Post Pardum Depression

Well I deffinetely had the baby blues after I had Jayden, and I felt guilty for being depressed when I should be so happy that I have this beautiful new baby in my life.
I heard something that made things a million times better.

CHANGE IS WHAT YOU MAKE IT, SO EMBRACE IT!

just so you know, post partum depression, the baby blues, all that jazz-- it's not something to feel guilty about... it's pretty inevitable at a chemical level.

you just lost a huge part of your hormone-producing machine when your baby's old house (the placenta) was expelled from your body.

so your system is sort of train-wrecked and in recovery for the first couple of months-- trying to get back on an even keel.

i mean, really, birth is this HUGE event that's traumatic to your entire body, you really shouldn't expect it to be sunshine and daisies right off the bat... no matter how much you already love your baby.

and personally, i didn't love my boy for the first few months anything like i do now... i had the deep/hard-core maternal instinct working for me at that point, waking me up if he so much as snurffled funny, but i did not love him like i do now.

we have bonded so much and our relationship just keeps getting better and better.

i can't wait till he can talk and we can really communicate w/ eachother.

but i'm glad you've found some inspiration anyway... just don't beat yourself up if you find yourself involuntarily crying about dumb crap.

i had huge guilty feelings for the first month after max was born for the tiniest things-- tears would well up in my eyes b/c i felt so inadequate-- it was absurd... especially b/c i'm not that sort of person, but my hormones were running me through the wringer for the first month.