re: Mental health support.

i was always the one who seeked help when i hit rockl bottom.. its not good.. its better to get help before you hit the low so they can try to nip it in the butt

ooo never noticed this before!!

i have very bad self loathing issues, as a child i was daiagnosed with ADHD and was pumped full of ritalin, so from no age i was always different, but when i stared the ritalin it was much worse, i was the freak who had to take drugs to be normal, i was a constant dissapointment to my parents, i never did as well as my brother who was the favorirte child, you know how usually the youngest gets away with things because they dont know any better?, well in my house the oldest got away with things because he would know better

from then it was just downhill, i still had to take the ritalin but kids were old enough to understand about it so then i was the ''school druggie'' constant digs and abuse all day, students and teachers alike

mum didnt help much either, constantly telling me im a failure, a freak, a mistake, and her grasbbing my hair and hitting my head off a wall probably didnt help much...

im a mess now, i wont look in the mirror, im fat im ugly im as thick as pig smurf and pathetic,

even after a boob job my self esteem is rock bottom, i fgot it done because 1 i was advised to by a doc for physical and mental reasons, and 2, i thought itd make me feel just that bit more confident, but nope, not i just feel like a stupid ugly girl with big boobs, and now after Leo my tummy is utterly destroyed

my husband keeps telling me im berautiful but i just cant believe it.. and its gotten to the point where its affecting our relationship, i just dont, and never have had, a sex drive, i never think about it, i never want it and its driving me mad


i could write alot more but the post would be huge and its probably bored you lot to death already ...

just for once id like to be normal, im going to speak to my docs soon about what help i can get and my hubs wants be to ask for viagra  

I put on this mask.. people looking at me would think everything is easy for me.. im great at my job i have a wonderful daughter etc.. but behind it all im a total and utter mess..


i like this forum,... itsmy new vent forum  

Quoting jessicamatlock:“ I put on this mask.. people looking at me would think everything is easy for me.. im great at my job ... [snip!] ... a wonderful daughter etc.. but behind it all im a total and utter mess.. i like this forum,... itsmy new vent forum  ”

right with ya on that one, iv managed to put on a great mask over the years, im the ''cute bubbly happy one'' in a group, little do they know my heads melted

ooooh how glad i am this is a topic and especially a sticky!!  

well....recently i was diagnosed with dysthymia disorder after my mom attempted suicide in august, it hit me extremely hard. i always knew i was depressed, from an early age, but i didnt know it wasnt "normal". i've gone thru a WHOLE LOT of things in my life that noone should ever have to experience, ever. and because of these things, i have a very hard time with opening up to people and letting out what is bothering me. so i keep it all in, then i blow a fuse!! i have anger management issues, and need help expressing myself. i am in therapy and see a doc on the regular. i'm currenly taking 100mg Zoloft. i havent been on it long enough to see a difference. but i hope it kicks in soon.
glad to know i'm not alone on this site!!
*hugs*

i tink there is more on this site then we think.. people are to scared to admit they rent perfect alot of times

Quoting jessicamatlock:“ i tink there is more on this site then we think.. people are to scared to admit they rent perfect alot of times”

do you blame them? theres some mean bitches on here. i know if i was to express some of my issues if it was seen by certain peple, i would never hear the end of it.ive always wanted to make posts about how i really feel...but i thought i would always end up hearing about it the next day or someting.

Quoting The Male Brain{Heather}:“ do you blame them? theres some mean bitches on here. i know if i was to express some of my issues if ... [snip!] ... wanted to make posts about how i really feel...but i thought i would always end up hearing about it the next day or someting.”

very true!

Quoting Adrielle's Mommy, Meri:“ very true!”

ive always wanted to make up a second screen name so that i COULD say some of the things without people knowing who i am. but then i dont htink you're supposed ot have more than one sn. but tonight i read a post where they said mara said its ok to do for that reaosn as long as you're ot deceiving people with it. i wonder....

Quoting The Male Brain{Heather}:“ ive always wanted to make up a second screen name so that i COULD say some of the things without people ... [snip!] ... read a post where they said mara said its ok to do for that reaosn as long as you're ot deceiving people with it. i wonder....”

for real?? well, then go for it. but wait a little while. let some more fake people come and go, or somebody might figure out its you. nah...second thought...its so many random fakes daily...no one would notice lol  

Quoting Adrielle's Mommy, Meri:“ for real?? well, then go for it. but wait a little while. let some more fake people come and go, or ... [snip!] ... go, or somebody might figure out its you. nah...second thought...its so many random fakes daily...no one would notice lol  ”

lol, there are a lot of fakes. im scared mara would find out and ban me and i would be lost. serisouly. without bg

i feel the same way.. i try to say how i feel but i try to make it nice.. its like sometimes i wanna tye in all caps YOUR AN IDIOT well a little more then that.. but there are some people on here who really annoy me and in real life i would of probally karate chopped them haha

i have horrible self esteem and lately its gotten much worse. I feel ugly and fat even though im only 111 pounds. I am super pale, i can't tan and my boyfriend is obsessed with tan skin. Im irish so if i tan i get freckles that last forever. I feel like im never good enough and never will be.

This thread is a good idea!

I have been bipolar ever since I was 19.  It makes a lot of sense on why I did the things I did when I was younger.  All the signs were there but I just ignored them.

When we moved to Michigan I found a GREAT therapist and she finally got me on the right cocktail of meds and honestly, I haven't felt this great in forever.  The side effects of my medication (Lamictal) make me break out but honestly, it's a side effect that I don't mind having if it makes me feel human.

Quoting Elizabeth (mountainbaby):“ I don't know if I should post here on not but I'll try. Tell me to go away if you want. My husband is ... [snip!] ... you and the people you love. I'm angry that I let myself be treated so poorly for so long. I probably need therapy myself.”

My God, you've described MY ex! Right to a T!

He was/is the same way..severely bipolar,abusive, everything you've described your ex doing,mine did too.

I think my ex was/is also schizo-affective,if not full-blown schizophrenic.And he blamed everyone and anyone but himself for being violent,abusive,cruel,sexually innaproppriate,ect.
He didn't bother to take his meds unless I handed them to him,and even then he would flat refuse at times,and though he was going to court-ordered anger -management,he never opened up about how bad things were going.
And he never tried to go to any one-on-ne therapy.

Wow..it's creepy,how alike the two of them are.