I'm so sorry!

It’s been a really, really long time… I’m sorry, and I’m not even sure where to begin… Life has been so crazy, busy, and nuts!
Let me first of all start off by saying, I’m healthy, the twins are healthy, and Lydia is doing great!
Okay now that, that was said, Lydia is still doing chemotherapy and she is being a real tropper! I’ve never been so proud of anyone in my entire life! She is so amazing, beautiful, strong, and even when she’s sad, hurt, or anything else she still will smile at her mama. The doctors are hoping within 6 months we can have her in remission, like I said she’s doing great! She weighs a whopping 16lbs 11oz last time we were in (2 weeks ago). Lydia crawls be herself, and stands on furniture all the time! The other day she let go and even took a step! What a proud moment that was for me, as a parent.. I never, to be honest with you, thought I would see the day that would happen, now I’m really looking forward to her running! She babbles a lot, says mama all the time, and can also squeeze out a papa for her grandpa.. Other then that just a lot of baby mumble jumble.. But I love it! Lydia’s now sleeping through the night, and is a complete formula fed baby (I just couldn’t keep up and was advised by my doctor to stop). Awww we had a good six months of breastfeeding, I guess I can’t complain, although she really did when we stopped! Other then that, Lydia’s been going with the bald look, and I’m loving it! Before that her hair was strawberry blonde, and then turned brownish, she still has some hair but it’s so thing! Her eyes are very blue and her smile is just to die for! Lydia has finally started teething, and oh what a joy that has been! Constantly chewing on everything!!!!! But still no sign of a tooth : ( I could go on forever talking about my precious Lydia, but I better not, I have so many more things to tell everyone!
Well, as for Jack and I… We are in the process of finishing our divorce.. He has not seen Lydia for the past month and a half, and yes this was his own wishes. My brother has moved in with Lydia and I.. So Lydia has a full time playmate now, Braxton.. We are loving it! Levi has been such a support through out this whole thing, not to mention my whole family has! I’m not working at the moment but I do receive spousal support from Jack.. THANK GOD FOR THAT!
Oh and really quick before I forget to say anything, Congratulations to all you mama’s on my friends who have had babies! And I checked out some of the new pictures of the once little whipper snappers, and oh my, are they all getting so big and so beautiful/handsome! Oh and a congrats to all you who are now expecting!
I’m sorry I feel like I’m rambling, I guess there’s just so much to tell and not enough room to write it all!
Ahhhh… Blank moment sorry, I gotta think where I wanna go next with this…
Awwww, a beautiful thought, my twins!!!!!
22 weeks and going strong, all is looking well and the babies are looking wonderful! Growing right and just have strong heartbeats! I found out the sexes and I’m just dying to tell! But.. I think I will keep you all in suspense for a little while… Pregnancy has been going good so far, I finally got my first stretchy’s a few weeks ago, none with Lydia and now I have a beautiful pattern on my stomach, I could have done without them! Haha! I’ve gained an enormous, 26lbs, and I feel like a hippo most days.. I’m finding it harder and harder to shave my legs, and ya know ladies, man legs are not all that in!
Goodness I’m half asleep and I’m not sure what to write!
Well how about the sex of the babies? Hmmm would anyone like to know? Hehe,,
They are::
A boy and a girl!!!!
Twin A was a girl
And
Twin B was a boy

I’m more then thrilled, when we went in for our last ultrasound, 22 weeks exactly, they weighed almost a pound each!

I’m not sure what else to write, my mind is just going a hundred and ten saying sleep, sleep, sleep!

I’m sorry if I worried anyone… I’ve been thinking of you all often, and I’m back, and will be back for a long time!
Pictures anyone? Picture overload I'm sure!

Can you beleive she went from this:



To this: 9 months!

my sweetie!

Look how thin her hair is, but she's still oh so beautiful!

I like to keep hats on her, more girly and her hair sometimes comes out in clumps so she gets big bald patches, still so gorgous!

Crawling, well kinda! Big lady!

Beautiful baby!

Looking so lady like!

She looks so big here!

She is a major nukkie baby!

Micah, and Lydia

... Lydia was in her first wedding, with cousin Braxton, our cousins got married!

Lydia and Auntie B

And again...

My sisters, Autnie B & N... Lydia and can you believe that's Braxton?!?!? He's such a big boy!

Checking out the place!

So pretty!

Auntie N and Lydia and Braxton!!! Such beautiful babies!

Burrr it's getting colder!

