re: Inside The Abortion Clinic

Quoting ♥ pASHion ♥:" Turns out no tumor, I am pregnant. the second doctor called the first doctor..."A moron" Lol He didn't ... [snip!] ... me an ultrasound and everything. 7 weeks 3 days pregnant. (meaning I got pregnant 1 week before I did last year What the hell) "

Wow! Congrats!

Quoting Pregnant Hitler:" Wow! Congrats!"

It still hasn't set in. Kind of in serious shock. and don't know what to think.

Quoting ♥ pASHion ♥:" It still hasn't set in. Kind of in serious shock. and don't know what to think."

see they are so ass backwards with the cancer smurf and that is what happened to me also said it was full blown and I got pregnant ... I was going to put on there just get preggo but ya knoe hahaha anywho yes after my 3rd child son was born .. i did have to have the full surgery ... but like i said I am preggo again... .. congrats momma  

im not sure if anyone post here anymore but I thought I'd post here about what im going threw. I'm about 7weeks pregnant, im really conflicted about keeping the baby everytime i think about it I cry. My BD and I where going threw a ruff time before we found out we where expecting are 2nd child, he says that things are just starting to be ok and if i had this baby he would lose his mind that we would end up breaking up (we have been together 4 years) and that right now we are stretched as thin as we can be financially. Just about 4 months ago we both talked about it being a good thing to have another baby so are daughter isnt to far apart age wise with her siblings. but now things have changed, I honestly cant think of being a mommy right now again but i know that would change as time goes on. There are things I wanted to do before having another baby like pting my daughter getting her to sleep in her own bed learning to drive and joining le leche. Now im so scared that if i had this baby I would be another 2 or 3 years before I could do anything. I also feel like karma would come back to me for not keeping it, I have 2 large ovarian cyst, and this would be my 2nd abortion in my life, what if i cant ever have a baby again because of the choices ive made, what if later on in life my daughter asks me if she is supposed to have a sibling. im sooo torn and depressed and angry at myself and my BD I resented him so much when we where much younger and decided not to keep that baby i did it for him and only him, and now i feel like he is also making this more about him then me. compassion would be a great thing to receive right now.

Quoting ceci'smommy:" im not sure if anyone post here anymore but I thought I'd post here about what im going threw. I'm about ... [snip!] ... and now i feel like he is also making this more about him then me. compassion would be a great thing to receive right now. "

i'm so sorry mama. can absolutely understand where you're coming from. i wanted to continue my pregnancy as well but could not due to finances and starting nursing school. i also didn't feel it'd be fair to my son at the time.
but i'm not trying to make this about me..
i just wanted to say if you want to keep the pregnancy and you feel it's not totally impossible, keep it. don't do something you feel you may regret. i know it's hard to come to a final decision. and i'm glad to say i don't regret mine at all...but if i had really felt i could take care of it, i probably would. kwim?

don't leave the decision up to BD. It's your body and I just don't want you to regret anything. But if this pregnancy will completely throw your life off in a very negative way...maybe it would be best to terminate...but don't think karma wouldn't allow you to have another in the future. is there any treatment they can give you for the cysts?

i hope you can come to a solution that's the very best for you and your family.

Quoting ~Sara:" i'm so sorry mama. can absolutely understand where you're coming from. i wanted to continue my pregnancy ... [snip!] ... any treatment they can give you for the cysts? i hope you can come to a solution that's the very best for you and your family."

Thank you soo much for replying, i guess i just have such wide range of emotions right now, when we had are daughter we had nothing we got kicked out of the room i was renting we where homeless and couch surfed lived in a rv that had no power or water and by the time she was born my bd had a job we where renting a room in a house with abunch of other ppl and things have really only gotten better since then, we now have are own 2br shane works alot i get disability so we are better then we where 3 years ago, but somehow that isnt good enough. I dont think I could be a strong single mother,I've relayed on my Bd for soo much, if he just got to overwhelmed and couldnt take it I would be soo broken. I think id rather live my life with saddness and regret of my actions then to lose him.

Quoting ceci'smommy:" im not sure if anyone post here anymore but I thought I'd post here about what im going threw. I'm about ... [snip!] ... and now i feel like he is also making this more about him then me. compassion would be a great thing to receive right now. "

I completely understand what you are going through right now mama. I have been there. You can't go off of anyone else's decision but your own. Trust me, before I was in your position I was against Abortion. But, After going through it and knowing the decision that was put forth and the thought, I know that it isn't just a snap decision and can't be judged as such. You are a strong woman from what it sounds like you need to weigh the pros and cons and decide if you are strong enough to go through it again. You are definitely stronger then me, and I envy you for your strength. Keep your head high mama, things will work out. If you need anything, I'm here.

Quoting ♥ pASHion ♥:" I completely understand what you are going through right now mama. I have been there. You can't go off ... [snip!] ... then me, and I envy you for your strength. Keep your head high mama, things will work out. If you need anything, I'm here."

