July 4, 2009.

Baby Brooklynn,

You would be 4 months old today. .I wonder what kinds of things you would be doing. I wonder if you would smile when you saw daddy and I. I wonder if you would be rolling over. I bet you would have an attitude just like me, even at 4 months old. If you were still here, I would have picked out a cute red, white, and blue outfit for you for 4th of July and your 4 month "birthday". .I would have put a big bow in your hair, one so big that it took up your whole head. We would have watched the fireworks with all of our family, but instead, I'll probably just stay in bed all day. .Crying nonstop thinking about how things would be if we didn't take you off life support. I wonder if you would have gotten better. I don't know if I did the right thing or not but I do know that your in a better place. I hope you watch over me everyday and keep me safe. I hope your keeping daddy strong while he's away, He really needs it. We miss you more then words can say.
Goodbye for now but not forever because one day again I'll see you in heaven.

oh,   poor momma

I am so sorry for your loss.

I am so sorry for your loss...I can't even imagine what is you go through on a daily basis

I'm so sorry. That has to be the hardest thing to go through.  

I'm so sorry for your loss. That just brought tears to my eyes  

Thank you ladies.

Beautiful letter. My heart is with you mama. I am so sorry.

I'm so sorry mama. *hugs* I wish I could say some magic word to take your pain away.   But there's not one.  

Birth/Death Anniversaries are always the hardest for me as well...
Its a day where I do nothing at all except look at pictures of my angel, lay in bed and cry.

I just read your story about her. She is the most beautiful little girl.
You area strong woman to share about your loss.
Do you mind me asking why they didnt section you earlier? Did they only realize about the abruption when you went in at 37 weeks?

Quoting trueiscrazy *BCF*:“ I just read your story about her. She is the most beautiful little girl. You area strong woman to share ... [snip!] ... you mind me asking why they didnt section you earlier? Did they only realize about the abruption when you went in at 37 weeks?”

I had an appt with my doctor at 35 weeks and then I had another appt for the 4th at 2:00 pm but I never made it to that appt because I went to the hospital. .it happend sometime between my 35 and 37 week appt. I know exactly when it happend, I was at work 4 days before I had her and I had a sharp pain in my stomach but it went away after about 30 seconds so I didn't think anything of it. I knew I should have gone to the hospital that night after work  

Quoting MarchBaby:“ I had an appt with my doctor at 35 weeks and then I had another appt for the 4th at 2:00 pm but I never ... [snip!] ... after about 30 seconds so I didn't think anything of it. I knew I should have gone to the hospital that night after work  ”

 
you didn't know. hell, there are so many weird things going on when you're pregnant. and especially in the end when they are big just their movement can hurt. don't blame yourself. time will heal your pain. but she will live on in you forever.

It kills me to think about what you're going through.

i cannot express how much i admire you for staying strong, and even being able to get out of bed in the morning.

Quoting Kristin&&Ava:“ It kills me to think about what you're going through. i cannot express how much i admire you for staying strong, and even being able to get out of bed in the morning.”

Thank you. I'm pretty numb to everything though, It's the only way I make it through my days.