Inside The Abortion Clinic
posted 21st Mar '09
Edited to Add on 11-30-09:**This is one of the most read threads inside the "Abortion Survivors" thread. Seeing as it has been around going on a year now almost and I wrote the thread not even before this forum was created within that week, I ask to keep any negative comments and arguements out of here please. This is a haven for women to discuss and talk about their experiences with abortion. We have had over 14,000 views without anything to negative and I am grateful for that. Thank you ladies.**
This thread is in no way to cause drama, if you have negative thoughts please read the forum rules, or just not release it here.
I am a female who has had 2 abortions.(*ETA:* I did tell my entire story to the abortions and why on Page 3, for those of you who wanted to know why I did choose the abortions, the story is in a quote to a girl who name is: Dream.) I just have had so many thoughts over the years about the abortion clinics themselves. Meaning the staff, the doctor, rooms, information they give you before hand, just the atmosphere all together. I will share some of my story here and then ask the questions that maybe some other women may have been wondering or wanting to ask about their abortion experience.
I had both of my abortions at 8wks and some odd days in the years of 2005 and 2006. I have wondered for years if any other women experinced these same thoughts in or after you had your procedure done. I myself went to the clinic that maybe some women have heard of in Alabama that got bombed some years back by a man, who hurt many people there and the nurse who had her face half burned off still worked there when I came in for my procedures. So, when I went in I was very nervous, I felt that people were judging me but then remembered we were there for the same reasons. Checking in was as normal as going to your normal doctors office. The front desk lady was kind. Need I say Im shaking a little and sitting in a waiting room where there is bullet proof glass windows all around me and tinted completly black. To get into the building you have to ring a bell. People stand outside on the road yelling at you, but I guess thats at any abortion clinic...
I then get called back after paying my half for the abortion fee which was 200 something dollars. They make you watch a video about the procedure and it pretty much just gives you reasons for why women decide to have abortions and what the procedure calls for and how its done. All together lasting maybe 5mins. Then you take your pregnancy test and they do a ultra sound to find where your "lil bean" is located. After that they send you home and I guess thats your deciding time or the time that allows the women who are only about 4 or 5 weeks to allow the bean to become bigger and be able to be seen on the ultrasound machine, so that during the procedure can found on the screen?
So, I come back to the clinic 2 days later, sign in and pay my other 209 dollars for the rest of what the procedure costs, total $409.00 and wait with about 18 girls in a waiting room who may I add just stare at the walls and thier shoes. Then they call you one by one to go upstairs and get ready for the procedure. Some girls have choosen the, "pill" and others have choosen the medical procedure with the IV or only with tylenol. I may also add the first time I took the IV and second was 2 tylenol and both felt like no pain meds were in my body at all during the enitire 20minute procedure.
So, us girls are all waiting in the little cold room upstairs. And when I say cold, I mean COLD, idk why but they keep it so cold. We have our scrub robes on that tie in the back and only a pair of socks. They call us one by one and put us in the chair like the OBGYN office has and have a nurse in there and the doctor comes in. The nurse does the ultrasound machine to show doctor where, "bean" is located and doctor tells you to, " Not move and be still!" I am crying and freaking out, the poor nurse I know felt sorry for me or thought I was a nut and thankfully let me hold her hand and sqeeze it hard. This room is very cold also, which makes you feel even more uncomforable. The doctor was moving the little vacum around everywhere and I kept jumping and shaking. (I may need to remind you for the women who have never had a abortion this is the hardest part for any female to think of. And I post these details just so women who may think a abortion is easy or the way to go, please read and think hard) So, the doctor was very rude to me and very rushing like, pretty much like, "Shut up, I have a waiting room full of other girls!" After I heard that vacum sucking and sucking for about 15 minutes, he cut it off and just walked out of the room. The nurse then gave me a huge pad and walked me to a room where there were nurses and big recliners and heating pads.
Some women in this area were throwing up and some were talking about,"This is my 8th time here girl!" For me both times I was quite and held my heating pad. I took the meds the nurses gave me for pain and infection. They give you a pamplet to read up on for your birth control and then give you a prescription for whatever birth control pill you choose, if its not a BC pill for example nuva ring or patch, you have to come back to the clinic and get that. So, after about 30mins sitting and just getting over the horror you just went through, they let you get dressed and whoever dropped you off or rode with you that is sitting in the downstairs waiting room, they let you go. Since some women have the medical procedure done they have to be driven home and if you decide to do the pill you can drive yourself home.
The nurses were on the most part very helpful and kind. I guess just doing their jobs. The doctor was a complete smurf and maybe that is something some women may need to endure to not make this choice again. I myself wish that I would have been shown how far along the fetus was and been told how much the entire process hurt. I think that when they hire those women who work there, they may ask, "have you had an abortion yourself?" I say that because I could have done without the lady who did my PT for me telling me, " Oh yah, Ive had 7 abortions and the more you do it, the less it hurts." That was by far the worst advice ever! I knew after hearing that my 2nd time there, that I will NEVER EVER have another abortion. I was thinking to fast, making dumb decisions and not being responsible. I myself thought the time I couldnt handle another child and risk their father leaving me also. I didnt want to put my mom through everything all over again. I wouldnt have gotten pregnant the 3rd time if I would have went through with the 2nd pregnancy the entire 40wks.
I feel better that I have posted these thread, I still to this day regret having my abortions and if it meant having the babies that I aborted to this day I would take it back and have them both. I am very pro-choice but IF I can help or educate any female on the hurt and pain that goes along with this process, I will try my hardest. Women who have never had this done DO NOT know the pain and hurt and regret that many others feel. Whether it be a medical problem that caused it to happen or just pure thoughts of, "I cant handle a baby or another baby right now." Then there are women who were raped and went through other things. I know there are some women who can do it and never look back but I myself still have nightmares at night of that doctor and hearing that vacum. Abortion clinics should IMO educate women on other choices and how you will feel afterwards. If I can help one teen, or girl, or women by posting this thread then I know I have done the right thing by writting this. I will never go through this process again, and I know God has forgiven me for my poor choices that I have made. I just want others to be aware of the pain and hurt that you endure going through this.
Ladies, who have been through this... please feel free to post how you felt that day. This thread is for the ladies who have held back so many questions on how hard this particular day was on you mentally and physically. I have held back my thoughts of that dreaded place for years now and know I will never walk in there again......
Thanks for letting me share my story, I hope this story will help other women to research what you decide to do, before you do it. I wish I had.
I have 2 kids & 3 angel babies & live in Alabama