Yummy, she loves eating!

After bath time!

Oh and one tummy picture, 20 weeks:



Thank you all for reading and looking!

Miss you all!

Bridget, Lydia, and my twins!

(Oh and I haven't picked names out yet, but I have defiantly found a few I love)

your due on my birthday and she is beautiful

Your daughter is beautiful and hope she's 100% well again soon! And Congrats on your twins!

yay! congrats on the boy & girl!
lydia looks amazing! shes soo cute!



btw, your due two days after aidens first bday!  
lol.

Quoting Home Skillet's Madre |WT|:“ yay! congrats on the boy & girl! lydia looks amazing! shes soo cute! btw, your due two days after aidens first bday!   lol.”

Thank you I'm so thrilled about the twins! And thank you about Lydia.. I thought she looked wonderful, considering everything! And aww maybe they'll come two days early and they can share a birthday ;) haha! Acutally they wanna induce me at 36 weeks.

Okay so ive read your story a couple of times and i always forget to comment,lol but you are such a strong woman for everything you've gone and going through, good luck with everything and i will keep you in my thoughts and prayers 

Quoting Bridget&Lydia [GDS]:“ Thank you I'm so thrilled about the twins! And thank you about Lydia.. I thought she looked wonderful, ... [snip!] ... And aww maybe they'll come two days early and they can share a birthday ;) haha! Acutally they wanna induce me at 36 weeks.”

have any names picked out?   
and lydia is sooo cute!
i love the pics of her in the grass.
and lol, that would be cool..
and how come?
id let the babies stay in as long as possible.. but thats just me.

Quoting [I Love My Boobie Monster:“ Okay so ive read your story a couple of times and i always forget to comment,lol but you are such a strong ... [snip!] ... woman for everything you've gone and going through, good luck with everything and i will keep you in my thoughts and prayers ”

Lol, I think I'm a post whore when I'm on.. And thank you.. To be honest I never thought I would make it through something like this.. How many times I thought I needed Jack, and then after I got through it, and well am still gettin through it, I realized, It is not what I been through that defines me, it's how I got through it, and without God, I wouldn't have! I have him to thank for my strength, and my family!   I just hope Lydia and my other two take after me, strong, and independent and know they don't need someone by their side to achieve great things in life! Sorry again blah blah blah

But thank you!

Quoting Home Skillet's Madre |WT|:“ have any names picked out?    and lydia is sooo cute! i love the pics of her in the grass. ... [snip!] ... grass. and lol, that would be cool.. and how come? id let the babies stay in as long as possible.. but thats just me. ”

Haha, as for names, I found a few I just love! I'm going to post a baby name poll for the twins, I'll link it to you when I do, I'm trying to do it right now, but I gotta get everything together haha, I have the names written all over on papers in a notebook.

And thank you, Lydia is just such a dolly!

As for the babies, my doctors thinking was, with my two pre-term labors before ths one, it would just be best if we induced early to prevent something "not so good" from happening... I don't know! I wanted to carry as long as possible but I think the doctor may be right, well pretty sure haha!

Quoting Bridget&Lydia [GDS]:“ Haha, as for names, I found a few I just love! I'm going to post a baby name poll for the twins, I'll ... [snip!] ... happening... I don't know! I wanted to carry as long as possible but I think the doctor may be right, well pretty sure haha!”

haha ok.  
ill check it on my cell cuz i gotta get to bed now..


and she is.  

and ohh i see. yeah i understand that..
its all up to the babies! lol.

Quoting Bridget&Lydia [GDS]:“ Lol, I think I'm a post whore when I'm on.. And thank you.. To be honest I never thought I would make ... [snip!] ... and know they don't need someone by their side to achieve great things in life! Sorry again blah blah blah But thank you!”

Your very welcome 

oh mama i have been wondering about you! I have been praying for you and lydia both daily and have you on my churches constant prayer list. I am so happy that she and you are doing so well  

Thank you so much for the update! Lydia is BEAUTIFUL And you look fabulous!!! A boy and a girl, that is SO EXCITING!!!

lydia is SO gorgeous!! she really looks like you  
congrats on the twins and the sexes, that's exciting!!

So happy to see this wonderful update!!!

Lydia looks so beautiful   I would never be able to tell from her rosy smile that she is going through chemo, what an amazing trooper she is. God's littlest warriors, what strength and heart they have.

Congrats on making it to 22 weeks with the twins! Hoping you make it another 10 weeks at least.