any NICU mommies going through the same thing????

Hello, I gave birth on October 8th, and I am so miserable. I haven't even held my baby yet and I I am so depressed and lost. He was diagnosed with polmunary hypertension. Which means he can't get enough oxygen to his lungs. I never drank nor smoke, he was full term, and I took my vitamins. I did everything right and now he is in NICU until he gets better. He is stable but critical. I am torn up inside I ahd a c-section so I never even got to touch that precious boy. If anyone else ahs gone through what I am please send words of encouragement. My heart is broken and I need some support. My family has been there but they aren't me and that isn't their baby it is a lot differnet. Thanks

When my daughter was born the doctors told me she was going to die before her 1st birthday... they diagnosed her wrong, but I do know what your going through. The only thing that helped me get through it, was to dig deep inside myself and get some hope and to remember that everything is going to be ok. You will get to hold your baby soon enough, and it will be wonderful.
I am so sorry to hear what your going through, it will get better, just find it within yourself.

All I know is when my son was taken to go under the billi lights, a day after birth, I was HYSTERICAL that I couldn't hold him & nurse him. I can barely feel your pain, momma. good luck, I wish you the best & only good from here on out.

I did everything right with my DD too and she was born with her bladder outside her body and has seizures. Spent 5 weeks in the NICU, was home for 10 days and then spent another week in the hospital (and the hospital and NICU were 2 hours from where I live). NICU time feels twice as long as "regular" time, trust me. Will the nurses at least let you stroke his arm or leg to let him know you're there? I' m sorry you're having to go thru this   Feel free to come chat in our GDS thead, there are a lot of supportive mommas in there who have gone thru a lot with their LOs
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Quoting opalmommy:“ Hello, I gave birth on October 8th, and I am so miserable. I haven't even held my baby yet and I I am ... [snip!] ... and I need some support. My family has been there but they aren't me and that isn't their baby it is a lot differnet. Thanks”

my daughter was born at 31wks but it was a similar situation. I had an emergency csection and when they delivered her all i seen was a brief glimpse over the curtain and they rushed her out of the room. We had to wait a wk to hold her cuz she was unstable. The most important thing is to be strong mama and dont blame yourself. I blamed myself for a long time and that made things worse. Just stay strong!!

My situation was a little different, I had my son at 28 weeks. I didnt get to hold him for weeks after he was born. I got to see him once right after birth right before they took him into the nicu...he was already in the incubator. I got to go see him 3 days after I had him and got to touch him a little, but it broke my heart seeing him hooked up to all the tubes and such. He also had to have surgery on his heart and hernia surgery, it was so scary. It was really hard to go through but we made it through and hes home with us and everything is perfect now...I wish the same for you.

thank you all so much fior the kind words.. I can't really even touch him or hold his hand he is paralyzed by meds to keep him comfy but can have no stimulation even though he is under. I think that is what makes it the hardest ause i feel like he doesn't know I am there for him even though I am. I just know I would never even wish what I am going through on my worst enemy, and does it get better?