re: Mental health support.

Quoting SSDD!@:" Thank you for your kind words. I need to remember that I am loved. My children love me the most and ... [snip!] ... myself. Although it was voluntary and I was put on new meds, it didnt work.    And the smurf got his Karma comin! "

it took me about 3 years to find a good combo of meds. And then you know what? They randomly stopped working. I had to start all over again

I started a new med this past thursday. I just hope it works, even a little bit


Hell, it took almost 10 years to get a proper diagnosis.

I don't feel well. I haven't been feeling well for the past few days. I feel like I'm spiraling downhill. Not fast, but spiraling downhill nonetheless. I feel like cutting. I feel like screaming and banging my head against the wall and just saying "screw everything", because I'm tired. I feel alone and I'm afraid of being left alone. I feel like vanishing. Just up and disappearing into nowhere.

I can't post too much in here because I know my husband will see it and I don't want him to know how 'crazy' I really am. I've given a new meaning to "rapid cycler". Morning time, it's a low, early afternoons, mixed episodes and at night it's all high. I don't understand.

I'm reading a book about a woman's journey dealing with bi-polar. It's really good, it's called I'm not crazy, i'm bipolar by Wendy K Williamson.

I need a journal or blog that no one else can see, just me. I don't want anyone to see what I think or feel most of the time.

I'm just rambling at this point...

Quoting ♥jamie:" I can't post too much in here because I know my husband will see it and I don't want him to know how ... [snip!] ... else can see, just me. I don't want anyone to see what I think or feel most of the time. I'm just rambling at this point..."

Get a notebook or a journal and write in it. Don't let anyone else see it. Hide it somewhere if you have to. Or, you could even shred or burn the pages once you're finished.

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Help??  

I don't know what's wrong with me lately but I keep forgetting to take my medicine in the morning! Today I was in a hurry to get to my grandparents with my boys and forgot. The way home was horrible. It's a 30/35 minute drive each way, all highway mostly. Hadn't taken my xanax... Had to slap myself to start breathing normally.

Quoting ♥jamie:" I don't know what's wrong with me lately but I keep forgetting to take my medicine in the morning! Today ... [snip!] ... a 30/35 minute drive each way, all highway mostly. Hadn't taken my xanax... Had to slap myself to start breathing normally. "

Set an alarm on your phone
keep the meds by your toothbrush or coffee pot
Take them before bed (if possible)

Just keep them in a place that you go every morning, no matter how busy you are

I get like this too sometimes. I rush and rush and forget my meds. And then I suffer for it.

I keep my meds in a pill sorter, one of those mon-fri plastic things you can get anywhere. It makes it easier to see my pills every morning, and to pop it in my bag if I am traveling somewhere

So I was supposed to go to Mental Health like 2 months ago, but I kept putting it off because I did not have the time, or money, plus I was nervous of what would happen. Today I am going as soon as I give the call to let them know I am coming, my husband had this week off from work, so now I have the time, and he is very persistent that I get help. I guess that would have to be because of the way I have been acting lately. I get angry so easily, which makes me have panic attacks, I literally throw tantrums, I always feel twitchy, like I have to be out of the house doing something or I end up staying pissy all day. I feel like I can't control the way I act, but people always say I am just being childish, and looking for attention. There are also my down days, where I just want to stay in bed all day. Hopefully I can get the help I need.

I don't even know if this is the right place to ask or even how to ask this question but does anyone know where or what you would have to do to get help if you couldn't stand to be around and hated one of your children?

Quoting lindsαy:" I don't even know if this is the right place to ask or even how to ask this question but does anyone ... [snip!] ... anyone know where or what you would have to do to get help if you couldn't stand to be around and hated one of your children? "

First thing i would do is see a therapist or your family doctor. They will point you in the right direction.

Are your children safe? Are you a danger to them or to yourself? If you are feeling like you cannot control yourself, head to your local Emergency Room .

Quoting Kelly&Coralie:" First thing i would do is see a therapist or your family doctor. They will point you in the right ... [snip!] ... you a danger to them or to yourself? If you are feeling like you cannot control yourself, head to your local Emergency Room ."

I just don't understand what a therapist would do.  

My son is safe, I just have absolutely no love for him. I take care of him because I feel like I'm obligated to but I don't love him and he knows it.

Quoting lindsαy:" I just don't understand what a therapist would do.   My son is safe, I just have absolutely no love ... [snip!] ... have absolutely no love for him. I take care of him because I feel like I'm obligated to but I don't love him and he knows it. "

It'll help to have someone to talk this over with. Get to the bottom of WHY you don't seem to love him.

Honestly, it sounds like depression to me. The lack of caring part. Your emotions toward your son, it isn't normal.

I'm glad that he is taken care of, but he needs love too

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Do any of you keep a journal? I bought one today and I plan on writing in it daily. I think I'm going to concentrate on my diet, and emotions. Somedays things just get so out of control, I don't know what else to do.  

Quoting Kimberlea:" Do any of you keep a journal? I bought one today and I plan on writing in it daily. I think I'm going ... [snip!] ... I'm going to concentrate on my diet, and emotions. Somedays things just get so out of control, I don't know what else to do.  "

I do. I really helps me sort out my thoughts and focus.