re: Inside The Abortion Clinic

first of all, ou are a very strong lady to be able to tell your story, and it makes it alot easier to speak mine   so thank you


i have only had one abortion ever, and luckily i was put under whie they did it, i had to be held down because i was crying and shaking and they couldnt insert the needle....
the worst part for me was as they were giving me the drug and telling me to count back from ten they were doing an ultra sound, the last thing i rember seeing was my little beans heart beat, and being so drowsy, i reached over to touch the screen and whisper i love you, the abortion wasnt exactly all my choice, see i had fallen pregnant to an idiot, someone i brought everything for and supported, ive always wanted a child and when i found out i was pregnant i was so happy, him on the other hand resented me, like i had tricked him into not wearing a condom *rolls eyes* the night before my abortion i was texting him hoping he would say he didnt want me to have it, hopeing he would be a man and take responsibilty, sadly he didnt and was at a party cheating on me, the next morning i woke up and my mum took me, the wholw time in the car i was vomiting from nervs and couldnt stop shaking, they made me change into a tiny dress/skirt. and lead me to the room, the only way i could honestly go through with it was to trick myself into thinking that there was nothing in there, that it didnt have a heart beat, that was proven wrong by the ultra sound, guess they dont think about not allowing u to see a small jelly bean with a heart, anyway, i woke up soon after and was laying in a bed with my undies around my feet, i pulled them up and looked around, the room was filled with other women who had done this more than once, i rember hearing a girl saying yeah i come here pritty much every few months, like it was a normal thing to do this, hearing that automaticly made me vomit, it was sickening, but i guess everyones different, i then got up outta the bed while the nurse rushed over to give me orange juice and a biskiet which i refused, she then let me leave, i walked downstair to find my mother crying in the car, we wrove home and i spent weeks in my room, only got over it 7months later

thank for listening  

<blockquote><b>Quoting Jenny Cook:</b>" first of all, ou are a very strong lady to be able to tell your story, and it makes it alot easier to ... [snip!] ... mother crying in the car, we wrove home and i spent weeks in my room, only got over it 7months later thank for listening  "</blockquote>




Thank you both for posting your stories. Im currently 13 weeks and was considering an abortion, but after reading your post about the process I decided to keep my little bean. Thanks for being so strong to tell your story. I don't no what my future holds, but I no it will include my baby.

Quoting May's 1st baby:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Jenny Cook:</b>" first of all, ou are a very strong lady to ... [snip!] ... bean. Thanks for being so strong to tell your story. I don't no what my future holds, but I no it will include my baby."

your extremely welcome, i glad y story and anothers helped u ake ur choice, and in y opinion your maing the right one, if i could go back in tie and keep my little bean i would of, nothing effected me more than that, it changed me into monster pritty much i stopped caring about anything and became a bad drug user, the night i went to my mornmorial site made for my baby i st there for hours with music, it was the last time i used drugs that night, and it was the first time i let go of the pst to move forward, a few months later i concieved my little lilly, and couldnt be happier with keeping her  

It has been a year and 3 months since I had this happen, I know this because my baby is now a year old. It has been the best year of my life. Having a baby was the only way to get over having an abortion, weird, right?

Well I found my self very sick and took a pregnancy test I was pregnant. I was only a few days late. I guessed I was not far along. Made a quick decision to have abortion. I was not planning this so I just wanted life back to how it was before. I did stop a few times and think maybe we should have it. Then my boyfriend would say no this is not in the plan and help me feel better. I think I would not have gone through with the abortion with out the help, pressure from my boyfriend. Then again with out him in my life I know I would have had the abortion.( I could not be a single Mom, I thought)

Anyway, my plan. I had a good one, I called all the clinics with in 100 miles and got price quotes. I decided to go with the most expensive one. I had heard some horror stories about places being very bad. Seaming so impossible in this year. So the plan was to find the most expensive place, because that would be the nicest.

The place wasn’t that bad, not that good either but I could handle it. I only saw a few protesters and they were not near the door. I got to the place on time but it took a long time to get checked in, maybe 30 min. It was early and I had driven a very long way. The place was packed so they kicked out all support friends. So I was alone. “he” went to go do something fun, I mean almost anything was better than this. Some women were just crying so hard, some had small babies with them. After I was checked in I waited to be called back. It took a very long time. I think 2 hours or more. Then when I got called back they asked me a few medical questions. Then sent me to another waiting room. It was smaller and nicer. It was very dark and calming. I didn’t get it. What was the deal with the room? I had valium on me and had taken a few. I waited a long time, a few more hours. I was VERY sick. My morning sickness was very bad and I had not planned on not eating for this long.

