Fuck off Hormones!

Ugh! My hormones are driving me nuts today.. I can look at Lydia and be smiling and the next second I'm bawling my eyes out! Same with the whole Jack and divorce thing.. I can feel so okay with it, and then in the next breath I'm crying so hard I throw up.. Sometimes I wonder if I'm going to make it, without him.. With two new babies, hopefully arriving in February, and a fourteen month old... It's a scary thought.. Not only will I be extremely busy with the twins but Lydia will still be going through chemotherapy.. To be honest with you, bringing these two new babies into our world, scares the hell out of me sometimes... I wonder sometimes how things got to be the way they are.. Why my life? Why my daughter? Those are horrible things, because I know God only gives us as much as we can handle, but does he not realize that I'm not super women? I don't have all the answer, and I sometimes wonder how Jack got off so easy!!! I mean he could just walk away from it all.. He doesn't have to deal with the pregnancy, Lydia, and the arrival of our twins.. To tell you the truth he doesn't even have to pay child support for the twins, or hold any responsibility for them, their technically not his... I'm hoping my attorney can fight that, but Jack's attorney doesn't think it's fair to him,.. He told the judge that he didn't want anymore kids, much less the one he has now.. Wow! How fucking horrible, and how fucking wrong.. When I think of things like that, it makes me realize that we don't belong together.. And then other times I look at pictures of when Lydia was first born and how much he loved her, and I just don't understand how that changed..

Sorry this is such a jumbled mess.. FUCK MY HORMONES!!!

Sincerly,
Bridget!

Quoting Bridget&Lydia [GDS]:“ Ugh! My hormones are driving me nuts today.. I can look at Lydia and be smiling and the next second I'm ... [snip!] ... and I just don't understand how that changed.. Sorry this is such a jumbled mess.. FUCK MY HORMONES!!! Sincerly, Bridget!”

 
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congrats
It will all work out mama

Quoting I'll Never Tell:“   twins congrats It will all work out mama”

I hope your right!

And thank you!

you are going through an extremely stressful time right now. do you belong to a church? if so, i would seek help there. there are always retired grandmas that would be willing to help out and give you a break once in a while when the twins get here.

Quoting I'll Never Tell:“   twins congrats It will all work out mama”

why are you posting under the secret account outside of the secret thread?

aww i hope it gets better mamma!!

Lots of people are here to support you Bridget, and it sounds like you have awesome support from your family as well. There is always someone here to listen! I know your going through a lot right now, but it will get better!
Hang in there and stay strong <3

Aw.. I'm having twins too mama.. I'm sorry your going though so much stress when It should be so exciting. It will get better.. Just take It a day at a time. I wish you all the kisses and hugs mama.

Even though you may not have what you had thought you would have a year ago (merely a few months ago) you have a lot more too. A year ago I am sure you weren't always positive Lydia would be here today. I'm sure you thought that you wouldn't be the mother-to-be of twins. I'm sure you never even imagined the support you could receive from the people online and family.
Jack doesn't deserve any one of you. You deserve Lydia and those twins and that is why you have them. Jack will eventually be sitting there one day and wondering why he doesn't have it all. You have come so far.
He might feel the way he does because it is overwhelming and it is easier for him to run away from the troubles than it is for you. He might feel like it isn't his problem because they aren't his biological kids. But he will only end up missing the puzzle pieces because you, Lydia, BG, him, and God all know that they are his children. You don't need genetics to be someone's real parents.
You will get through it. God has given you three beautiful miracles and then some!

You have all of our support and if you ever need anything some of us are just a few (turn on the computer, click internet button, type in baby-gaga.com, login, forum, post, type, post..etc.) clicks away or phone call away.

<3 Jaki

Quoting Bridget&Lydia [GDS]:“ Ugh! My hormones are driving me nuts today.. I can look at Lydia and be smiling and the next second I'm ... [snip!] ... and I just don't understand how that changed.. Sorry this is such a jumbled mess.. FUCK MY HORMONES!!! Sincerly, Bridget!”

Wait, how does that work? How are they not his? He can't cop out and say "I didn't want them, so I shouldn't have to pay"...THATS BULLSHIT!

Quoting Mrs. Desnoyers [HBC]:“ Wait, how does that work? How are they not his? He can't cop out and say "I didn't want them, so I shouldn't have to pay"...THATS BULLSHIT!”

He can't have kids of his own so they used a donor (sp?). With lydia AND the twins. Anway OP I'm sorry mama I hope things get better soon!

Quoting Mrs. Leahy:“ He can't have kids of his own so they used a donor (sp?). With lydia AND the twins. Anway OP I'm sorry mama I hope things get better soon!”

Oooh! Okay, well Bridget, he's a douche...

If he didn't want them why didn't he say that at the time? I seriously doubt the OP went ahead and did it without his knowledge....ridiculous, he needs a punch in the teeth.

I am sorry Bridget, you need to stay strong Mama, for that little princess of yours and the wee ones in your belly.

Is there not some sort of law that states due to the agreement to have these children that he is legally a parent, regardless of the fact that their DNA isn't the same?

Just curious how did the surprise at the dinner work out>>>>when you where going to tell everyone that you were having twins.

Did you and your EX have to sign some paperwork at the doctors before the implantation (sperm donation) - get a copy of that and have your lawyer address that!! Were you married to him, and for how long?