re: Inside The Abortion Clinic

Seems as we have some newbies into this thread lately, without reading the forum rules for Abortion Survivors. Please be aware that your opinion matters but not in this forum at all, unless being positive. I would just like to make this statement. Your post will be modded and hidden if you choose to not follow these rules. So which is a waste to even posting. If you want to pick and rant on this topic their are designated threads for that.

Thanks and lets stay positive!  

Double post. Opps  

Thank you for posting this.

For the last month, I have felt like a crazy bipolar woman.. one day I feel comfortable in my decision to keep my baby and the next I can't stop sobbing and would do ANYTHING to just walk down to the clinic right then and there. I constantly question whether or not the reasons I have to abort are actual legit reasons.. Always second guessing myself, wondering what if this and what if that.

I had an appointment last Thursday and cancelled it a few days prior. I called back yesterday and made another appointment for this Friday. I am just so terribly lost. I'm running out of time and I just don't know how I am going to make a clear headed decision with how insane I feel.

Quoting malibu.:" Thank you for posting this. For the last month, I have felt like a crazy bipolar woman.. one day I feel ... [snip!] ... lost. I'm running out of time and I just don't know how I am going to make a clear headed decision with how insane I feel."

I personally feel like any reason is good reason for a women to make that choice for themself. Would you maybe like to share here why you want too, and whats also holding you back?

Quoting Smokey_Taboo:" I personally feel like any reason is good reason for a women to make that choice for themself. Would you maybe like to share here why you want too, and whats also holding you back?"

Well, let me start off my saying that I got pregnant with my daughter at 18. I had her when I was 19, and she is now 4 years old. Her father was my "highschool sweetheart" but wasn't there for me through my entire pregnancy. From day one, he's been involved VERY little. He hasn't practiced his visitation in years, but blames EVERYTHING on me. (the fact that he's in and out of jail for child support, has no liscence or car, ect..) Bottom line, he makes my life very difficult. But I love my daughter to death, I couldn't imagine my life without her.

Then about a year and a half ago, Dan came into my life. He was everything I had ever wanted in someone- responsible, driven, motivated.. we've had a wonderful relationship. We work together and when we weren't working, we were spending time together. Then I found out I was pregnant. He broke up with me. H told EVERYONE about the "situation" (I stopped taking BC to get an IUD, they couldn't get me in right away so I went two weeks w/o BC & I failed to tell him.) I know, terrible. So now, everyone thinks I got pregnant on purpose. Mainly to "trap" him into being a father to my daughter.

May I just say right now, that is utter and complete bullsmurf. But for the last month he has been pushing abortion on me. At first I wasn't even considering it- I just thought he was angry and scared. Well, a month later things are even worse. His family is completely unsupportive & he has made it clear that he absolutely does not want this child. (But will be there for him/her if I decide to continue)

My stance is, I just don't want to be a single mom to two kids with two fathers. It took me a very long time to feel content raising my daughter alone. I know that I COULD do it again.. but the thought of being connected with someone who I thought loved me unconditionally.. makes me so so sad.

It's not finances or anything like that... it's simply that I don't know if I could emotionally survive another pregnancy alone again. Like I made that mistake once, do I really want to make it again?

Quoting malibu.:" Well, let me start off my saying that I got pregnant with my daughter at 18. I had her when I was 19, ... [snip!] ... if I could emotionally survive another pregnancy alone again. Like I made that mistake once, do I really want to make it again?"

Thats really tough hun.. Im really sorry that the last 4 years of your life has been so hard and that someone you love bailed on you so quickly..

I personally think and feel "it's simply that I don't know if I could emotionally survive another pregnancy alone again." that this reason alone would make me make the choice again if I was in your shoes.

Quoting malibu.:" Well, let me start off my saying that I got pregnant with my daughter at 18. I had her when I was 19, ... [snip!] ... if I could emotionally survive another pregnancy alone again. Like I made that mistake once, do I really want to make it again?"

that's definitely a tough decision, that only you can make. I guess just try and make this decision without a guy in the picture. Don't let his actions/words determine YOUR choice. You've done this before. If you want to keep the baby, you can do it again. It really sounds like you don't want the abortion since you are so torn about everything and since you keep cancelling your appointment. Is there anyone else that knows you better that you could talk to about this that could help you talk through it and consider all the pros and cons?

Quoting dream:" that's definitely a tough decision, that only you can make. I guess just try and make this decision ... [snip!] ... that knows you better that you could talk to about this that could help you talk through it and consider all the pros and cons?"

I actually went to my appointment on Friday and just talked to the counselor there. She made me feel a lot more at ease with taking my time to make my decision- and to make it without feeling guilt. She even offered to see me as many times as I feel necessary. So I'm going back there Monday to speak with her again.

Quoting malibu.:" I actually went to my appointment on Friday and just talked to the counselor there. She made me feel ... [snip!] ... guilt. She even offered to see me as many times as I feel necessary. So I'm going back there Monday to speak with her again."

Im really glad she is doing that for you, there is no need for you to feel rushed. I felt like the counselor at the client was actually really helpful and supportive for myself. I hope everything works out for you hun!

Quoting malibu.:" I actually went to my appointment on Friday and just talked to the counselor there. She made me feel ... [snip!] ... guilt. She even offered to see me as many times as I feel necessary. So I'm going back there Monday to speak with her again."

ah that's good. I hope talking with her helps you come to terms with whatever decision is best for you.

thanks for sharing! I read this sgtory back in JUne 2011 when i was 20 and became pregnant unexpectedly. BF and i had been practising safe sex will BC and still.....we were bth in the same unit and of course stuff like this spreads quickly. The whole unit found out the same morning I cam back from the clinic with the blood test results......thats how Jessy found out. I read this because i was being pressured into having an abortion (not by my NCO he was being good about it while i freaked out). Needless to say we talked and decided against it. We were married in December 2011 and our son was born 5 1\2 weeks early in January 2012. I was glad this forum helped on my decision process.

Quoting Alyssa Marie Smith:" thanks for sharing! I read this sgtory back in JUne 2011 when i was 20 and became pregnant unexpectedly. ... [snip!] ... in December 2011 and our son was born 5 1\2 weeks early in January 2012. I was glad this forum helped on my decision process."

thanks for the update!