don't feel human...

so this is half rant, half i feel like breaking down and crying.

it's really starting to get to me at work. people treat me like i'm not even a human being... i don't know if this is even going to make sense. at work last night (like most nights) people walk in, say hi to all the other bartenders and then don't even look me in the eye and make the "baby belly gesture" or reach for my belly or ask "oh, when are you due?" i know it's not being done maliciously, but sometimes it just makes me feel like i'm not even a human being... like i'm just this vessle carrying a child, like i'm really not even there. now i know i'm totally not making any sense...

it's like no one sees "me" anymore. everything i do has to do with being pregnant... (not that that's a bad thing... ) but i can't even talk to someone without everything i say being taken as "pregnancy hormones." we had an employee meeting and whatever i said (from commenting on this asshole band that's been playing there to shit that needs to be done at the bar) got completely dismissed... and then one of my coworkers would say the EXACT same thing and all of a sudden, the boss is willing to listen. it's just irritating.

another example... there's this regular at the bar who likes to make comments about another bartender that come off really bad. she's not fat, by ANY means, but is VERY sensitive about her weight. this ass feels the need to regularly comment how beautiful she would be "if she just lost a little weight"... well, she's my best friend and this really upsets her, so i pulled the customer aside and told him that what he was saying was NOT a compliment, but was actually very hurtful to her... and he proceeded to spend the next week telling all the other customers to be careful what they say around me because i'm "super hormonal" and could "snap on them". i just want to scream! i want to tell him "listen fucker, when i stab you in the eyeball with a fork or start crying, THATs the hormones... i was a bitch before i got pregnant, i'm still a bitch... and you're an asshole and that has NOTHING to do with hormones!"

grrr... sorry. i had to get this out. it probably made no sense...

thanks for listening.

when i was pregnant all i felt i was good for half the time was being a human incubator. it'll pass. once baby is here all their attentions will go towards baby, and you can get a break.

and sorry for bad punctuations i'm typing with one hand and breastfeeding with the other    

I know it just sucks sometimes.

I can really relate, especially this time around, since I'm having twins, and it seems like not only do I have all the crap that everyone else has to deal with when they are pregnant, but also I'm not able to do all the things that I normally do when pregnant to stay sane.

I feel like a human incubator that no one I know can relate to, since none of them have had twins (and it isn't just "a little bit more pregnant" like I thought it was before being pregnant with twins too).

Anyway, I feel your pain, and it will be over relatively soon, so just hang on!

Ohh I feel you. I finally gave my 2 weeks to my boss last night at the bar I work at. I'll go back afterwards but I'm so done. This weekend was the worst! I haven't had much of a problem with people touching my belly but I had like 10 people do it to me at work this weekend...last night one bitch came up BEHIND my bar which you know is a big no-no and yanked my shirt up! I snatched her freakin hand away from me so fast....and didn't even have to say anything, she instantly apologized lol. I was so mad I didn't even say anything except get out from behind my bar.But jesus christ who does that? I don't like strangers touchin me let alone lifting my shirt up!? Gawd.

I know what you mean too-I get some weird reactions from people the minute they see Im pregnant. From the ones that just stare at my belly like they can't comprehend what it is (idiots) to the ones that ask dumb questions, or ask me when I'm going to "pop", it's annoying to the point of being infuriating. It gets old too, like it's all people can think about.
Try not to let em get to ya, but I know it's way hard not to. I give you mad props for bartending this long cause I know how it is girl!  

Aw hun! I totally understand. I know it's not your hormones. Totally get that sometimes people don't even aknowledge the pregnant, now its all baby. No more "hi, how are ya?" without asking about the baby. This town is whack, people suck around here. Now I have my baby and still am not acknowledged for just me, unless I'm alone. =/

I'm here for you if you need to vent or talk. Pm me. =)