re: Mental health support.

Quoting Ryan&Lani'sMom:“ I have generalized anxiety disorder and depression. I honestly think I have suffered from depression ... [snip!] ... think if I weren't on medication I would be dead right now. There is no way I could have lived through Ryan dying without it.”

Man momma you have alot on your shoulders.
Do you see a therapist on a regular basis?

Quoting Kelli Jo (AB-):“ Man momma you have alot on your shoulders. Do you see a therapist on a regular basis? ”

I do. I see someone now for grief counseling. I also have my pyschiatrist. I have tried almost every single antidepressant known to man. Even MAOI's. All the old school drugs, seizure medications, etc. So if anyone has questions on pills let me know!
I have tried to kill myself twice. Once I was 16 and something really bad happened. I took about 50 pills (zoloft, paxil, and trazadone). Ended up in the ER getting my stomach pumped. Tried again a few years later but that time I had Geodone which can, actually, kill you. Back in the ER. That was many years ago though and I have been doing pretty good since 2005. I won't lie I have wanted to kill myself a lot over the last year but I'm not as scared as I used to be.

Quoting Ryan&Lani'sMom:“ I do. I see someone now for grief counseling. I also have my pyschiatrist. I have tried almost every ... [snip!] ... good since 2005. I won't lie I have wanted to kill myself a lot over the last year but I'm not as scared as I used to be.”

Have you ever heard of EMDR therapy? Its a behavioral therapy activity aimed at moving events from your running memory and moving them to your "hard drive" so to speak. It's not hypnosis, and it doesn't erase memories. It just puts them into a part of your brain that you can process them. store them and move on.

I had alot of grief over the last 3 years due to my divorce. I would play events in my head day after day until I was no longer living in the present tense. My therapist (is licensed in EMDR) did some sessions with me, and I feel better. Like I said, I remember them, but I have been trained to put them away so they don't affect my day to day life. With everything you have been through with the babies, it may be helpful to you.

http://www.emdr.com/

Quoting Kelli Jo (AB-):“ Have you ever heard of EMDR therapy? Its a behavioral therapy activity aimed at moving events from ... [snip!] ... my day to day life. With everything you have been through with the babies, it may be helpful to you. http://www.emdr.com/”

I have done EMDR!!!! lmao. Sorry I need to read the rest of the post now lol

Quoting Kelli Jo (AB-):“ Have you ever heard of EMDR therapy? Its a behavioral therapy activity aimed at moving events from ... [snip!] ... my day to day life. With everything you have been through with the babies, it may be helpful to you. http://www.emdr.com/”

I had to do EMDR when my POS ex cheated on me. It was devastating to me because I had gained 30 pounds on Paxil (before we met) and I felt like I was so ugly and nasty and then he cheats on me   with someone who really IS nasty lol. All I could think about was them together so I did it for that EMDR. I never even thought to try it for Ryan and Leilani.. Idk. It was interesting to say the least  

Quoting Ryan&Lani'sMom:“ I had to do EMDR when my POS ex cheated on me. It was devastating to me because I had gained 30 pounds ... [snip!] ... so I did it for that EMDR. I never even thought to try it for Ryan and Leilani.. Idk. It was interesting to say the least  ”

I didn't believe it at all. I was like ok go ahead and wave your fingers in front of my face while I laugh at you...   But over time it really did help alot. I have alot of issues back and forth with my ex husband. We were on and off for years until he broke down and told me he got a one night stand pregnant. I was devestated (still am at times).

They are still together. She lives in my marital house, and all. Its hard.
Also, if you look in the OP's thread there is a link to a post I made a while back. In addition to therapy I also attend free groups put on by various organizations. Meeting other people with the same issues has helped me alot. There is a group locater on each site, so maybe you can catch one near you.

Quoting Kelli Jo (AB-):“ I didn't believe it at all. I was like ok go ahead and wave your fingers in front of my face while I ... [snip!] ... people with the same issues has helped me alot. There is a group locater on each site, so maybe you can catch one near you.”

thanks! sorry about yous POS ex!

Quoting Ryan&Lani'sMom:“ thanks! sorry about yous POS ex!”

Eh we all have a POS ex right?
I ended up in a relationship with my best friend of forever. He is the only one that stood up for me through all that. Fast forward to today and we have our own family, and a wee one on the way in January. I'm better off without my ex. I only deal with him now because of my daughter.
Oh and I am going to PT you.

hi ladies,
I have struggled with depression and anxiety since about the age of 13. I had a lot of bad things happen at that age.. my best friend died from a brain tumor, my mom and dad separated and my dad moved to Arizona, and my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer, all in the course of a year. I think that triggered my depression but it also runs in my family, so who knows. I was on medication for years but all it did was make me feel numb. I felt "okay" for a few years but since my kids have been born it's been creeping back up on me. I have severe anxiety and things HAVE to be clean and organized or else I just feel on edge ... and just recently over the last few months I've been having anger problems. Some days I feel okay, even happy.. but then I have days where I just feel like smurf, a bad mom, abad friend, etc..
My mom has been trying to help me by taking my kids a few hours a week so I can have some alone time and I'm trying to get into the mental health clinic here since I don't have insurance.

i've been open about my problems.. but the basic diagnosis for me is : PTSD, Bipolar, GAD, and possiable BDD

medication wise, ill go on them be a good little girl and take them then stop taking them because i feel better,.. which is a big nono

ive been on just about every medication out there and i think im better off it then on it, my thing is i need to find an outlet for when i get bad..

i used to be a binge drinker (almost killed my self from alcohol posioning a few times, i had low self respect at a point that i had multiply sex partners due to losing self respect froma terriable sexual assult(the number i have had i will never admit to for two reasons.. one its way to high and two, i truely dont know how many i have had

my pysh doctor said im non corropative and he tinks i should find another shrink to see because he said there isnt much more he can do for me, which makes me feel worse that im a failure


whew..

