Does it ever get any easier?

I just have to get this off my chest before I go to bed.

Today I was posting pics of our kids at 3 months old. Their last weights were 7 lbs 11 oz and 8 lbs 4 oz (2 weeks ago). Everyone keeps telling me how big they are and I love hearing it. However, I still see them as they were in NICU, in the incubators, fighting for life. It's like yes I know they are big, but to me they are still my little fighters. I am happy with every gram and every ounce they gain. I just think it hasn't hit me yet that yes we are on the way towards normality. We just go forward from here. Maybe it's because they are still spelling, have monitors, and requiring intervention on our part? I just wish I could stop seeing them as preemies and just as babies. The ironic thing is I never looked at them as preemies in NICU. It has just been since we got home. In NICU I just looked at them as my children, only smaller. I just hate that now, after it's all said and done in NICU, I can't stop looking at them as preemie.

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=3337&id=100000342795228&l=1c07e81ca2

The twins pics from last night. Hopefully you guys can see them  

They're so cute =)

It definitely gets easier. I have 2 preemies and rarely does a day go by that I don't think of their humble beginnings, but its easier to think about because I see how healthy and happy and...alive they are. I know it's been a hard road, but appreciate the insight you have. You will always treasure something most mothers take for granted. It's a really special gift and I'm always very thankful for it.

In my honest opinion... Enjoy it.

I look at my sons photos from when he was in NICU and I can't remember any of it, 4 months he fought on and I can't really remember... He's 10 now and I can't connect him as that little baby that fought so hard to stay here with me. I feel terrible for it, like I take him for granted. I'd give anything to be able to connect him to that tiny life that was born way too early. It's like he didn't have a babyhood.

I'm sorry that you feel like that mama. I can promise you it will pass sooner rather than later.

Your babies are incredibly beautiful by the way.

Quoting LovingHappyHome:“ http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=3337&id=100000342795228&l=1c07e81ca2 The twins pics from last night. Hopefully you guys can see them  ”

my kid isnt even 3 months yet but weighs 12.5lbs. even though he wears 6 month clothes to me he looks skinny. his arms and legs dont have baby rolls on them. its just a matter of perception i guess.

Quoting J e s s i c a:“ They're so cute =) It definitely gets easier. I have 2 preemies and rarely does a day go by that I ... [snip!] ... will always treasure something most mothers take for granted. It's a really special gift and I'm always very thankful for it.”

Ty   And that's very true. I wasn't thinking like that. Just feeling guilty  

My son was 2 months premature...he's my avvie pic...he's now 7 months old and weighs 20.55lbs (!) but he's still my sicky baby to me and I'm entirely over protective even though there isn't a darn thing wrong with him anymore.

Quoting Kalith:“ In my honest opinion... Enjoy it. I look at my sons photos from when he was in NICU and I can't remember ... [snip!] ... feel like that mama. I can promise you it will pass sooner rather than later. Your babies are incredibly beautiful by the way.”

I will try to. Talking to you ladies does help the guilt go away. I felt like the fact that I was looking at them now as preemies was in a way undercutting their achievments. I suppose it is all just part of the process. And ty  

Quoting Angelica+Alfonso=Christia:“ my kid isnt even 3 months yet but weighs 12.5lbs. even though he wears 6 month clothes to me he looks skinny. his arms and legs dont have baby rolls on them. its just a matter of perception i guess.”

true

Quoting Kellye8498:“ My son was 2 months premature...he's my avvie pic...he's now 7 months old and weighs 20.55lbs (!) but ... [snip!] ... he's still my sicky baby to me and I'm entirely over protective even though there isn't a darn thing wrong with him anymore.”

God Bless! He is beautiful xoxoxoxoxo What was he eating the first 6 months, neosure???

Nope, good old fashioned breast milk   He just started formula last month. The boys in my hubbys family are all born big and stay that way....like giant ass football players, lol. Hoping we get a girl this time since I have 2 boys and a step son now!

Quoting Kellye8498:“ My son was 2 months premature...he's my avvie pic...he's now 7 months old and weighs 20.55lbs (!) but ... [snip!] ... he's still my sicky baby to me and I'm entirely over protective even though there isn't a darn thing wrong with him anymore.”

Impressive! My kids didn't hit 20 pounds until 12 months or later!

Quoting J e s s i c a:“ Impressive! My kids didn't hit 20 pounds until 12 months or later!”

Yeah, he's huge. He comes up to my midthigh at 7 months too. Dr said he's just tall and heavy and healthy and not to worry about a thing so we dont, haha

Quoting Kellye8498:“ Nope, good old fashioned breast milk   He just started formula last month. The boys in my hubbys family ... [snip!] ... stay that way....like giant ass football players, lol. Hoping we get a girl this time since I have 2 boys and a step son now!”

Wooohooooo!!!! Nice job mama       I wish I could of bf. My milk dried up before they were born because of my pprom my body thought I had already delivered long ago I was told   That's a great way for a boy to be   *Grl Dust* to you. I just finally got my first daughter after trying for 12 years. I know how it goes, lol  

Quoting Kellye8498:“ Yeah, he's huge. He comes up to my midthigh at 7 months too. Dr said he's just tall and heavy and healthy and not to worry about a thing so we dont, haha”

Damn. You better watch out. They start scouting them for sports younger and younger every year. They may be camping on your lawn by his first b-day