I suffer from depression. It has been a rough road but I have never had any professional help. I have been feeling great, usually things overwhelm me too much and I think that the only way out is death. But ever since I ended my relationship with my BD I haven't had melt down as such. I don't know if I should still seek for help now or wait and see if I don't go into bad depression again. I have been like this for many yrs and the attempts of killing myself get worse, I really don't want to end my life and leave my son here alone.
I almost got depressed but I am having more faith now(in God) and it makes me feel better. This is what I tell myself when I feel overwhelm, like this are just too hard, or when I feel hopeless:
"God never gives us anything to make us weak. God gives us challenges because he knows we can overcome them and make us stronger!!:God never gives us anything to make us weak. God gives us challenges because he knows we can overcome them and make us stronger!!"
I'm sorry if you aren't religious but it is my motivation and what gets me going. I have really never believed in God until my friend invited me to a service. It was emotional and gave me hope, I am still not ready to fully commit to going to church all the time, but for now I am good with God and knowing that the faith in him in never lost and is someone you feel like is always there even without seeing him.