posted 19th Jul '12
I have been suffering from depression for the better part of my life. It's really hard to deal with and I'm thankful I found this thread to talk about it. Besides depression I also suffer from anxiety and bipolar disorder. I don't often tell people about my disorders, because of fear of being judged. I cry myself to sleep sometimes, because I'm struggling with all of the above on a daily basis. I've tried medications and nothing has helped me. I got to the point were I just disposed of all of my medication and decided that I am okay and I can heal myself. Unfortunately now that I'm pregnant and full of hormones my symptoms have became a lot worse. It's becoming extremely difficult to make it through a day without breaking down into tears. I want help, I'm crying out for help on the inside, but on the outside I'm trying to keep my composure. I just don't like the feeling that I'm suffering alone. I have a hard time expressing myself to other people, and I tend to keep my feelings bottled up. I feel like I'm a burden on my significant other. I feel like he doesn't believe in mental health problems and he's growing tired of my sadness spells. It scares me, because he is such a good person and I don't want to lose him. I'm thinking about talking to my doctor about what I can do. I just don't want to feel heavily medicated, especially because I'm pregnant.quote
posted 20th Jul '12
Never mind. I just wrote a long rambling post about being bipolar and stuff because I'm really manic and over-talkative now, but now, I'm taking it back and erasing it all. lmao. sorry.quote
posted 21st Jul '12
I just found out Im pregnant and suffer from a panic disorder. I suffer awful panic attacks on a daily basis. And now that I am pregnant, I cant take xanax anymore for them, and dont know what Im going to do. Im really worried about the health of my child if I am not put on something to calm me. I wonder if there is something I can go on while pregnant? Anyone know?quote
posted 21st Jul '12
Quoting amber0213:" I just found out Im pregnant and suffer from a panic disorder. I suffer awful panic attacks on a daily ... [snip!] ... of my child if I am not put on something to calm me. I wonder if there is something I can go on while pregnant? Anyone know?"
My psychiatrist gave me Vistaril. It's not super strong, but it's safe for pregnancy, and it Does help. It may not be the best med for anxiety out there, but it is certainly better than nothing, and you can always increase the dose if it isn't working for you. Its also an antihistamine so you have to be a little more careful with it when the baby comes (if you plan to nurse) because anti-histamines are also used to treat overly engorged breasts (which means that if you aren't over-engorged, it may negatively affect your milk supply - this is what the WIC nutritionist told me.. of course, pumping may make up for it by causing you to produce more anyway).
posted 22nd Jul '12
Hi ladies, not posted in here before but after a bit of advice. I have Bipolar 1 and have managed so far to stay medication free during my pregnancy, but need to be back on something after I have the baby. I was diagnosed not long before I found out I was pregnant so Seroquel was the only thing I tried and it made me feel like a zombie and sleep for about 20hrs a day which won't really work with a newborn My psychiatrist has now prescribed me Aripiprazole to try once baby arrives, is anyone on this / tried it? Did it work for you? I try not to google normally but couldn't help myself and the list of 'frequent' side affects is scary!quote
posted 22nd Jul '12
I am on Lamictal. I found out that I was pregnant soon after I found out I was bipolar, too, so before getting pregnant, the only thing I'd tried was Symbyax, and it didn't work for me. My family doctor gave me samples of it to try before I had a chance to see my psychiatrist for the first time. By the time I saw my psychiatrist, I had stopped taking Symbyax and discovered that I was pregnant.
So, my psychiatrist felt that it was definitely necessary for me to take something, if I was willing (I was kind of a mess because the way I found out I was bipolar was by taking Lexapro for my anxiety disorder.. and that really messed me up and sent me on this crazy spiral... and finding out I was pregnant again already didn't help).. so I really needed something to level me out so that I could function - I also have two kids to take care of, so I can't just lay around half-dead all day because I can't function..
So, my psychiatrist recommended Lamictal and Celexa, and asked my OB about it, she said yes to the Lamictal and no to the Celexa, because so far, Lamictal appears to be safe during pregnancy and nursing (and Celexa appears to not be so safe).
Lamictal is Category C. The pregnant and nursing women who have taken it haven't had any problems. Its not guaranteed safe because extensive studies have not been done, but based on what they know right now, its safe, so you have to weigh the risks and benefits... and as I said, in my case, I really needed to take something and my OB agreed. (she would have preferred to wait until my second trimester, because she felt it was more on the safe side.. and I would have preferred it too, but it has to built up very slowly in your system, and I just wasn't in a good state at the time).
The Lamictal doesn't make you feel zombie like at all. In fact, you almost don't even feel like you're taking anything except that your moods improve dramatically over time. I haven't been depressed in quite a while and since my last dose increase, my irritability has dramatically decreased. I'm still getting manic, but we are still working on my dose to get it to the best level. (I'm still on a low/medium dose (300mg).
Also, although being pregnant keeps you from being able to experiment with meds, and Lamictal is often taken with other meds at the same time, a lot of bipolar people take Lamictal when they're not pregnant just because it works well, so its not just a "only because I'm pregnant"med.
So far, I'm happy with it, and I haven't had any negative affects during my pregnancy.. I'm six months along now, and nothing has come up abnormal in any tests, ultrasounds, sonograms, or anything, and the baby is moving just fine. And based on my research, I believe that my baby and I will be just fine.
If you Google "Lamictal and Bipolar," "Effectiveness of Lamictal on Bipolar"(be specific with Bipolar because its also an anti-seizure medication) and "Lamictal and Pregnancy", you will not be discouraged as much as you will be encouraged. I did a lot of research, and I was confident taking it from the beginning.. and I tend to be obsessive and nervous about things like this.. (so I was a little nervous, but confident .. and desperate.. enough to take it).
Just thought I'd share that so you'd know its an option.
posted 23rd Jul '12
I haven't been doing well lately. Everything is getting to me. I know I should be specific, but it really is everything. My dreams are insane. The recurring dream that Seth isn't really gone, that the doctors made a mistake. Dreams of my best friend and other people who've left. I've cut... several times. *hangs head* I'd been doing well for a while, but lately... Daniel makes me feel like I'm crazy for trying to make sure that the bills are paid and that the kids are happy. Aiden has been VERY difficult lately. Incredibly stubborn and spirited... He threw a wooden toy at the window and nearly broke it. It's cracked. Spider-webbed. It'll have to be replaced.
I don't know. I'm just going crazy and its like there's nothign really to stop me from spiraling out of control.
I have an appointment with my psychiatrist for meds tomorrow, so maybe (hopefully) we'll be able to add something or.... I dunno.... fix me somehow.
posted 23rd Jul '12
Quoting Rain (aka Mama):" I haven't been doing well lately. Everything is getting to me. I know I should be specific, but it really ... [snip!] ... with my psychiatrist for meds tomorrow, so maybe (hopefully) we'll be able to add something or.... I dunno.... fix me somehow. "
I don't know if it will help right now, but one of my most important coping skills in bad times is to keep telling myself that it will pass. And if my stupid brain tries to argue, I have to hear one of my counselor's in my head saying, "has it ever not passed? has it ever really lasted forever?" because it never really has, the answer to that is always no.. it has not ever really lasted forever.... I always come out the other side.. So, it sucks now, but if you keep reminding yourself that it will eventually pass, it may help you to bring yourself some comfort.