Goodbye :(

August 24th will forever be the worst day of my life. I knew from the second my Mom walked into my room Sunday morning that something was wrong because she never wakes me up!! She sat down on my bed and just told me she just heard from a friend that one of my best friends had taken her own life. She left a note which explained in the note that she was pregnant [which I knew about & had promised to help her with ANYTHING]. But that it was too hard for her & that she had not only ruined her life but everyone around her. Which is so far from the truth. She was ALWAYS a stubborn girl, very selfish but that's what made her, her! I loved her. She was my go to girl. She was the one that cracked me up when I was dead set on crying over some stupid fight me & Paden had. It's not fair. Life is NEVER so bad that you have to kill yourself. We have SO much to look forward too. I just don't understand. I should have been more supportive. I can't imagine life without her. The first day of school & the first week of school was miserable without her. I can't imagine having to go through the entire year without her. I just can't stop crying. It feels like MY world is crashing down now. I've never had to deal with any loses like this and the fact that she took her own life makes everything seem so f*cked up. Were me & her other friends just not good enough for her?! I'm even more depressed because I'm so pissed about the situation which makes me sad that I'm angry. I can't even think straight. Life SUCKS right now.

That is so sad.. I'm crying right now. Taking your own life is the most selfish thing to do.. I wish there was some way to educate people better about depression and hopelessness so they don't feel like that's the only option they have left. I'm so sorry..

Aww that is soo sad about your friend. My heart goes out to you. Just remember to keep ya head upand that you and your baby now have a angel watching over the both you!!! Wish you the best sweetie!!

Quoting Azaera:“ That is so sad.. I'm crying right now. Taking your own life is the most selfish thing to do.. I wish ... [snip!] ... people better about depression and hopelessness so they don't feel like that's the only option they have left. I'm so sorry..”

It's not selfish, it's sad. Imagine being that depressed. Imagine how much pain she must have been in. Sh probably honestly thought the world would be better without her. 

Im crying right now. My best friend Brandon killed himself last year. All I can say is that in some weird way it will eventually get easier. If you need to talk, I have you as a friend on my myspace and I check this daily.

That is so sad. I'm so sorry for your loss. I too have first hand experience with suicide. Please take my advice and seek help from your local Hospice organization. They have free grief support and counseling. Don't try to do it all on your own.

Awwe. I just want to hug you right now. **Hugs from Georgia**

Oh thats terrible but let me tell you from the other side that in your mind sometimes things do get bad that you think no one will help you and you just cant get out of the hole that has sucked you in. Im sorry for your loss we just had a high school kid kill himself too. I dunno whats going on it seems to be in the air and it sucks ass!

That's horrible! I am so sorry for your loss. You will be in my prayers.

one of my friends killed herself sophomore year. It was horrible. I'm so sorry.  

omg thats sooo terrible. why did she do that   i just cant believe it. i dont even know her and i am just so upset about it. theres so many more choices when you get pregnant like adoption, and it's not the end of the world. i wish someone would have known it was really that bad on her part so they could have talked to her before this happened   i am so sad for you right now i just cant imagine losing a close friend   *hugs*

Yes, it is sad, but they don't think about the people around them that they are hurting. They don't seem to realize all the people they are affecting by taking their own life, and once it's done they aren't the one who has to live with the consequences. Obviously. It's their family and friends who have to grieve for them and miss them. And it's tough to realize it at the time, but life isn't always so bad, they can get help, things can get better if they just stick it out. My brother is suicidal, and I've been there myself when I was 18, but I just couldn't do it. I knew how many people in my life that I would be hurting. I felt that killing myself would be the easy way out, and everyone but me would be left to suffer. So in that way it is selfish. But that is just my opinion, you don't have to agree with it.

I am so sorry. I cannot imagine the pain you her friends and family are going through right now. You are all in my thoughts.

Im so sorry for your loss. A year ago from this past June my friend too took his life. He was the happiest kid i know.. and we still dont know why he did it. I took Caden to his grave to meet him. It was horrible. It never really gets better.. but you do find closure. I think that if he did it.. he must have been hurting really bad to go to that extreme and maybe hes happier where he is now. I visit his grave and on holidays bring him things. Do the same.. you wont ever stop missing her.. but just think shes happy now, possibly and shes watching over you every day. Im so sorry this happened to you.

I am soory to hear that sweety....Don't worry about being angry or mad at her for leaving it's completely normal. It's OK too if you cry or feel guilt. The grieving process is a complicated thing to go through and it's also very necessary. When my Dad died 2 years ago I remember being so mad at him for leaving, then feeling guilty because I was mad...I'm still not over his death and probably never will be...You will always miss her, that won't go away but speaking from experience the pain does ease up....It will be easier to breathe soon and after a while you'll be able to talk and think about her without crying...I'll be thinking of you sweety and PM me if you ever need to talk! Going somewhere secluded and just screaming your head off does wonders  

I know how much you are hurting. Suicide is so hard to accept // deal with. My brother in law took his own life recently, if you ever want to talk please PM me. Your friend was definitely lucky to have someone like you who loved her. I'm so sorry you are going through this, especially pregnant, when emotions are multipled by 1,000,000