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so ill be 39 weeks in 3 1/2 hours.
IM SO SICK OF BEING PREGNANT!
ive so damn crampy right now and kayden wont lay still for anything so i cant even tell is im contracting or if kayden is making my belly feel tight...
im ready to get him OUT of there!
5 days of nothing but contractions and cramping and NOTHING but another.5 cm and another 5-10% effaced.
i DONT wanna be induced but at the same time..I DO! im worried about having a c-section if i do but i think at this point i will do anything to just get him out of there!
im so annoyed and sore i just wanna cry!

i will be over soon mama dont worry. i know your in pain but its worth it...just rember

i felt the same way lol...its funny now i think of it......honestly though the pain u feel now is nothing compared to labour i found that out!lol......have a relaxing bath with a book or go and treat urself to something.....ullbe fine itll be over soon....xo

ahhhhh your posts make me soo sad and scared lol....try and be positive...
if you need to talk or anything youve got the number....make sure you keep me posted...good luck and LOTSA LABOR DUST!!!

i know its all worth it but ugh its so emotionally draining! and i cant explain to my fiance why i keep crying all the damn time cuz he doesnt understand. he want to but just cant and i understand that but UGH. i just hate this. im ready for it to be over with.

Aw, I can't believe he's still in there after all you've been through! Stubborn little boy.   It will be over soon - and I bet when you go, you go fast. ***Labor Dust***

AND NOW on top of feeling like shit and trying HARD not to bust out in tears nick rather hang out with his sister and her friend then back in our room with me.
i know this is a stupid way of seeing it but it just seems like whenever a NON PREGNANT chick comes over nick iggys me and kinda acts a lil too friendly to her. =[[
and when i tell him that it hurts me he just says that im just being pregnant and once the baby is born everything will go back to normal..but i want things to be normal now.
im sick of looking like this..im sick of everything at this point. hes starting to make it hard to stay with him.

all he does is gets up..goes to work..maybe plays a few games before then..comes home..plays some more game..hangs out with other ppl who are over and goes to bed

ugh im just gonnago back to sleep =[[

I'm so sorry. Definitely lay down and get some rest. You need it.

okay so i wet out [i know i should be driving with contraction but it was just up the road] and got me a sprite and 2 bags of Fritos Chill Cheese.
and now i will have a pity party with myself