My baby boy....

I gave brith to my son Zachary Melvin Higgins on August 20th 2009. I was only 20 weeks and 4 days pregnant.As of right now no one can tell me why it happend. He was born alive and lived for 2 mintues. He was our first. I just wish I knew what happend to make him come so early. On tuesday August 18th I was having some bloody discharge ( I had spotting and really bad spotting early in pregnancy and it was nothing he was fine.) and light cramps. So I called the doctor. My doctor was not there, bu tthe on call doctor told me to lay down and drink lots of water and if it gets worse to call again. I did what I was told, but about 12 the cramping was a little worse and the discharge the same. So I called again. The on call doctor nurse said she should talk to the doctor and that I should conitue doing what I was told before and that she would get back to me. Well about 2pm came around and I heard back from the nurse. At that time I thought everything was good. It all had stopped. So I ran some errens with my hussband. I was still feeling like I had to pee really really bad, but no dicharge. Later that night once we got home I was feeling crampy again and went to the bathroom and noticed some more discharge. We went to the hospital. Once I was up the L&D they did a ultrasound. Zach's heartbeat was strong and he looked good. They did see that I was dialated about 3 cm. I was told I could not get out of bed and had to stay there all night. Well about 6:30 in the morning Wed Aug 19th my water broke. I didn't even need a doctor to tell me that I would have to have my baby and I couldn't take him home. So Thrusday about 2:32 Zachary was born. He was 10 oz and 10 inches. He looked just prefect. I just wanted to wake him up ,but I knew he was not going to wake up. Everyone at the hospital was so nice. They let us hold him and love him the rest of the day and all day friday till about 5pm.
Leaving him there and us going home without him was the hardest day of my life. I would give anything just to hold him and tell him how much I loved him.
Looking back I wonder if there was anything I could have done differnet. I know there isn't ,but I still feel that way.
last week my doctor called and told me they found an infection in the placenta, but they can't say for sure if that is what cause it.
Thank you for reading. Here are few pictures of my baby boy.




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I am very sorry for your loss

Quoting Sexy_Mexie:“ I gave brith to my son Zachary Melvin Higgins on August 20th 2009. I was only 20 weeks and 4 days pregnant.As ... [snip!] ... they can't say for sure if that is what cause it. Thank you for reading. Here are few pictures of my baby boy. " />”

I am so sorry for your loss.

You and your family will be in my thoughts.

I'm so sorry  

I'm so sorry for your loss 

What a beautiful baby boy. I am so sorry you are going through this. Your family is in my prayers.

I'm so very sorry for your loss he is beautiful

I know how painful that is... my heart goes out to you.. he is perfect!!
I'm very sorry for your loss mama!

He is just beautiful and just as you said looks perfect. I am so sorry for your loss!

I'm so so so sorry  

I'm so sorry   you and your family are in my prayers!

I am so sorry {{hugs}}

I am so sorry for your loss.. I also gave birth to my daughter stillborn the day after you did.


PM me because I'm sure we're both going through the same feelings right now   so sorry.

Thank you so much for all your well wishes. We are doing ok. As most of your know some days are better then others. Thanks again.