Major major major VENT!

I dont even know where to start right now Im soo pissed off. so today I was having a relitivly good day until the girl im living with says to me i dont know what your going to do... and i said about what and she said about july *because thats when her husband comes back from cruise and Im moving out* and I said I dont want tot alk about it right now and Im not even going to think about it. it stresses me out too damn bad. and she was like it's reality.. you need to find a job, but your too busy sitting on face book and myspace all the time.. *DUDE I WAS TOTALLY 1 TAKING A BREAK AND FEEDING MY DAUGHTER AT THE TIME!* and i wa slike LOOK yea its reality but it's also reality that i just had my first child 9 months ago, im trying to get another job, and the economy sucks.. oh and to top it off I HAVE NO CAR!!! so i got pissed went out lit a cigarette and she came out lit a cigarette and was like look im not trying to piss you off but it is what it is.. and i said Im fucking frustrated. and thats the end of it and she wa slike dont curse at me and i saidi curse when i'm frustrated it's just how i am... respect it. im not curse ing at you im cursing ta the situation. so i go in and i get a call from my old boss and i get my old job back.. woo ho 1 good moment of the day. and so like 5 minutes ago she texts me while i was on the phone with my insurance com pany becaue they wouldnt cover my perscription which i need ASAP and says you should really clean your room while your waiting for brian. i thought to myself dude stop fucking telling me what to fucking do your not my fucking mother. seriously shut the fuck up.... but i didnt say that and i was like well im taking care of some stuff first then if i get toit great if not i'll clean it when i get back. i mean seriously who has time to clean their room when a 9 month old messes it up constantly, and im always running from appointment to appointment and trying to make ends meet here. AHHH! i just fucking hatem my life right now.


IM SORRY BUT I am a person who actually HAS to work for mine and my daughtersfood and clothes. what does she do.... be a STHM*which there is nothing wrong with that but* who has a SO in the military who makes good money so she doesnt have to work...

Im sorry but I love my S.O. but right now he has to get whats on his plate off his plate before he can do that assuming they will accept him. Im really tired of talking about this one stupid issue i know what the fuck i need to do, and when by. I dotn need people constantly buggin the fuck out of me about it. just because I choose to be care free about my stresses and worries, doesnt mean Im sitting on my ass eating bon bons.

Quoting Jersey+Ana .:FGG:.:“ I dont even know where to start right now Im soo pissed off. so today I was having a relitivly good day ... [snip!] ... it. just because I choose to be care free about my stresses and worries, doesnt mean Im sitting on my ass eating bon bons.”

Ahhh, gotta love roommates. We all get them, whether it's in college or just during life. At least you'll have fun stories to tell later  

Quoting Lu-Lu:“ Ahhh, gotta love roommates. We all get them, whether it's in college or just during life. At least you'll have fun stories to tell later  ”

yeah nightmare fun stories.. and it just really pisses me off. and people always ask me why I drink so damn much. this is why.

oh AND on top of that when i went to the pahrmacy to go pick up my perscription for birthcontrol my insurance didnt cover it. so it was either call my OB or pay $72 of money that I DONT have.

Quoting Jersey+Ana .:FGG:.:“ oh AND on top of that when i went to the pahrmacy to go pick up my perscription for birthcontrol my insurance didnt cover it. so it was either call my OB or pay $72 of money that I DONT have.”

Some day you will look back on this time in your life and just shake your head. And when your kids go through stuff like this, you'll know that they will be just fine. You'll get through this--one step at a time.

Quoting Lu-Lu:“ Some day you will look back on this time in your life and just shake your head. And when your kids go ... [snip!] ... your kids go through stuff like this, you'll know that they will be just fine. You'll get through this--one step at a time.”

yeah i hope. because if july comes and i have to leave and have no where to go....... Im just i dont even know. Im just done with this life of moving from place to place to place and struggling. Im done. I am trying my best for my daughter's sake to stay positive but, I dont know.

Quoting Jersey+Ana .:FGG:.:“ I dont even know where to start right now Im soo pissed off. so today I was having a relitivly good day ... [snip!] ... it. just because I choose to be care free about my stresses and worries, doesnt mean Im sitting on my ass eating bon bons.”

I have time to clean my house everyday, with two kids messing it up. So I am sure you can find time to clean your room. If you are living in someones house, you should keep your room clean.

It just sounds like she is worried about you and wants to know what your plans are.

Sounds like you resent her a bit.

Quoting Lu-Lu:“ Some day you will look back on this time in your life and just shake your head. And when your kids go ... [snip!] ... your kids go through stuff like this, you'll know that they will be just fine. You'll get through this--one step at a time.”

I agree she will get thru this.

Just clear your head and make steps. Thats all you can do.

Quoting Gabby311:“ I have time to clean my house everyday, with two kids messing it up. So I am sure you can find time ... [snip!] ... It just sounds like she is worried about you and wants to know what your plans are. Sounds like you resent her a bit.”

