i actually made a post about my secret... here it is tho ill link as well
ok so i have 3 step kids and children of my own...
i love my step kids but i love them differently than i love my own...i have tried to love them the same and i cant its a different love.
ive been with these kids for 7 yrs. their own mother left them 11 yrs ago. but she came back to our town last summer and messed them up essentially they turned on me and treat me like smurf.
i know they are going thru a lot but i just think by me sticking around it is ruining my children..the older kids fight and yell at the younger ones...
my oldest step child actually got into drugs this past year and started running away he is now in treatment but was previously in foster care since november.
my Dh is out of state doing work training and wont be back for 9-12weeks...i dont think i can stay here with the kids the way they treat me..they have NO respect for me and treat me as if i am a sister ...
at one point i was called a pitiful piece of crap and a smurfing thief by the 11yr old.
i am more aggravated by them. and feel vengeful towards them. they dont try to work with me in anything ..its always NO im not doing that or a screaming match between whatever kid it is and myself. i cant take this anymore.
I LOVE my dh but i cant take the kids anymore. i feel like a POS if i were to leave them like their bio did but i am so stressed with these kids.i dont want to be around them anymore. its that bad..and i dont know how to change this..i try to respect them and their feelings but it seems like whatever i do they have something negative to say or do.
i cant discipline them in anyway they threaten me with "im calling the cops if you do"
or they take my stuff. (the oldest was in troouble last summer so i took the tv out of his room along with the computer. he then went and took my computer and hid it from me until i gave his stuff back. )
WHAT SHOULD I DO? am i wrong in feeling this way towards them ? how can i make things better?
should i pack up and leave?
i really do love my DH and my kids deserve their father. its not their fault the older kids are acting out.
and yes counseling for them has been discussed.
i am so alone ...my DH family thinks i hate the kids and i dont i really dont i love them i just cant stand how they act. everyone gives me the "oh you treat your kids so much better than the other kids"
SICK OF HEARING THAT!!!!!!
any help would be awesome any advice
thanks for reading...sorry it was so long