re: Wanna know a secret?

Secret: I hope every day that you get into a terrible life taking car accident.

^^^ thats sad  

^^^ I know. It's really sad. But I can't fucking stand her, and she's just using my dad, and then she makes my life hell.

im sorry :[
ive been in a fatal car accident & its hell id never wish it upon someone
have you tried talking to her?

Quoting paige [OHT & TKB]:“ im sorry :[ ive been in a fatal car accident & its hell id never wish it upon someone have you tried talking to her?”

I don't want her to survive it. I would never want someone to have to live after something like that   (jeez, it gets more fucked up by the minute)

I've tried. She has this, complex, I don't know what you'd call it. She's always way too drunk, she always makes it out like herr life is OH SO TERRIBLE, when really she has it quite good since she's gotten with my father. Also, she hates females. She gets jealous of me whenever I TALK to my own father, she hates her daughter, every female. I just don't get it.

I try so hard to be nice to her. I try so hard to show her that I'm here and that I don't hate her. But I do hate her, because of how she's treated me.

Quoting baileyxo [bgfm]:“ I don't want her to survive it. I would never want someone to have to live after something like that ... [snip!] ... to her. I try so hard to show her that I'm here and that I don't hate her. But I do hate her, because of how she's treated me.”

aww thats is so so sosad
i hope yall can maybework through your differences one day

Quoting paige [OHT & TKB]:“ aww thats is so so sosad i hope yall can maybework through your differences one day”

Me too. I don't like hating people.

I'M DEATHLY AFRAID OF STUFF IN MY SHOES!! EVER SINCE I WAS 9 AND SAW ARACHNAPHOBIA I'VE HAD TO TAP OUT MY SHOES BEFORE I PUT THEM ON EVEN IF I JUST TOOK THEM OFF 2 MINS BEFORE   I'm sooooo embarrassed of this!   

Quoting BoogasMilkTap(BASM):“ I'M DEATHLY AFRAID OF STUFF IN MY SHOES!! EVER SINCE I WAS 9 AND SAW ARACHNAPHOBIA I'VE HAD TO TAP OUT ... [snip!] ... MY SHOES BEFORE I PUT THEM ON EVEN IF I JUST TOOK THEM OFF 2 MINS BEFORE   I'm sooooo embarrassed of this!   ”

oiy i hate spiders

Im so sick of being unhappy. Im tired of saying how much i love my husband, when the truth is I cant stand him. I know people dont want to hear it, so I lie. I dont love him anymore, I barely like him. I have very little respect for him, and I feel stuck. I dream of being with other men. I secretly wish he would have an affair so I could leave him and not feel guilty.

Quoting Belle'sMommaEBFB:“ Im so sick of being unhappy. Im tired of saying how much i love my husband, when the truth is I cant ... [snip!] ... feel stuck. I dream of being with other men. I secretly wish he would have an affair so I could leave him and not feel guilty.”

shouldnt feel guilty anyway..... chosing your happiness is your JOB in life!! I felt like i was being really selfish when i left my exhusband, then one day, i woke up and realized selfish isnt as bad as it sounds.... why should i subject myself to being miserable so that i dont look selfish? id rather people who i DONT care about judge me as selfish, and be happy....

Quoting Addisons Momma!:“ shouldnt feel guilty anyway..... chosing your happiness is your JOB in life!! I felt like i was being ... [snip!] ... to being miserable so that i dont look selfish? id rather people who i DONT care about judge me as selfish, and be happy....”

thanks, thats a very good point.

Quoting Belle'sMommaEBFB:“ thanks, thats a very good point.”

its amazingly freeing to chose it!! i also firmly believe you should try to have the relationship you would want to see your child in.... so if you dont want to see Bella in the situation that youre in, than dont have her watch you do it for years. She will learn from you, what relationships are supposed to be. Dont teach her to chose to be unhappy  

Besides, youre totally too beautiful for that crap!!  

Secret: I feel like everyone is against me. Even my own family. I feel alone. All I have is my daughter. I've thought about running away. Starting new. Just leaving my life behind and starting all over.

Quoting Addisons Momma!:“ its amazingly freeing to chose it!! i also firmly believe you should try to have the relationship you ... [snip!] ... are supposed to be. Dont teach her to chose to be unhappy   Besides, youre totally too beautiful for that crap!!  ”

thanks! its true that i shouldnt show her a miserable relationship.