BORED.

My son is sleeping.. Hes teething really bad today.
I did all the housework and grocery shopping and im SO bored.
Anyone else just have NOTHING to do?
I just wish i had some question to ask so I could make a random post just for something to do.
But nope. Ive got nothing.

have you two moved yet??


eta- well, you three.

Quoting anthonys mommy:“ have you two moved yet?? eta- well, you three.”

we moved to burlington and lived there for a month.
david cheated on me.
i moved back in with my mom last week.
our relaationship isnt doing so good.
were back together but living apart.
long story short.

im sorry, that cant be easy..

do you guys know how long your going to live apart for?

Quoting anthonys mommy:“ im sorry, that cant be easy.. do you guys know how long your going to live apart for?”

until he graduates. proves himself worthy. and gets his act together.
also when he turns 18.. hopefully may if hes straightened out by then. hes taking caden for the day tomorrow. cadens been saying dada dada all day its so sad. and david was never there for him.. but still.. he misses his daddy. then after david is taking just me out to eat and to a movie. hes got a lot of work to do to get us back.. but i think he might change this time. hes been such a horrible person since i had caden. i dont know why.. and then he got wasted because we were fighting and let some girl get on him.. he said he toldher he was done and to get off like 10 seconds into it when he realized what was going on and called me crying appologizing.. but i cant forgive him for that because he shouldnt have been drinking and he DEFINATELY shouldnt have been with other girls beforehand even if we were fighting!!!!!!!!!!!1  but i love him.. so much. no matter what.

Quoting newlifeofmine:“ until he graduates. proves himself worthy. and gets his act together. also when he turns 18.. hopefully ... [snip!] ... have been with other girls beforehand even if we were fighting!!!!!!!!!!!1  but i love him.. so much. no matter what.”

wow.
that sucks   but if he really loves you, and to me it seems like he really does, hopefully he will get his act together.
and at least hes not avoiding you, and he is still involved with caden.

are you doing okay?

I'm at work, I've got tons of things to do I'm just not doing them. I will eventually... sometime today. If I can pry myself away from this site, lol Tonight after work I'll have nothing to do, I'm going to be kid free for the next two days.

Quoting anthonys mommy:“ wow. that sucks   but if he really loves you, and to me it seems like he really does, hopefully he ... [snip!] ... he will get his act together. and at least hes not avoiding you, and he is still involved with caden. are you doing okay?”

no im really not okay. i keep thinking about him with another girl and its making me sick. i havent eaten much in weeks and i cant sleep. its horrible. its just so.. i cant belive it.. 5 years weve been together.. took eachothers virginity.. we were fucking 11 yeras old when we got together back when we were afriad to even hold hands. my god.. and now he does this? i meanthe sex part he didnt do on purose.. but inviting girls over and drinking with them... my god he was asking for it. i just cant believe it. he really hasnt been in cadens life up until now. hes changed probably a total of 10 diapers in cadens 7months of life. he yells a lot.. grabs me.. swears.. calls caden names. we had to get out. thats why were with my mom.. hes trying to make it better. i know he loves me.. its uts since caden was born hes changed. i listen to that song saying "the best thing aobut tonight is that were not fighting, could it be that we have been this way before?" and its what i think... we used to be okay.. i want that to come back even though what he did was unforgivable. do yuo ever feel like no matter how much you fight with ure man.. no matter how much you hate him.. you still want him there with oyu lying next to you.. even if ure still fighiing. u want his hug his touch.. still.. and always will. idk if he was to beat me to shit (he hasnt and wont) but im saying.. even if he did that.. its his arms id want to be in.. okay maybe that was an extreme.. but you get the point. idk.. i feel like im maybe letting myself get controlled and manipulated.. but i love him. i really do. im here keeping my son safe and making sure hes going to change becfore we live together.. but i still am with him.. i love him. sry. i vented just then, lol.

Quoting Alex ♥ Aidens Mommy:“ I'm at work, I've got tons of things to do I'm just not doing them. I will eventually... sometime today. ... [snip!] ... pry myself away from this site, lol Tonight after work I'll have nothing to do, I'm going to be kid free for the next two days.”

i should be at work.. but i have no childcare anymore. GREAT.. not.

Quoting newlifeofmine:“ i should be at work.. but i have no childcare anymore. GREAT.. not.”

aww I'm sorry, if it wasn't for my kids dad and grandma I wouldn't be able to work either. You sound like you're having a bad day, I hope it gets better for you.

Quoting newlifeofmine:“ no im really not okay. i keep thinking about him with another girl and its making me sick. i havent ... [snip!] ... making sure hes going to change becfore we live together.. but i still am with him.. i love him. sry. i vented just then, lol.”

i couldnt imagine. i would be the same way if i was going through that.
and not really having anyone else to turn to, especially anyone you love as much as you do him.
its hard enough to be seperated (living apart) i dont think i could do it.
i think your strong for keeping yourself away from him until he proves to you that he wants to be with you, and that it will be worth your time.
i hope everything works itself out.

Quoting anthonys mommy:“ i couldnt imagine. i would be the same way if i was going through that. and not really having anyone ... [snip!] ... until he proves to you that he wants to be with you, and that it will be worth your time. i hope everything works itself out.”

i wish every day he was with me.. hes the one saying he needs to be away so he doesnt hurt us anymore. he needs to change.. hes afraid and he needs to be somewhere where he'll be disciplined i guess. i dont know. i wish he was here. we might spend weekends together at my moms or something. havent decided.. but other than that were apart.