Note: this was in free for all I found this area to be more fitting to my problem.. thanks!
I have horrible anxiety and panic disorder and its getting the best of me. Im so worried about my health and not being able to take care of my baby and husband. I miss my fam we just pcs'd here to florida and im all alone. I have an appt to get my bloodwork done in the morning cause im so scared I have diseases. Plus we have to go to another clinic sometime soon to get myself, my son, and my huby genetically tested cause I found a rare disease runs in my fam from my biological father.Im a wreck.Im so tired cause to anxious to sleep and im running on no fuel and havent eaten. Cheer me girls!

I've had BPD II since i was 13. I was diagnosed after a suicide attempt brought on by a rape incident that occured at a friends house during a sleepover.
I attempted suicide once more 2 months after i was released from the psych ward, and was consequently readmitted.

From there i was on medication, but had a long drawn out affair with severe self mutilation. I have permanent nerve damage in my wrists from cutting. It started shallow, but each time would need to be deeper and deeper. It got to the point where i would need stitches and butterfly bandages to hold the skin on my arms together. Then i moved onto burning myself. Mainly by rubbing an eraser across my skin as hard as i could, until it had burned away a decent layer of skin.

I stopped self mutilating through counseling and just plain growing up, experiencing life and learning to cope with my rampant emotions and with painful events. I've been SI free for 3 years now.

After i delivered my son i had a severe depressive episode. I didnt realize it at the time, but i had full blown post partum depression. I nearly killed myself. Thankfully, my husband and mother pushed me to get help. Through more medication and counseling, i was able to get myself under control and learn to love my son and my new role as mother. But it did, unfortunately, take me 6 months to do.

And uhh... thats it.

I don't know if I should post here on not but I'll try. Tell me to go away if you want.
My husband is severely bipolar. His manic episodes are violent. He has destroyed property, threatened peoples lives, and violently attacked me (the last time was while I was pregant). He has memory loss, blanks out major portions of time, self medicated with pot and cocaine, extremely low self esteem, and anger episodes where he tells everyone he hates them. I was with him for 5 years and left in may 2005. There were only so many times I was willing to beg him to get help and have him refuse. He was diagnosed shortly after I left and told that he had probably been bipolar since the age of 5 to 7. He actually attempted suicide at age 7. His mother is clearly also mentally ill and never got him the help that he needed. He has abused me physically, mentally and financially.
I strongly believe that with proper help (therapy and meds) that most people with mental illness can have happy, stable, productive lives. However, this man does not takes medications with any regularity and has called every therapist a fool. He also insists that he was "cured" after a few months of meds and therapy.
I hope that all of you continue to get help. Your illnesses affect you and the people you love. I'm angry that I let myself be treated so poorly for so long. I probably need therapy myself.

my mom told me aftereverything i was a difficult child from an early age... as an infant i didnt attach to people as easly, as a toddler i had severe terriable twos, as a young child i had a bad temper... hen i was younger when i would get mad i would lose control and become very violent... but when i lookback i blame a,lot of it on my parents.. my mom NEVER hit me but she would allow my dad to hit us... she did it alot out of fear.. but she needed to realize that we lived that fear..

my shrink told me that abuse can be a trigger, but the worst thing about abused children suffering mental illness they never learn the proper coping techniques


i do have a confession though that I never told anyone on BG.. and i hope it will never leave this post

I met Kaylee's father when i was in a behavior health center (mental hospital) at he time i thought i could fix him and if i could fix him it would fix me.. he mnoved in wth me.. and long story short i learned to cope with my problems and he didnt and it was hindering my healing.. he was very abusive physically,emotionally, and sexually.. but i never told anyone that.. i still think he meant to get me pregnant so i wouldnt leave him
what hurts the most.. is i swore my whole family to secreatcy to never ever tell KLaylee how me and her father met..

I suffer from depression. It has been a rough road but I have never had any professional help. I have been feeling great, usually things overwhelm me too much and I think that the only way out is death. But ever since I ended my relationship with my BD I haven't had melt down as such. I don't know if I should still seek for help now or wait and see if I don't go into bad depression again. I have been like this for many yrs and the attempts of killing myself get worse, I really don't want to end my life and leave my son here alone.

I almost got depressed but I am having more faith now(in God) and it makes me feel better. This is what I tell myself when I feel overwhelm, like this are just too hard, or when I feel hopeless:
"God never gives us anything to make us weak. God gives us challenges because he knows we can overcome them and make us stronger!!:God never gives us anything to make us weak. God gives us challenges because he knows we can overcome them and make us stronger!!"

I'm sorry if you aren't religious but it is my motivation and what gets me going. I have really never believed in God until my friend invited me to a service. It was emotional and gave me hope, I am still not ready to fully commit to going to church all the time, but for now I am good with God and knowing that the faith in him in never lost and is someone you feel like is always there even without seeing him.