re: Today.

Quoting MarchBaby:“ I don't even know who's life I'm living because it sure as hell does not feel like it's mine. .I don't know who I am anymore.”

I can completely tell you, that I agree.

I just read your story, and I'm in tears   

I can't tell you how sorry I am....my daughter just turned 5 months old, and every single day, I worry about something happening. 

My mom lost her 1st child...born before me, and it stuck with her for the rest of her life. I don't think you ever really "get over it", you just learn to manage the pain. 

My heart goes out to you and your family.

I am so very sorry for your loss. I know you hear that all of the time and it doesn't change anything, but my heart goes out to you. I hope that one day you are able to find peace with this. I have no idea how you are feeling, so I won't set here and say it will get better. I just hope for you that it will.

He is such a beautiful baby boy! I'm sure he's watching over you. *hugs*

I was so stunned when I came across your post saying that your son passed away. None of us can shed tears comparable to the ones you have over the loss of your son, none of us can feel our heart ache the way that yours is. 

Even saying  "sorry" seems so trivial over such a monumental loss. No apology will restore your life as it was or heal your pain. There is nothing to explain this terrible loss and no one to blame for it. 

Quoting I ♥ Hunter:“ Same here. I feel angry all the time. I work with people in my face on a daily basis. And I dont want ... [snip!] ... it is for me and other moms like me who have had to go through this... I wouldnt wish this feeling on my worst enemy... ”

ditto. I work for a Doctor, so I see patients face to face on a daily basis, and many knew I was pregnant and were following my pregnancy with each visit...So, I am now 8 weeks out from my stillbirth and still having people ask how my baby is, and if I have had her yet. ..No one deserves this.