Ultrasound question

I had a missed miscarriage at 8.5 weeks. The ultrasound tech printed the picture for me before the doctor told me my baby died. She printed one at regular size (black and white) and one a bit bigger in a red tone.

Did anyone else have this done for them? I have no idea what to do with it. On one hand I think it's kind of weird and disturbing (especially the red one!). On the other hand, I just can't get the picture off my mind, even though I'm feeling "better" now. I have it tucked away in the pregnancy journal my dad bought me. What the heck am I supposed to do with this? I'm sorry if this sounds insensitive or something, I'm just having a hard time knowing this picture is in my house. I don't know why, but I can't get it out of my mind!

I don't want to throw it away, but it's bothering me. If you have one of these, have you done anything special with it? I'm not really a memorial box kind of person, but I think this is a sign I really need to deal with this picture.

i would maybe give it to family member who could keep it safe for you, then it's out of the way, and when you have another baby you could maybe put it in their baby book under siblings or something? maybe that would help you deal better.

Well just look at and say god has another angel. And try to be at peace with it. I know its not easy but i wouldnt throw it away or anything cause you will regret it. And if it hurts to much just tuck it away and dont look at it for a while.

i would give the one to my mom and the burn the red one....

Quoting Star1984:“ I had a missed miscarriage at 8.5 weeks. The ultrasound tech printed the picture for me before the doctor ... [snip!] ... with it? I'm not really a memorial box kind of person, but I think this is a sign I really need to deal with this picture.”

Well i lost my baby in January stillbirth i was 5 months and went in for a regular checkup no fetal heartbeat was sent to get a stat ultrasound which confirmed my baby had died well she printed a picture for me and it was very obvious my baby wasnt alive he was just floating arms locked down to his side but there isnt anyway in this world i could do away with that pic i took everything from the pregnancy dr apt cards hospital info after delivery, cards from friends family and coworkers and cremation certificates and babies footprints i put it all into a big album (kinda like a memorial)but since you are not into that sort of thing maybe have your mother or somebody put it away for you until you are able to deal with it all everybody handles misscarriage and stillbirths differently maybe you just need time. Or maybe you might need to talk to somebody

I have a pic of mine that I miscarried at 9 weeks...we didn't find out till 12 weeks though. My docs office kept the pic until I was ready for it. I have it now, and keep it in a special place. Do what makes you feel the best. The red one sounds a little scary.

give it to someone to keep it for you until you're ready to look at it. It may not feel like it now, but you'll want something to remember your baby by, something tangible. I'd even keep the red one.

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Thanks ladies! I think I know what I'm going to do for now. We are still unpacking from moving recently, so this weekend I'm going to be organizing some storage stuff. I think I'm going to take the journal with the pictures in it and put it away in my closet. That way at least it will not be on the living room bookshelf! I think after I have a successful pregnancy I'll be able to make a special album for it.

Sometimes you just have to get this stuff out to think it through, you know? Thanks for listening and giving suggestions.  

That red one would creep the shit out of me I think...  

But def. hang onto the other one.. The day will come when you will want it, until then just keep it tucked away somewhere safe...
I didn't go back to get the cd of my sons ultrasound for months after he was born because I was too afraid to see what "started it all" if you will.. I looked through it once, and then put it in the memory box we have... I like knowing there is more there if I need to see them, but I dont' necessarily want to look at them all the time...

Keep ur chin up Mama,
- Jess

Quoting Star1984:“ I had a missed miscarriage at 8.5 weeks. The ultrasound tech printed the picture for me before the doctor ... [snip!] ... with it? I'm not really a memorial box kind of person, but I think this is a sign I really need to deal with this picture.”

I had many ultrasounds done in the red/blue tones, but I never got a pic printed out like that.
In my case the ultrasound tech was looking at the blood flow inmy babys body.
I think since there was no blood flow in your baby that's why the pic is red.
I would keep all the memories that you have of your baby and pack them away for another day when you are stronger to cope with your loss.
Because one day you just might regret throwing the ultrasounds away.
Good luck!
PS.....
Make a time capsule and wrapup the box with your babys memories in it and write on it don't open for 5 years.