re: Welcome to the World Wyatt Aleksander

Quoting £izzy - Wyatt's Momma:“ the little girl that was next to Wyatt died today.... she didnt even have a name.. the parents didnt ... [snip!] ... was what if that was Wyatt and they couldnt find me... and I show up to see him and he is gone... i would lose my friggin mind”

  That is so sad.

Quoting £izzy - Wyatt's Momma:“ the little girl that was next to Wyatt died today.... she didnt even have a name.. the parents didnt ... [snip!] ... was what if that was Wyatt and they couldnt find me... and I show up to see him and he is gone... i would lose my friggin mind”

OMG. I am so sorry for that sweet little baby. She's in my thoughts today!

And I would lose my mind as well if I arrived to visit/see my baby and the baby was gone and I hadn't received news!

*hugs and prayers*

That is soo sad   I couldnt even imagine...that poor little girl is in my thoughts and prayers

Quoting £izzy - Wyatt's Momma:“ the little girl that was next to Wyatt died today.... she didnt even have a name.. the parents didnt ... [snip!] ... was what if that was Wyatt and they couldnt find me... and I show up to see him and he is gone... i would lose my friggin mind”

How awful! My heart is breaking for that poor baby   RIP little angel

How are you doing Lizzy?

Well we are now doing CPAP. Wyatt likes this much better then the prongs shoved up his nose. Heck I wouldn't want something shoved up my nose either. We are allowing him to do the sprints on the nasal cannulas so that he can still work out his lungs. but the best news of all is that he is feeding from a bottle. He is hysterical. Just watching him suck and get a mouth full of formula is worth it because he looks at me and the nurses like wow what is this... this is soooo cool you have to try it. but the best facial shot is when he burbs. I absolutely love the 'who me, did I do that' look he gets on his face and then he giggles. He is up to 68ml on his feeds now and each time he bottle feeds he takes at least half by bottle. That is wonderful for him since so many that he would have oral aversion from being intubated for so long. It is wonderful each and every time my son proves the doctors wrong. He enjoys his bath times too. He splashes with his feet and he curls and uncurls his hands while in the water. I love that he is so aware now of what is going on around him. We actually turned his boppy around to the other side of his crib so that during tummy time he can look around at everyone.

Quoting £izzy - Wyatt's Momma:“ Well we are now doing CPAP. Wyatt likes this much better then the prongs shoved up his nose. Heck I wouldn't ... [snip!] ... turned his boppy around to the other side of his crib so that during tummy time he can look around at everyone. ”

omg that is soo exciting!! i love getting on here to read good news   those pictures are adorable!!!

How neat! And your descriptions are so good! I can totally picture him being surprised at his burp or excited about the mouthful of milk. Yay!

way to go wyatt. i am so proud of him and happy for you. He is such a fighter

yAY Wyatt! He's doing so well, what a little fighter!

Ohhh look at him and the bottle is great great news!!
He is seriously handsome and makes me all proud =]

I love you ladies so much... you lift my spirits when they lag

You are such a strong momma! That NICU time seems three times as long as "regular" time and you've been there a lot longer than I had to be. I pray that Wyatt keeps progressing and that he WILL come home from the hospital healthy and happy sooner rather than later!

Quoting £izzy - Wyatt's Momma:“ I just read in another thread (in another forum) that a friend lost her baby at 38 weeks... stillbirth. ... [snip!] ... smugbags... but you don't take out babies from us... not the innocent ones not the pure ones... you just fucking don't do it”

YEs! Someone understands me. We lost our baby girl on May 18th at 24 weeks. She was stillborn due to an umbilical cord torsion. This is my second loss in a year and a half..and I find that people discount the fact that I had a baby, went through labor and delivery...just because Denise isnt here on earth with us.

Life isn't fair. If it was, all the sumbags and child molesters would not exisist and babies would come into this world as planned. No one deserves to have a child early and watch them die or fight for their lives...

I am in awe of your courage to document your journey with Wyatt since birth. I'm rooting fo you both.

How are you feeling? Are you close to recovered yet?

Wyatt Updates...

I know it has been alittle bit since I hae written and it was not due to anything but sadness in my heart. You see I am selfish. I am selfish because I am missing my babies firsts. His first smile, first laugh, first bath, first time he sleeps through the night. First holidays, first time he took a bottle. The first time he burped, the first time he picked up his head, the first time he rolled over. I am missing them because I cannot be at the NICU 24 hours a day. He has amazing nurses but I am his momma and this is my ONLY baby. One of his nurses baths him all the time and everytime she does she says 'don't get mad but I bathed him and he was so good and he blah blah blah'... and it hurts something insides of me that I cannot even give my baby baths. I walked into the NICU the other day and had to leave for a moment because I saw a 'cuddler' holding him. I wanted to scream at her.... 'that is MY son, get your hands off of him'. I can't do that. I can't scream and yell or throw a fit. I cannot tell them they are wrong to comfort him.. and I cannot tell myself that I am not a horrible mother for NOT being there to do it all for Wyatt. I want to throw things, I want to punch my fist through walls.... and I HATE the universe right now... I hate with so much anger and rage that I cannot see straight. And I swear to the Goddess the next person that tells me "Oh 'God' is just testing Wyatt and this will only make him stronger" I will beat them to a bloody pulp. THERE IS NOT NEED TO TEST A INFANT ASSHOLE THEY ARE INNOCENT!!!! You want to test me fine, you think I am not worthy fine.... but you have NO RIGHT to hurt my son. I am so tired. There does not look to be an end in sight yet. He is doing the nasal cannula sprints and nippling if he wants to. By the end of the sprint time he is so tired I have tears in my eyes. He is trying so fucking hard. He is completely off the steroids now. So he is flying his own plane. I hold him and whisper to him over and over again that I am so proud of him and so very amazed by him every day. He is the strongest fighter I know.

A friend Ken came to visit Wyatt. He bought him the Baby Einstein 'Baby Neptune' play gym mat. The physical therapist is going to be working with Wyatt to help him start moving and being more active. He is old enough gestationally to do it and we don't want him to fall too far behind other children.

Momma Donna made Wyatt a beautiful blanket that she called 'Wyatt's Arizona Sunshine' it is beautiful shades of red, yellow, oranges and it is just stunning when I bring it to the hospital I will take pictures of him with it.

My friend Jim came to see Wyatt the other day and brought him another teddy. I had to take a few of the ones that I bought him home so that there would be room. I want him to be surrounded by love and by people that care about him.

I want my son... I want him home and I want him home now. I have had enough.