Its all i think about and i am just about ready........

i am just writing to VENT a little, not mad just sad.
I am actively tring to conceive again , i had my D & C in july, and i am just starting to get a little Nervous and scared to be pregnant again. i keep trying to keep postivie.
And most of the time i am positive because i am SO excited to be pregnant again and have everything turn out ok, i dont even remember what it like to have a baby, i hardly remember my 4 yr old as a baby, i just cant wait,..... but in the back of my head is that NAGGING feeling to have to go through saddness for the 5th time. But just seeing most of the ladies on BABY GAGA gives me hope and comfort most of the time

all i think about is to have a health baby with my hubby and my son is just miserable being an only child . BUT I AM TRYING REALLY HARD. i dont even know when i am supposed to ovulate i figure my cycle will be a mess for a while. It took 5 months to get prego with the last and hopefully i am SUPER fertal right now so i can have a WONDERFUL birthday present next month.
i am trying tio think if there is even anythign EXTRA that i can do to make sure i get pregnant. I need prayers and lots of LUCK........

I'm so sorry for your loss. I know how you feel it's a scary yet hopeful journey to ttc again. I also had a mc and d&c in July. We started trying this month after af showed. I've been charting to help see when & if I ovulated. Last month after the d&c it was cd22 and af arrived cd33. I am currently on cd19 and may have ovulated around cd13 or 14. I am hoping, like you that we are extra fertile and that this is our month. Good luck, hope this is your month. Keep me posted.