In my schudal I really dont between working odd babysitting jobs here and there, doctors appointments, and just barely making time for her to see her father when I get home at night I just wanna sleep *im not saying it's impossible but on avergae i get 3½-4 hours of sleep*, i dont have the energy. and i understand she's worried but dont worry me in the proccess of already freaking the fuck out. like ive told her my plans as far as if i dont get in an aprtment by july 27th the latest.

I dont resent her I just feel that she's over stepping a personal boundery.. you knwo i dotn need someone to remind me to clean or change my daughter or feed my daughter or anythign like that I know when to do all of those things it's just I feel she's tryinglight a fire thats already lit and all she's doing is smothering it. *bad analogy* I dont know I already told her before she said all this what I was going to do I hate repeating myself more than twice and I think she should just leave it at that.

Quoting Gabby311:“ I agree she will get thru this. Just clear your head and make steps. Thats all you can do.”

Thats the problem.. she wont let me. I am a multi tasker and I like to get what i need to get done while having my free time *like checking my e-mail and myspace messages and face book messages* and Im just i dontknow. Im probably acting liek this because Im still pissed at her husband. which in return since he's bugging her about it she's bugging me about it. If i live my life constantly worrying and beign stressed out, ive learned i cant get anything done. so I try to just clear my head be cal be relaxed but get my shit done too.

Quoting Jersey+Ana .:FGG:.:“ In my schudal I really dont between working odd babysitting jobs here and there, doctors appointments, ... [snip!] ... she said all this what I was going to do I hate repeating myself more than twice and I think she should just leave it at that.”

Not giving you shit. But if you do a little bit at a time, it'll be clean and stay clean. 5 minutes here and 5 minutes there.

Its hard to leave some one alone that you car about. Then for that person to have a child, makes you worry that much more. So just realize that she cares and wants to know what you have planned. Seeing if anything has changed and what not. Just talk to her about what you are thinking you are going to do. When you see her, let her know nothing new yet or if you find something out. Let her know you have something in mind. She loves you or she wouldn't ask.

Quoting Jersey+Ana .:FGG:.:“ Thats the problem.. she wont let me. I am a multi tasker and I like to get what i need to get done ... [snip!] ... stressed out, ive learned i cant get anything done. so I try to just clear my head be cal be relaxed but get my shit done too.”

You don't need to stress about things. Just get it done. If it doesn't go the way you wanted it to, just make sure you are doing your best and thats all you can do. Worry about nothing besides you and your child. Then you will be fine.

Quoting Gabby311:“ Not giving you shit. But if you do a little bit at a time, it'll be clean and stay clean. 5 minutes ... [snip!] ... know nothing new yet or if you find something out. Let her know you have something in mind. She loves you or she wouldn't ask.”

no shit taken and i try to do that through out the day like if i get out the shower i'll pick upthe clothes off the floor and what not..

It is hard but Ana *my daughter* will always have somewhere to go if anythign were to ever happen, she has her father... me on the other hand i dont know.. Ive discussed what plan b was with her numerous times. in fact if i believe correctly 7 times this week. In the same sense Im kinda like DUDE BACK OFF, i know you want to be updated and eeything but when i get you and finish what im doing I'll tell you. And I hate being mean to anyone but right now she's kinda pushing my button.. and Imtrying so hard not to just be like fuck this fuck you. blah blah blah because i know she's trying to help, in the same sense i dont want to take out my anger and stress on my daughter or on anyone elese. which is why i told her before hand let me calm down and i'll talk to you about it later. even when Im trying to spend time with my daughter and her father she always says something to push a button. then I get upset then he gets upset and my SO is a complete different story but simple and sweet. he's a really blunt person *like his father* and it's so blunt it's almost rude. and I donthim to say anything to her becuse if that happenes Im going to hospital. because I'll have really bad panic attacks. so btu yeah I dont know I'll get through it/ Ive been pissed of for like 3 hours now and I feel better that Ive talked ot someone about it.

Quoting Gabby311:“ You don't need to stress about things. Just get it done. If it doesn't go the way you wanted it to, ... [snip!] ... sure you are doing your best and thats all you can do. Worry about nothing besides you and your child. Then you will be fine.”

thats all i ever do worry about and it's killing literally. but if something does happen where I have no place to go Im jsut going to give my daughter to my S.O> and just do what I can to get a stable enviorment for her. because that's what really matters. a stable enviorment. not crazy chaos moving from place to place.

Quoting Jersey+Ana .:FGG:.:“ oh AND on top of that when i went to the pahrmacy to go pick up my perscription for birthcontrol my insurance didnt cover it. so it was either call my OB or pay $72 of money that I DONT have.”

Well, damn it girl -----------STOP WASTING YOUR MONEY ON BOOZE.
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but these are YOUR words OP:

yeah nightmare fun stories.. and it just really pisses me off. and people always ask me why I drink so damn much. this is why.

__________________ so yes, YOU NEED TO STOP wasting your money on this crap. Seriously. Now, listen to Gabby, she sounds like a great source of support and encouragement for you. Good luck.