re: **Drug and alcohol abuse support thread**

Quoting Damian & Marlee:“ YAY, Jamie!!!! How are you feeling? Is the SO feeling anybetter? ”

Thanks! I feel great physically, even mentally I feel okay. I took a shit ton of suboxone so that's probably why. I used to feel okay off 1/2 a piece, but the doctor put me on 3 per day, which is 6 x's what i usually take. Anyway, long story short, its working.. so far so good. just gotta take it one day at a time. suboxone is sooooooooo disgusting though.. they really need to work on another flavor for it. i get nauseous with them in my mouth.

My husband on the other hand... not doing so great! I feel bad for him, but theres nothing I can do from here. I haven't talked to him since Friday.. I dunno what's going on. I think he had told me he was getting out of there Monday.. and im going to have to bring him clothes for his next place they send him, so i reeeeally hope he calls today.

What'd everyone do for the 4th?

ya know i've never taken the time to post my story. At least here. So since i'm bored and lonely... I will
Very long but it felt good to get it off my chest.

My parents were both addicts. I don't know my real mother she lft me a long time ago but I do know she was into drugs/alcohol... My dad is a recovering alcoholic, coke head, he once ate xanax and drank and ruined my grandpas car and idiot drove it to the liquor store all beat up. He wasn't in my life as my father and now he wants to be and I have a hard time forgiving him. He was just in a car accident in Feb 09 that nearly killed him. He got hit by a drunk driver.. Ironic?

I lived with my dads parents my whole life and I was blessed to have them. .. I have a lot of problems dealing with my mothers abandonment. I only bring it out when i was extremely intoxicated. My dad has 2 other children.. they are only 1 month apart... from diff women ...i talk to my youngest sister alot not the other one... We used to watch my step mom and my dad fist fight and we would cry.. it was a miserable part of my life.. Once I grew up I realized wha my dad ws into so i figured I could use it to my advantage... I used to take my friends to his house... (At this time he had cleaned up except drinking and he had a great job huge house... doing great)... we would smoke pot with him.. he would buy us liquor... One night him and my step mom got into it because he was wasted and he told my grandma I smoke pot and I drink... Needless to say i got grounded...for a long time..

Around that time my dad got really bad into coke.. him and my stepmom intoduced me to this guy ... my step mom called him "A big teddy bear".. i found out later ... after i started noticing my dads nice house started emptying.. no more movies...the slot machine was gone.. everything was dissapearing.. that big teddy bear was my dads coke dealer.. I can only imagine what was going on behind those closed doors all those nights...

.. I smoked pot.. i dont like it to this day so i dont know why I did it... Took xanax... and drank a lot...and as of addictions... relationships is another addiction of mine as well..If i feel i'm not cared about.. I feel not worthy of anything or anyone....Ive taken X 3 times... and coke was the worst for me.. because it made me feel like I was happy...I was really into it from Feb-May08 ive done it a couple times since then but right now I know its the devils drug and i plan to stay away from it...

My current problem is drinking... Its part of the reason me and the SO are apart I would drink everynight and be wasted .. i ended up sleeping with another guy and he had enough of it... so because of my problem I ruined my family. I've been LIQOUR free since May 23... I've since then drank a few beers here and there but havent been drunk....

phew

Quoting RockinItSingleStyle[TSB]:“ ya know i've never taken the time to post my story. At least here. So since i'm bored and lonely... I ... [snip!] ... I've been LIQOUR free since May 23... I've since then drank a few beers here and there but havent been drunk.... phew”

sounds like you're heading down the right path now. just keep doing the right thing and everything will fall into place... thats what i tell myself! how old are your children?

Quoting shes*almost*one!:“ sounds like you're heading down the right path now. just keep doing the right thing and everything will fall into place... thats what i tell myself! how old are your children?”

Ya I've been doing good.... but Marc told me yesterday... It was too late to do this.. I should of cleaned up sooner. I wish I had someone like Suzies Husband that would accept my past and just look away .. at least for he kids u know.
thats what hurts the most.. I was too late.

Alleigh will be 20 months on the 7th... and Laylah turned 5 months yesterday

Quoting RockinItSingleStyle[TSB]:“ Ya I've been doing good.... but Marc told me yesterday... It was too late to do this.. I should of ... [snip!] ... thats what hurts the most.. I was too late. Alleigh will be 20 months on the 7th... and Laylah turned 5 months yesterday”

You never know what will happen down the line.. Maybe he's waiting for you to stay sober fora certain period of time before committing himself to you again? Is he currently seeing anyone? Do you have the children with you? Good luck, I know everything will work out

hey ladies. how is everyone?

I'm doing good,. drank a little last night. got a little buzzed. not too much. i also smoked a little. but not much, because i still wanted to have a good night, and not just pass out.

Quoting Ravey Candyass:“ hey ladies. how is everyone? I'm doing good,. drank a little last night. got a little buzzed. not ... [snip!] ... buzzed. not too much. i also smoked a little. but not much, because i still wanted to have a good night, and not just pass out.”

sounds like a good nighte. did you take your kid to see any fireworks?

Quoting shes*almost*one!:“ You never know what will happen down the line.. Maybe he's waiting for you to stay sober fora certain ... [snip!] ... to you again? Is he currently seeing anyone? Do you have the children with you? Good luck, I know everything will work out”

I wish it was that I dont think he's that smart... He told me he was proud of me but like i said.. he said it was just too late. I just think all my mistakes made him fall out of love with me...

He's not seeing anyone that I know of.. he told me we could be friends because its not like he'll be dating or anything...I just can't do it.

The girls are with me.. and he'll get them on his days off I guess.. i told him he can see them whenever he just can't do it here... I can't see him.. i just can't do it.. and it sucks because we share a car right now

Quoting RockinItSingleStyle[TSB]:“ Ya I've been doing good.... but Marc told me yesterday... It was too late to do this.. I should of ... [snip!] ... thats what hurts the most.. I was too late. Alleigh will be 20 months on the 7th... and Laylah turned 5 months yesterday”

Taryn, are you okay?

Please remember that Marc contributed to the problem don't put this all on you!

Quoting Damian & Marlee:“ Taryn, are you okay? Please remember that Marc contributed to the problem don't put this all on you!”

Not soo good.. I can't help but put it on myself... its my fault my kids arent gonna have their real mom and dad together.. I just can't live that down. Thats the only thing i wanted ... a normal family because god knows mine wasn't.

I can't figure out if the reason I drank was problems from earlier in my life or because my pain from him..

"Its too late"

those words are eating me alive.

Quoting shes*almost*one!:“ sounds like a good nighte. did you take your kid to see any fireworks?”

no. we had to drive someone down to richmond, and by the time we got back it wwas 10

Quoting Ravey Candyass:“ no. we had to drive someone down to richmond, and by the time we got back it wwas 10”

so you took a few drinks for the road? lol. how far are you from richmond? i've only been to virginia once, last year actually. my husband cousin was getting married on virginia beach... and we DROVE! biggest mistake ever. it was a 10 hour long fight haha.

what time do the fireworks usually start near you? they started here at 10:30. it sucks they're so late. catherine was so tired!

i didn't drink until i got home. lol. they started right when it gets dark. around 9.

i'm about an hour from richmond. 45 from DC. not too bad

Quoting Ravey Candyass:“ i didn't drink until i got home. lol. they started right when it gets dark. around 9. i'm about an hour from richmond. 45 from DC. not too bad”

haha oooh, still fun stuff. how have you been doing otherwise? everything going okay? thats nice you're kinda close to the city. do you go there often?