Quoting mannysmom:“ wow that just made me cry. i just recently had an abortion and im still dealing with it at first it didnt ... [snip!] ... told me i was on my own they wernt gonna help. had i been in a stable relationship with my babys dad i would have kept my baby.”
Sorry it made you cry mama! Your story reminds me of my 2nd abortion, I wanted my baby but my mom was like,"Hell no." She wouldnt even give me the choice to put the baby up for adoption. After my much wanted baby was aborted that April of 2006, I went into deep depression... esp. the first like 2weeks. I had a journal and would write about suicide and all kinds of things. If I wouldnt have had my then 3yr old son there to smile and call me, mommy... there is no telling what would have happened to me. I couldnt sleep at night and I would wake my mom up and tell her," I cant breathe, Im dieing." She would try to comfort me, but I still have so much hate towards her alot.
As for you, just keep your head up and know that you have a beautiful baby and that baby will fill you up with soooo much love and joy over the years! God gives in mysterious ways, and he forgives all. I have found peace inside knowing that I have been forgiven for such horrible choices, but I dont miss a day I still pray for forgiveness and know that my little angel babies are well taken care of! Im here if you ever need to talk or get some grief off your shoulders. Feel free to PM me or PT me anytime! I also have had my run arounds with a no good father... my oldest sons father has nothing to do with him, he came around a little til he was about 3 then boom! gone.... he now is running from the FEDS in Ohio?! lol... Much love momma-Elise