Eventually they called me into a medical room. It was nice and the woman was very nice. She did an ultrasound and made sure I could not see it. I asked her “am I far” she said “On not at all, don’t worry” she was doing all sorts of things. Giving me IV’s and things. She told me about her abortion years ago. How it made her want to help…. I wonder now if it was true?

When the Dr came in he was nice and was about to put me under. He asked if I had any questions. I said please don’t hurt me I want to have kids some day. He said he would take very good care of me. I felt happy to be going to sleep.

Remembering waking up from Anastasia is like looking at photographs in my head. I am awake and alive and it hurts bad bad, awake again in another room. Like a room with nurses and other beds, luck for me no other girls. The pain was very bad, I was crying from pain. Thinking I just need pain meds, thinking having a baby would hurt way more.

They sent me to a bathroom stall but stayed next to the door talking to me. They sad to remove my panties and change my pad. I did not know I had one on, but I did like she said. She told me to leave it for her I think? I was not beading much at all. I told her and she said that was good and normal. I was in a lot of pain.

In the car I took some Vicoden and more valium and slept the 2 hour drive home.

I was never a person to put any ideas in my head about abortions. I did not think they were wrong. I never believed in god, I never thought having one would affect me at all. But it did
I could not recover. I could not be happy I could not think of anything but the baby. I felt bad, sad, lonely. I didn’t get why no one told me I would feel like this? I had read some stories but figured they were “fake” (like from pro-choiceers) because I didn’t understand how someone could be so sure about a decision and then feel so sad? I did not think that would happen to me at all! I mean I didn’t even want a baby! Why was I so sad?

My boyfriend also felt bad but he didn’t tell me. Now over a year later I can not tell you the details of how upset I was, but I was sure I would never feel happy again. And NO, life did not just go back. Now our relationship was a mess, I was a mess and nothing was right. After 2 weeks we chose to TTC again. The next month was our 1st anniversrery and we conceived our baby who is now a year old

I will never be able to get over this all the way but having the baby helped a lot. But even now over a year later I am up unable to sleep wanting to know how far along I was. I often think about calling them and asking for my file?

I hope this helps someone

Im having an abortion on Monday... Im scared smurfless.. If anyone with experiece, please PM me... I need some support and comfort  

Quoting -aycн ѕweez-:" Im having an abortion on Monday... Im scared smurfless.. If anyone with experiece, please PM me... I need some support and comfort  "

I haven't had an abortion, but if you need someone to talk to or anything, feel free to PM me.

Quoting -aycн ѕweez-:" Im having an abortion on Monday... Im scared smurfless.. If anyone with experiece, please PM me... I need some support and comfort  "

YOu can PM me if you wqant to talk

I haven't had an abortion, but i have lost 3 babies, and had 4 miscarriages. I know exactly how it feels to be pregnant and alone because your BD is not there or not supportive. If anyone needs to talk about anything I am here for you!!!!

I am having my abortion tomorrow night. :/
Can't afford the extra cost of the pain meds or the knock out iv.
Any advice would be amazing.

Quoting His Wife (CMD):" I am having my abortion tomorrow night. :/ Can't afford the extra cost of the pain meds or the knock out iv. Any advice would be amazing."

Hi hon. what are the circumstances for the abortion? I am sorry to hear you are having one, but here for you

Quoting raceprincess5_3:" Hi hon. what are the circumstances for the abortion? I am sorry to hear you are having one, but here for you"

Can't physically or mentally handle another child. My youngest was born 6 1/2 months ago. So it's our only option.

oh okay well just try to stay calm and relax

Quoting His Wife (CMD):" I am having my abortion tomorrow night. :/ Can't afford the extra cost of the pain meds or the knock out iv. Any advice would be amazing."

there isnt really any advice...its an awful experience  the clinic i went to gave me some type of pain killer like valium before and it make me emotionless... but once it wore off, well im still coping with it.

Ever since my abortion (11/19/2012) I've been more depressed than ever. Im currently BACK with the father of the baby that was aborted, so that topic (both baby alone AND abortion) come up frequently... And i cant help but cry when i talk or even think about it....   I 'sort of' tried killing myself the week after it was done.... Im just a total different person now ever since then... Its exhausting and scary.

Quoting -aycн ѕweez-:" Ever since my abortion (11/19/2012) I've been more depressed than ever. Im currently BACK with the father ... [snip!] ... killing myself the week after it was done.... Im just a total different person now ever since then... Its exhausting and scary."

I can understand that, Im having a hard time bouncing bad too. Im really bitter and angry towards just like everyone around me.
Christmas is helping a little im like diving into crafts and pretty things I can make, and thats making me smile... Got any hobbies? I know they say counseling and actually healing that part that is broken is the best thing to do, but really all I can do right now it duct tape it a little.