Thank you soo much for seeing strength in me and reminding me that its there, right now I feel far from strong, but ive been dealt alot in life and I've over come that so I should be able to get throw this. I just told my father about hr ago, and he was alot more supportive then I had thought he would be I thought he would tell me to abort it like he had did with my daughter but actually he said he can imagine it being alot harder to do so after having a child. And he is right, I no longer look at it as so black and white, there are so many shades of grey. Is it bad to wait and see if I come to a lil more terms with this, I'm only 7 weeks so I have till 12 to make the choice. Also can I PT you??

how you described it is exactly how it was for me. they gave me a tylenol and a valium a little before and it felt like nothing. i felt the whole thing and yes the nurses were kind, but the doctor was kind of a jerk. i regret my decision to this day. it was the worst day of my life. i remember sitting there wondering what the hell i am doing. in my head i was thinking there is no way i can handle another child. i felt like this was what i had to do. it hurt soooooo bad. i ended up hospitalized after because it wasnt even finished!!!!! i had massive blood clots and i remember being so upset because i had to take the abortion pill at the hospital, not sure what its called right now, but that was even more pain. i wonder if that was part oof my "punishment." i never ever thought i was going to get an abortion and i still hate that i did. i will never do it again. i thought about adoption but i knew i woudlnt be strong enough emotionally to just carry my own baby for 9 months and hand it over. i was 8 weeks. i remember there being protesters and one man actually followed me to my car and was saying such mean things like "how could you kill your baby, your a murderer." no one went with me which made it even worse, but i was so ashamed that i didnt tell anyone. i am pro choice but i do think that abortion is NOT a form of birth control. there was a girl in there saying oh, i had 7, i just had one a few weeks ago it doesnt hurt. so in my head i was thinking it doesnt. but it does. and i have a high pain tolerance, i gave birth naturally (not by choice) to my son and i still would rather go through birth than to ever go into an abortion clinic and go through that pain and hearing that stupid vaccum. i really do regret it and i do have a counselor i see once a week because i still after 6months cannot get over it   im not here to judge anyone, i just want you to know my story. and if you havent had an abortion and your mind is set on getting one, ask to be put under. i can never go through this again personally, and i dont know how so many women can. it really messed me up  

Quoting HeatherMarieJD3:" how you described it is exactly how it was for me. they gave me a tylenol and a valium a little before ... [snip!] ... to be put under. i can never go through this again personally, and i dont know how so many women can. it really messed me up  "

This made me soo sad, tomorrow I go in to get the 1st pill and have a counsling sesh.
I feel horrible guilty disgusted in myself and very fearful.
But im also so scared to have a baby again idk if I can do it... Thank you for sharing your story, it gives me comfort that this is not a piece of cake like I'm told it is.

Quoting ceci'smommy:" im not sure if anyone post here anymore but I thought I'd post here about what im going threw. I'm about ... [snip!] ... and now i feel like he is also making this more about him then me. compassion would be a great thing to receive right now. "

it might push your plans back by a year or two, but on the other hand, you'll "have it out of the way" meaning you'll have two then and won't have to think about when you'll have another one. You can do a lot of that stuff with them together and it will actually take less total time than if you spread it out. As far as financially, (at least for me), we didn't have to buy anything for #2 because we just used everything from #1 and if you BF and cloth diaper, then having 2 isn't too much more expensive than having 1.

I only write all that because it sounds like you really want to keep it and would regret your decision and resent your SO if you went through with another abortion. It may seem very overwhelming right now and he may think that you would break up over it, but 9 months of pregnancy has a way of giving people time to grasp the reality that it IS do-able if you want to go through with it.

In the end, remember that you have to do what's right for YOU and what YOU can live with. While his input is important, the final decision needs to be yours.

Quoting dream:" it might push your plans back by a year or two, but on the other hand, you'll "have it out of the way" ... [snip!] ... have to do what's right for YOU and what YOU can live with. While his input is important, the final decision needs to be yours."

Yesterday I went to planned parenthood to figure things out, and eventually took a big step and decided to terminate the pregnancy. while sitting there for hours my SO told me we didnt have to do this anymore, but I couldnt back down I didnt wanna ever remember sitting in that place and thinking about not keeping it then all of a sudden keeping it and having it always on my mind I almost terminated. I never went threw this is my daughter it just felt so unfair to me and everyone else in the situation. I'm doing the pill so in 2 hrs I take the one that releases the fetus and causes all the pain. I'm beginning to feel so numb, I didnt think that was possible after all the crying and panic attacks Ive been having. I've decided it wont be in vain, everything that I want to do I'm gonna get done, everything that I want to work on with my SO will happen I need to do these things first then I can decided to have a baby and feel joy and happiness like I do with my daughter. I realize its so much harder to make this choice once you have a baby, because I already felt the bound the love and keep thinking about who would this child be in the future.

Quoting ceci'smommy:" Yesterday I went to planned parenthood to figure things out, and eventually took a big step and decided ... [snip!] ... once you have a baby, because I already felt the bound the love and keep thinking about who would this child be in the future. "

well I hope it all goes smoothly and quickly for you. I'm sorry you have to go through this. *hugs*