Quoting Mrs. Lockhart:" Please don't judge me badly I love my son more than anything in this world... I have depression and fr ... [snip!] ... old so idk why the hell it has started... feel like demons are after me I really do... anyone know what this is about? (("
Have you had any issues with postpartum depression? It sounds like it might be a good idea to see a therapist and talk through it.
No one in here would judge you. The fact that you're trying to figure out how to change it shows that you're not a bad mom.