 my son now im ... [snip!] ... my body cause i wasnt use to being this big. but just give it some time it'll will start to shed off just stay active and busy”

I was a thick girl, nice ass, chubby belly but it wasn't anything to be hiding. I looked good. I didn't have a DOUBLE CHIN. Ahhhh. I wore a size 5-6 sometimes a 9 depending on the type of pants. I'm like a size 11. Never in my life have a wore a size so big and I'm so upset over it. I'm tryin to stay busy and active but when I'm so down on myself I don't want to do anything.
Never ending cycle.

I am some what in the same boat. i did not have a great job by any means before taegan came along but i had a job, i worked for whole foods and while on maternity leave they fired me because my 6 week med leave was up even though my son was almost 7 days late and ended up being born by c-section after 72hrs of on and off labor. so, now my partner(babby daddy) works 80+hrs a week to pick up the slack. i never have any time to myself especially because i am EBFB and so i just get depressed about it and want to find a job but am trying to wait until Taegan starts solids since it will be easier on him since he feeds on demand. also, i was never skinny minnie by any means but sheesh,i never had this gross belly. i just started running and doing ab exercises, take your baby for a jog with you. it's relaxing and exercise is good for the mind, hang in there mama.

Quoting Cadens Mommy:“ I still feel disgusted with my body and I'm over 5 months PP, but I'm no where near as bad as the first ... [snip!] ... be school and work but you have a LO now that depends on you for EVERYTHING!!! Just keep you head up momma it does get better.”

OMG I did the same. I had clothes coming out my ass lol. I had at least 35 jeans and didn't have to do laundry for 2 months if I didn't want to. I miss all my clothes, I actually kept some of my pants to keep me motivated to get back to the size so I can put them back on soon. My bf says he loves my body and I shouldn't be afraid to show it, but I can't help if I'M not comfortable with my body.
I love my daughter and being a mommy is the best job I could have. It's just making me crazy sitting here all day feeling like I'm not helping with the bills. I've always had a job to help out and now I'm a bum.