Just thinking......

& missing my little brother so much. He died at age 10, just 1 month & 1 day (2 days after Christmas) after my daughter was born. He was so proud to be an uncle for the 2nd time and have a niece. The closer I get to my scheduled c-section date, I feel sad somewhat, because Michael wont be here to see Olivia. Im very thankful that he was still alive when Elizabeth was born. I just miss him SO MUCH!!!! He died in his sleep, of heart failure, we had no idea that his heart was that bad, the scar tissue from a surgery he had (he was born w/ 4 holes in his heart..3 were fixed & 1 was patched up when he was 3 months old) built up over time and just stopped his heart. The last time I saw him was Christmas night. I never got any pictures taken w/ him at all last year...not when I had my daughter, or at Christmas time. Theres so many regrets. But I know hed want me to be happy & not sad. I know hes watching over my family & I.




This holiday season isnt going to be all that happy either. Right before Christmas 2007 we found out the baby I was pregnant with had died 6 weeks before and I had no idea, no symptoms, nothing. The baby was only 6 weeks when it died, and I didnt miscarry it til I was suppose to be around 16 weeks pregnant. It was dead inside of me for 2 months, I didnt have insurance so the dr wanted me to miscarry naturally.

I'm so sorry for your lose mama.
i know its hard.. but try to keep your head up.

Im sorry momma  

I'm so sorry for your loss mama..just know that he will be watchin over you and your family and he would want you guys to be happy..may he rest in peace..

I am sooo sorry for your loss mama you will be in my prayers.

Thank you!! Its just hard to not think about him...every day I do....I miss him so much