i want to shoot you in the face. :/ (vent, long, and way uno

so. basically.
me and junior broke up 2 saturdays ago. (he is the babys dad)
because we got in to a huge huge fight, i cant even remember what about. but it was ridiculous. liek we hit eachother screamed at eachother, etc. it wasnt around Aeris, but still its not a good situation.
he ended up moving back to his dads house cus my mom kicked him out. we broke up, and obviously it killed me.
i didnt eat for about 5 days, slept like maybe 2 hours a day, all spread out. no matter how hard i tried i couldnt sleep. i couldnt eat cus everytime i tried, i almost threw up after 2 bites.

so i find out, 5 days after we broke up, that he had been having sex with his ex bridgette since the day after we broke up. when i heard that, i felt nothing, no hurt, or anything so i was like. wow, i must be moving on way fast than i thought.

well, when i feel all strong and stuff, he begins telling me how he needs me and loves me and all this stuff, and like begging me to come back. this started 5 days ago. he said he wouldnt hang out with bridgette. then yesterday he decided he didnt want to try anymore because i kept telling him how much he has hurt me, and we end uparguing. then it turns out, he had sex with her again yesterday. he is messing with my head so bad. one day he wants me, the next hes trying to fill a void with some nasty nasty skank. i hate this. so much.

idk if you guys have heard of this game, but i play a game called WarCraft 3. a huge reason we broke up is because im in a clan on there, and he thinks i like one of the guys. now naturally being the only girl, i get hit on, w/e no biggie. i ignore it. but apparently he think im like in love with someone on the game? when for one, he lives a couple thousand miles away, and for two, how could i like someone when i dont know the real them? yeah i enjoy talking to him, but come on. its jsut absurd.

im sick of guys. he hasnt seen aeris since the 6th. adn he hasnt really tried. but yet has the nerve to tell me im keeping him from her.
im sorry that i dont want bridgette picking up my baby and acting like shes her mom. im alllll set.

hes driving me nuts. and wont make up his mind. but im not going to be here forever, i dont think he gets that. it sucks. i feel like im dying. thank god i have aeris to keep me happy and make me smile. she really is like the only person who can. and im so so thankful for that. i just wish her dad we prioritize better. :/

U should just leave him alone! He obviously doesnt want to be with you that bad if he keeps sleeping with his ex. Let him be in his daughter's life, but that is it. You deserve so much better than him! I know its hard to deal with, but in the end you'll see you made the right choice by not being with him.

I'm so sorry you are going through this right now. I am all for second chances...but this doesn't seem forgivable.

We teach people how to treat us and the reason he is doing this is because somehow you've let him know its okay. Nothing I can say or do is going to make you stop hurting but just remember...you are so much better than him and her. Let them be together. I promise some day you will thank them both.

I really hope you find the strength you need to realize you deserve better than this. I hope everything works out.

What an ass. I know there is nothing anybody can do or say that can help mend a broken heart. It's better you and your daughter aren't around a jerk like that.

i feel like im moving on again.
its tough. i want him in aeris's life. but it doesnt seem like hes making an effort, and he blames me for not getting her there. hello? youre almost 21, time for a license.

ugh. guys are just, idek. retarded lol. well atleast ones like him.
but im trying to look past all of this, someday ill be much stronger because of it.
im just glad i have freedom now. :]

he actually asked me to go to his house last night to have sex.
and i was like. you have to be kidding bud. its not happening. o_O

aw im sry, guys are ridiculous

i dont play warcraft 3, but i play World of Warcraft. there's a guy i been playin with on there for 2 1/2 yrs, and my man doesn't get jealous. thankfully. there's not many chicks on there, but there are quite a few in my guild.

anything by Blizzard is addicting. to keep your mind off things, just get sucked in the game for a bunch of hours.